So. Lately life has been going better then I could ever ask for. I am back with Chance. The LOVE of my life. Whom.. Oh god, I don;t even know. I love him with all my heart.
... Schools ok.

Miyuki and Adam are still going at it. I love it. I am SO happy for Miyuki... she looked forever for a guy that would love her, and treat her right. Now she finally found one...<3
Adams, a good kid. Sep when I head but him.. then he gets like "ROar" but thats mmkay.

Hmm. JORDAN NETHANIEL BLAKE took the GAYEST pictures of me EVER! Oh god I want to beat him for it... I mean he totally ruined my life... He thinks they're pretty, I'm going to eat his head... Rawr.

Today was weird.. he called me and demanded we hang out. So he could see pictures of my boyfriend (chance<3) So after begging for like 30 minutes I said fine. We were playing with my camera.. I got him mooning me.. Ew.
I punched him in the face. Then I got him laughing so hard that he like kicked me in the stomach. Fucking LOSER!
So yeah, hes becoming one of my bestest friends. Well guy friends... But Chance is still first, sorry Jordan. You know you mean a lot to me. Only not like that.:D

Hmm. OMG my grandma called me, and was like "do you have a little friend over?" I was like..."Uh, yeah sure" Jordan woulnd't stop snorting.. I think my grandma was scared... LOL! poor little old woman..<3


I LOVE CHANCE SO MUCH!
<3<3<3<3<3<3
HAPPY CHRISTMAS!
Padfoot-

The Seasons change

Hard to breath when winters near,
It's wonderful cheer, the gorgeous snow falls
the late nights where you just watch the snow flurries
hit the ground without a sound
the way you feel as if you can fly
just open your wings and fly through the cold night
winters wonders, the cloudless skys welcome your presents
just open you wings and go, before its to late,
before winters gone, fly the heavens and ride the night, skip on snow flakes and sing in the echoing open sky. So many snow flakes but none the same
winter may be goen before you know just how wonderful it is
the seasons still change

padfoot

everytime i look away from you
my eyes ache without
you in my gaze
i looked up at you as if i was looking at my angel,
No one understands execpt me,
just how important you are
without you in my life
i would be lost in a unpridictable world
no one would love me
and no one would ever be there
you came into my life and chased all the horrid things away
so it was jsut you and me
but when i looked away i knew i made a mistake...
i knew i had lost you
lost the most important thing in my life
i could have stopped it, but i just didn't
i will live with this mistake for the rest of my life
unless you can forgive me... if you would jsut look at me one more time like you really loved me, then all this pain and agony would fade away
you told me i was your everything, but then why did you leave me
why would you hurt me and never say you left the same way
you said you were sorry, but that doens't always work
the word itself doesn't fix my empy heart ...
if i had you in my life i would be free again ... to fly the heavens and to sore the skys, to touch the stars...
i if i had you , and we shared one more kiss my heart would be sealed and safe, baried away from others who try to hurt me...
i love you and i will never look away from my angel as long as my heart still beats...

I knew this day would come, facing my fears
i told you i loved you isn't that good enough
what more do you want
i have nothing left
why would you hurt me
when i gave you everything
you just lefted me here broken and rejected
the one true fear of mine was losing you
all i had left was you,
i am nothing, with out you
i fell in love with a lier
faker, loser and worst of all a guy that never loved me,
you rejected me, now i see it was for the best
i was afraid of being rejected now i know it isn't all that bad, when the thing you are losing was never that great anyway...

-padfoot-

In Love with A stranger

why can't he be closer
it's not fair
life never is
i fall in love
yet he lives so far away
but i will wait
till we meet
whenever that may be
i shall wait
i will wait for the srtanger i felll in love with,

who is that girl staring back at me,
in the mirror
i see her so clear
but then why is it fogging and leaving me here
all by myself
with this imcomplete me
why is she still there
allmost gone
so close yet never close enough...
who she that girl looking back
at me
with that same fading look...
just come closer and let me see you in the light

padfoot- TAKE THIS AND DIE

Breaking down ,
everyone can tell
falling for the guy
you never thought you would
although you seem strong
there is a weakness in your eyes
telling the world your not ok
your heart is still beating
but then why are you so dead inside
you try to lie
to hide the pain
and confusion
but the more you do
the more you
break down...

padfoot-

letting go,
it's never easy
just something we have to do
cause in our hearts there is no way out
no easy, way to get rid of you,
i'm stuck
i'm confused,
hurt more then anything,
i can't let go
although i know it's right,
something's are never worth letting go of!!!!

Signed Padfoot

i love two people and i can';t pick one....cause i love one and then i love the other....damn it, help me people
jsut kidding you don't have to...lol i am a lame ass
Evaney