Didnt really think I was going to write one of these but what the hell The only reason I made this stupid ass profile was for a girl and she just broke my heart so why not share some of what I'm feeling with all of you people who have absolutely no idea who I am. Where to start, well I suppose the start is the best place naturally. So I meet this girl through a friend of mine, absolutely gorgeous, smart, almost identical to me in terms of mutual interests. So I decide this girl is worth letting down my fucking rock hard walls of emotional protection. I fall and I fall hard, it gets to the point in which I'm talking to this girl all night long for days and days on end. We start dating and I am so happy I cant believe that day to day life is real. The only problem is that this is my first and only real long distance relationship. I'll be the first to admit that I'm a really clingy guy. I mean I just love spending time with the person that I'm involved with. So the distance is really a weight on my moral but I decided that no matter what, hell or high water I was going to find a way to be with her. I even declined acceptance to a University that I've wanted to go to for 2 years. Not even a sacrafice I mean I was so stupidly in love with this girl that I threw it away without a second thought. Things were great for a time, as long as I got to hear her beautiful voice I knew I could make it through the day. Then I had to take the hardest class I've ever been a part of. I mean I'm struggling with this class so much that I get tutored for it 3 days a week, am in a study session before the class. Communication suffers, and I start to lose hope. But then I talk to her and just that was enough to keep me going. Until last week when my brother's wife left him. He was in such a horribly depressed mood that I had to be by his side. So communication stops, I think to myself its ok I know I'll be able to talk to her soon. Little did I know that what time I was able to sacrifice to keep my head above water wasn't enough for her, and she starts a relationship without even telling me that we were over. Isn't that just great, you give your heart to someone and it just isn't good enough. Oh and I've been cheated on again, so I'm pretty sure that I'm just going to return to being an emotionless man whore. Because at least then I didn't cry.

Sorry my brother's wife left him and I couldn't talk to you. I hope he's worth it Shannon.