I cried today for no reason, I dont know why but alas ime still crying. not like snapped arm off cry but my eyes just filled with water and i was crying I did feel bad but not that bad, grrr.

You are Gaara! The lover of death, you fight to kill and satisfy your own demons. Death is all around you, because you are the one who caused it. Not allowing anyone to become overzealous you fight the powerful and defeat them without a scratch on you. Your overbearing power brings fear into your companions and your love for death doesn't help either.

Wow, its hard to get over some things, now matter how hard you try.

THings i notice that are odd, unnnatural, creepy, wird feelings and tingle, and arouras around things places and items. Also to clear upmy train of thought i write how i think so if there is a Capitilized letter randomly throughout the fragments in my partial sentices try and read it how i think it, it helps in the understanding ...i think...lol.

Also this is me spilling out my thoughts so also I tend to go on random tangets, lol thats just to keep going trying not to stop the flow of information.
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I notice that when i get an imcoming call on my Cell phone that the speakers make a very odd sound, obviously that is the wavwws messing up the sound waves and distorting them, well i Also notice that periodicly my speakers will make the odd sound but no call, that is allways follow by either a cold chill or a sence of energy loss in the room, like a drain.


Also i notice that the human body can be attuned to cooperate in the darkness with its surroundings by feeling whats around it. Takeing your hand on a wall and guiding it down a hall way is one but i discoverd that as sone as you get near something that it will, I dont know, Emit a raidiance around it, just like when someone enters a room and before you see who it is you know becouse the atmosphere has change, and attuned itself to that person, or is that just me.


To continue I notice that when people get scared they tend to react different to some of the certin cituations for example I notice that when I am with a sword (may sound corny but its true) That i feal that i could kill Bielzabub himself, but when I am away from my, or any precious blade I loose my edge or my confidance, An example of that would be at my moms new, which is old now, house My first time in there I had a second floor room and i was alone on the second floor, I didnt think to bring my swords with me and that was by all means the first time i did not have a good sleep from paranoya. This I feel is the fact that people do cope with fear diffrently that is how i cope with fear, I have swords. I noticed that some of my other friends react by well screaming or trying to find a distraction for them selves, they might read or think and contemplate things but they are actually being scared, I am by all means not saying that people who contemplate are scared that that is just one way that people cope.


LOL, ime writing more that i thought i would.


I am a very observent person, One of the people who watch the party instead of actually dancing and throwing it, I notice that some things and patterns might, and do constantly repete, lol beside my dad on how important grades are, I have began to notice that the war pattern from the first war recorded to now have been speeding up and have become 1 in every 100 years or 50 even like it was when Ejpyt and other countries rull and now there is a new war every year or 2, but the death tolls have shrank
more war, more immoral deeds, more crimes and alot more corrupt people and i am seeing a down hill trend of "Good" in the world and I am seeing a rise of "Evil" christian or not i am underthe assumption that there is some compelling force behind the "Evil".

King Nothing

Wish I may
Wish I might
Have this I wish tonight
Are you satisfied?

Dig for gold
Dig for fame
You dig to make your name
Are you pacified?

All the wants you waste
All the things you've chased

Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around

Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name

Where's your crown King Nothing?
Where's your crown?

Hot and cold
Bought and sold
A heart as hard as gold
Yeah! Are you satisfied?

Wish I might
Wish I may
You wish your life away
Are you pacified?

All the wants you waste
All the things you've chased

Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around

Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name

Where's your crown King Nothing?
Where's your crown?

Huh!

(Spoken)
I wish I may
I wish I might
Have this wish I wish tonight
I want that star
I want it now
I want it all and I don't care how

Careful what you wish
Careful what you say
Careful what you wish
You may regret it
Careful what you wish
You just might get it

Then it all crashes down
And you break your crown
And you point your finger
But there's no one around

Just want one thing
Just to play the king
But the castle's crumbled
And you're left with just a name

Where's your crown King Nothing?
Nothing

No you're just nothing
Where's your crown King Nothing?
No you're just nothing
Absolutely nothing

Off to never never land

The Unforgiven II

Lay beside me, tell me what they've done
Speak the words I wanna hear, to make my demons run
The door is locked now, but it's open if you're true
If you can understand the me, than I can understand the you

Lay beside me, under wicked sky
Through black of day, dark of night, we share this pair of lives
The door cracks open, but there's no sun shining through
Black heart scarring darker still, but there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining through
No, there's no sun shining

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Come lay beside me, this won't hurt I swear
She loves me not, she loves me still, but she'll never love again
She lay beside me, but she'll be there when I'm gone
Black heart scarring darker still, yes she'll be there when I'm gone
Yes, she'll be there when I'm gone
Dead sure she'll be there

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
Sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits for you
Or are you unforgiven too?

Lay beside me, tell me what I've done
The door is closed, so are your eyes
But now I see the sun, now I see the sun
Yes now I see it

What I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you

What I've felt, what I've known
So sick and tired, I stand alone
Could you be there, 'cause I'm the one who waits,
The one who waits for you

Oh what I've felt, what I've known
Turn the pages, turn the stone
Behind the door, should I open it for you (So I dub thee unforgiven)

Oh, what I've felt
Oh, what I've known

I take this key (never free)
And I bury it (never me) in you
Because you're unforgiven too

Never free
Never me
'Cause you're unforgiven too
Oh

Hey every body my guest book wass signed;)

hey apperently ive seen 2 visitors soo KEWL well doing chores so g2g ttml(talk to myself laters seing this is my diary

Hey, well starting my diary and , well its empty. lol well thining about being a writer so all help is wanted lol once i figure out how to post i will right some.