as i sit here at work this morning eating my pear, i wonder to myself... "what do i do that always pushes them away?" i don't get it... i should be..... no, we should've been happy now with all that's going on... promises that they wouldn't leave me, that they'd be there, but it was all lies... why does this keep happening to me... everytime i think things might be going well, i get a feeling that it's just a fleeting moment. things get complicated, too many people getting into our lives, not by my choice... they won't talk things out when we have a problem, just avoid... run away, and tell people their version, and everyone believes them because of a facade.... no one will ever lesten to my side of the story, just theirs. the poor victim, uncertain of what to do. i try to keep things together, but i'm only making it worse, why? i don't know. i've tried so hard to fix things. and no one realizes that if i didn't care about them so much i wouldn't even bother, and it hurts. it hurts so bad because no one understands me... no one tries to hear me out, so i don't bother trying to tell them anymore. i sit in my corner and cry while they have fun with the people who believe them.... and i realize that i am alone.... and i always will be.

why is life so slow when you need things to happen soon??

*POUT!!!* wow.... Gin-Ryu no Tsuki was not good enough for art duel..... i still think the other guys cheating!! *POUT!*

gosh i wish life wasn't always so hectic... i HATE having to wake up early!! *sob*.... anyway... i haven't had a chance to do much drawing or writing or ANYTHING!! *cry*....

now if only i can finish my website....

wow.. the kitsune revenge wiki page is going rather well i must say, lol.... *snicker* constance *snicker*