Well, there have been alot of changes made in my life... i have gotten to the point that i dreamed about so long ago, and now when i look over it all, am i really happy?...The answer is no... Material things can't make you happy, happiness is a myth, and only how your brain percieves somehting is how you make happiness.. So percieve a good day, and farewell friends...
I felt like i should have know or should ahve done something.. but the heart and the feelings of someone else isn't controllable..
It's very confusing when things suddenly fall apart, and all that is around moves more quickly, and everything twists and turns untill it's all just a big blur... With most things that's how it all ends, as pretty much nothing.. and i find myself picking up the remains of it all, and having to constantly restart.. i guess everything works out in the end.. i'm constantly learning new things from my mistakes and wen it all falls falls through and i'm left alone, i'm more stronger, and i guess that prepars me for the real world... Untill i can preoperly use that strength, i'm here to help and protect those that i can from getting hurt, it's like a calling or somehing.. i'm not to sure if this is what i'm really supposed to be doing, but i'll figure it all out eventually..., and with that thought i'll say goodnight...
I try not to count the days that go by.. and to not think about all that has happened in my life, becasue all that has happened, is chaos... and i believe that somehow things get better... I try hard to love and hate those that deserve it, but i only end up making mistakes, and hurting those who care about me. I'm sure i'm overexageratin
I'd have to disagree.. emotions are wat put that extra kick into life.. they help us through troublesome times and yes, they get us into trouble but in the end if we didn't have emotions we wouldn't have love and wouldn't feel every bit of life as it hits us. Emotions are our life, yes we need to us out logic at times but in the end emotions are the things that we need to survive..... we'd all be lifeless clones... robot like species..... it would be stupid and life would be nuthing but data and without emotions there is no purpose for the "data" to even be around. we'd have no purpose without emotons....
hope is a thing based on wishes, wishes are based on dreams, dreams are things that are fake and far from reality so just forget about it.
this world is a place wher the perfect ppl and perfect things don't exist, yet we go on about our lives trying to attain this so caled "perfection". It's not right! There is no perfection, there's only categories... there are big ppl and small ppl. There are good and evil, there are nice things and bad things. But those categories only form in our own minds. So there's no point in judging when there's nothing to be judged... You can't tell sumone that they're ugly cause everyone has a different view of wat ugly and pretty are. So don't judge ur fellow beings, they are just as imperfect as u are, and we have to learn to accept that and to only judge sumone by there personality, if they're assholes, then fine, but if they have nice personalities but not so great bodies, they shouldn't be treated any different than ppl wo u think have great bodies and good attitudes, cause the ppl u prefer could be ugly to the other guy.... so judge not one's body but personality...
I like this town but i need to get to know more people and to find people that understand me.