I am kinda depressed now. My high school musical of "Kiss Me Kate" just ended two days ago and it will be my last time on stage at this school. This was the third production I have been invovled in, two musicals and one theatre class performance. I performed various roles in scenes from various plays in Theatre class and did stage crew for both the musicals as well as being a featured dancer in the last.

I feel empty of all emotion. I feel no happiness, sadness, guilt, joy, or anything like that. I feel nothing emotionally. I am a shell.

I don't know what to do and I see advantages is this. Without joy there is no pain. But I do not wish this forever.

And this has no connection to my ex as most people would think.

i wish my ex wasn't so stubborn