It's all clear now that time is slipping away
The things I've meant to tell you are killing me inside
But I don't know how you'd take it.
I don't think I can handle what you'll have to say
For the longest time I've tried to make my feelings hide
But I don't know how much longer I can fake it
Cause when I look over you're sitting right there
I tyr not to notice, honestly, it's impossible
Because you tend to tower over me, and the rest of them too
Your eyes are llit up, between your smile and your hair
It makes it hard to concentrate; it's just awful
That I don't know how to break it to you
When your words carry all the way across the room
I just wish they'd be directed towards me
It just seems fair that after five years I'd get a little attention,
But no, a dying rose would sooner rebloom
I guess I just wish I could make you see
The way I feel, and have you feel it for me
I''m so frustrated right now, did I mention?
They're dating?
GOD! how could I be so stupid?!
*bashes head on wall "Stupid, stupid stupid!"
never fails
well, that was fun while it lasted =/
This next one is one of my attempts at a song. yeah =/. lol
(It's deffinitely unfinished)
Come, my Love, I hope you find me soon.
I'm miserable and it's twenty after noon.
The rain trickles down the cloudy window
Oh, my Love I wish I could know
Who you are, so we could go
So, so far away from here
I need you now, an escape, my dear
**NOT DECIDED YET***
So sweep me off my feet
We'll fly down that broken city street
Leave all of our troubles behind
For some time this has been on my mind
Come and take me away from this place
I need to see a new and loving face
**Not decided yet either***
My (adjective?! t/b/d) Love, I'm so excited to see
Who in the future you will be
I can't wait to be held inside you arms
Finally I'll feel safe and warm.
Your Passionate kiss will keep me moving on
When this (dreadful...idk
**Amazing ending yet to pop into my head**
so that's it so far =)
ok ok ok!! this one's funny to me because I only wrote this as a joke because i thought it would be corney, but my friends thought it was cute?! idk... they're "different" lol
On the 14th
I could get along just fine,
But will you be my valentine?
I usually do not have one,
But will you be mine just for fun?
I don't need flowers
Or a bear
Just need someone to show they care
I don't want candy
Or baloons
Just want to sit and watch cartoons.
Might go see a movie
I may let you decide.
I don't need a chick-flick
Just want you at my side.
Some things are just to hard to explain. like why I had to write this about Okla to cheer her up so she wouldn't kill me for what i did
(Slightly editted)
Fifth Period's Prayer
Lord,
Give me breath
When I am strangled,
New skin
When mine's slapped raw,
New ears
When i go deaf
And a brace for my bruised jaw. <<(Nothing dirty intended, so shut it!)
A pillow
To hide behind
A table
To crawl under
And make me need to go away
So I can hide from Laurel's thunder.
Grant me money
To pay her off
Or blackmail
To survive.
If I keep my eyes closed praying much longer
In a few seconds I might not be alive.
This one was for Laurel, A.K.A. "Okla"
Earth to Okla
She "Spins right round"
Face always a frown.
Looks up once in a while
Waiting for his smile.
Gives a cold laugh instead.
Her face is turning red.
A tear rolls down her cheek.
She can barely speak.
Anger builds up inside.
She tries to turn and hide
Her disappointed face
From this harsh, mocking place.
She denies it all.
Says she doesn't know
Why he let her fall.
Why'd he have to go?
She's too confued to care
For another guy.
He's the one that's there.
She should at least try.
His eyes are like a galaxy
So full of wonder and bold hue.
Sometimes I wish that i could see
His deepest thoughts and then straight through.
His smile is warm as summer's air.
His voice is calming as the rain.
His presence makes me whole, it's fair
To say when laughter heals my pain.
I've tried so hard to let it go.
I wonder if he'll ever know.
In the Hallway
There he is
Just passed up an opportunity
To find out why
Whe he doesn't want to be with me.
There she goes
She goes rubbing it all in my face
That she's in
In his arms, my favorite place
Here I stand
Watching it all fall apart
(And wondering why I liked him from the start)
Only so much a girl can do
All I want is to be with you
But go ahead, just walk on by
Cause I'll never let you see me cry
There he is
Just passed up a chance to be with me
To find out why
I keep my heart a mystery
Ther she goes
Just left him for another guy
Just because
She found out the reason why
Here I stand
Watching it all fall apart
(And wondering why he liked her from the start )
Only so much a girl can do
All I want is to be with you
But go ahead, just walk on by
Cause I'll never let you see me cry
"One thousand little reasons"
Ten thousand little secrets shared
Just laughing on and on.
Nine thousand ways you hint to me
That you will soon be gone.
Eight thousand missed views of you
Walking down the hall.
And seven thousand times I sat
Waiting for your call.
Six thousand times I've tried
To make myself forget
The five thousand times I've cried and cried,
"Why can't i move on,yet?"
Now I've got four thousand reasons
To start with him, brand new,
Three thousand friends to back me up
When I think I just can't do
The two thousand repairs to my heart,
And give this guy a chance at love.
For one thousand little reasons,
You'll never more be thought of.
*~*Venting!!*~
Let's see...
ok, things on my mind:
- A teacher who LEAVES
THERE STUDENT AT A COLLEGE CAMPUS
AND MAKES THEM WALK BACK TO THEIR SCHOOL
BECAUSE
someone DIDN'T NOTICE
THAT THEY WERE MISSING
IS AN IDIOT AND
THEREFOR
NEEDS TO
GET HIT
BY
AN UGLY
ORANGE
BUSS!!!!!!
yeah, that's how my day went... =D
-Guys who are asked to dance by a girl
SHOULD DANCE WITH THEM!!! unless there is a weird history between them. GAAAHHH!!!!
you don't tell them...no, let me change that, you don't HAVE YOUR IDIOT FRIEND tell them "Oh, I think he said he has a stomach ache, so, sorry, he can't dance with you"
... jerk =/
so far in my life most guys tend to:
a) be completely oblivious to the fact that I like them
b) abuse the power of knowing that I like them
c)lead me on and then let me find out two years later that they are GAY!!
d)completely abandon me
-Why does school food always smell weird?
-Why do I procrastinate so much?!
-Who is Cora?
-Why am I so nosey and why do I ask so many questions?!
-And WHY, Dear LORD, do teachers give us so much homework?!
ok....I've done enough damage for today. must go be lonely and sobb quietly in my room for a few hours listening to music =/
(Wow! So I guess I'm depressed today or something?!)