I'm laughing out loud reading back through some of these diary entries! Oh I was young! Sooo much has changed!
Thought I'd write a quick diary entry because I haven't for such a long time and I'm feeling quite good. There's two main reason's for that, the first is because I've got my GCSE results back and I did much better than I ever expected to do, I got an A*, 2 A's, 5 B's and a CC. That means I passed each and every one of them and I'll be going to sixth form to study Media Studies, Psychology, Sociology and English Language! I'm a bit shocked. The second reason is because I've had an absolutely amazing summer this year and have hardly ever been bored because I've always had something to do! I've spent loads of time with my friends and the time hasn't gone by quick either which I'm grateful for! So yeah, Alice is happy. End of. XD
My name is Chris
I am three,
My eyes are swollen
I cannot see,
I must be stupid
I must be bad,
What else could have made
My daddy so mad?
I wish I were better
I wish I werent ugly,
Then maybe my mommy
Would still want to hug me.
I cant do a wrong
I cant speak at all
Or else im locked up
All day long.
When im awake im all alone
The house is dark
My folks arent home
When my mommy does come home
I'll try and be nice,
So maybe ill just get
One whipping tonight.
I just heard a car
My daddy is back
From Chariles bar.
I hear him curse
My name is called
I press myself
Against the wall
I try to hide
From his evil eyes
Im so afraid now
I'm starting to cry
He finds me weeping
Calls me ugly words,
He says its my fault
He suffers at work.
He slaps and hits me
And yells at me more,
I finally get free
And run to the door
Hes already locked it
And i start to bawl,
He takes me and throws me
Against the hard wall
I fall to the floor
With my bones nearly broken,
And my daddy continues
With more bad words spoken,
"Im sorry!", I scream
But its now much to late
His face has been twisted
Into a unimaginable shape
The hurt and the pain
Again and again
O please God, have mercy!
O please let it end!
And he finally stops
And heads for the door
While i lay there motionless
Brawled on the floor
My name is Chris
I am three,
Tonight my daddy
Murdered me
And you can help
Sickens me to the soul,
And if you read this
and dont pass it on
I pray for your forgivness
Beause you would have to be
One heartless person
To not be affected
By this Poem
And because you are affected,
Do something about it!
So all i ask you to do
Is pass this on!
IF YOU ARE AGAINST CHILD ABUSE!
PLEASE COPY AND PASTE THIS AND PASS IT
I had a hold.
I was happy, content and in control of life
What happened? It all came crashing down when I least expecting it.
Today was fucking hard.
But I'm okay.
You know what? I'm so happy!!! Theres no particular reason why but all I know is its such a great emotion and im never guna let go of it! Yay!! So hyper, happy and smiley! WEEE! XD And if theres one thing i truly hope for its that all my friends and other people feeling down find that confidence to smile and feel happy 2 be just the way they are, I love you all so much! (maybe not the people ive never met but yeah lol)
NO, No, no.. I said I was optimistic!! I am. REALLY I am.
When you think you've found what you want, it slips away.
Right now, in my life, not a lot is happening. It seems quite empty and blank. This doesnt have to be a negative thing, its just a fact. I can't quite decide how I feel about anything or anybody. Its a strange sensation and i dunno the answers?
Could we please last one day without picking both our own faults and those of other people?? It really isnt that hard..
Another absolutely FANTASTIQUE weekend! I loved every minute of it.. on saturday I was in Felton with Caz, Sarah and Emma and that was awesome.. I even won a mini keyboard on a tombola lol! We were drawing faces on the big purple baloons lol, FUN! And we kept chucking them outta the window but they always seemed to land on Sarah's mum's head hehe! Sarah's sisters friend's CANT SING! Argh! They sound like a cats which hav just been stood on lol. NOT GOOD! Anyways.. on sunday I went to T in the Park in Scotland.. it totally kicked ass! I loved it! I saw so many gr8 bands but Green Day, Travis and Kaiser Cheifs were some of the best! :D Woo! Why does it have to be over!! And school AGAIN.. grr.. oh well only 1 more week left...YESH! :P
I thought I'd write a happyful diary entry! I've had a mint weekend with loads of amazing people! I was with: Adam, Sarah, Chris T, Chris W, Zoe and Jamie. Thanks u lot 4 sum good times! I wont 4get them.. not that we actually did anything.. lol. Kinda just wondered around Wooler. Hmm.. magical. Woolerians rock! And Sarah! lol. Love yas xx
Heyho!! Im so sick of bloody coursework! Its driving me around the bend! But luckily its nearly half-term!! Phew!
I photo-copied my hands today lol! I was only supposed to see if my scanner was working but instead I pressed the print button and a A4 sheet with my hands was printed lol! Haha.. was fun! Then I was telling Martin about it and I've agreed to give it to him.. signed woo!! I should start selling them out to people lol! He's giving me one of his hands too, also signed lol! So haha :P
Yay! Anuva 1 of my friends got one of these!!
Message sent to Moon Flower. Elftown loves you and wants to hug you! (Unless this message was an insult or a chain message.) May you have a wonderful night!
Love you Georgie! Missin u loads!
Its not just Elftown that loves her!!
Message sent to .Sweet.Cyanide
Not done a lot today! Got up really late as usual and then went into Alnwick to see Em! We got out the film, 'Alfie' it was pretty crap! Basically its about a womaniser who realises its not such a good idea after all! The end!
Today...today.
online. tryin 2 suss out elftown a bit more. discovering new things 2 do on the site. v bord bcuz no 1 is on messenger. or eldtown 4 dat matta! tata