wow i haven't written in here for a longgggggg time!

wwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhh! cathug and elfpack are off! wwwwwwwaaaaaaaaaahhhhhhhhhhhhhhhhh...*sniffle*... i'm SUCH a cry baby pretender, but i miss them

life is so weird kenny *(my friend)* is so kool i'm so happy, talk later.

merrrrrrrrrrrrrrr, i hate being ignored! jeezzzzzzzzzzzzz and i thought we'd been good friends, darn. uh what to write??? i've been writing poems so when i go back to school i'll post them, too bad no-one's asked yet for me to write one for them, a well, bye.

wow it's been a long time since i wrote in here, oh what to write??????????????????????????????????????????????? life isn't what it's up to be, sometimes i wonder what life gives us, just to spoil it; by silencing our inner thougts and dreams, ruining other peoples lives( if they have one), then ruining ours by chance. I wonder do i have a life? is it worth living? why do i have eternal pain when i won't live that long?

i just read what i wrote and well it sucks! i hope everyone has a merry christmas!! and hunakka!
orevoir mon amies.

Fed Up, Just Fed Up 
      


Silent tears day-in-day-out.
          Always,
               Remembering the last time
 a waterfall happened.
Everything expected of you
     for others:     homework,  
       dishes,
laundry,      and how to live a life for someone else’s
        approval.
   Fed up, just fed up.
             Nothing’s  worth   all
   the pain. 
Everyone                making decisions for you,
changing everything,           changing you.
 Fed up, just fed up.
             Life’s depressing now.
   No, not a life,
not my life,
a stranger’s
life.
                 Looking into a mirror,
                     a stranger’s face peers back.
No, not my own!
Looking into a past,
                   a strangers past’s   reflected.
                    No, not my own!
            Looking into a future,
a stranger’s future appears.
No, not my own!
                  Fed up, just fed up.
Nothing,
      nothing,
           nothing.
                Fed up, just fed up.
                   Desperate, 
            desperate, 
   desperate.
        Fed up, just fed up

    with a stranger’s life.




                          Noxme