I JUST WANT TO FUCKING SCREAM AND CUT MY OWN DAMN HEAD OFF

AHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHHH

Why does it feel, like you're pushing me to the edge, Just to see how far I'll fall.

New Diary...what to write.

My life sucks? Nah...too cliche, I want to die? To mellow dramatic.

No.. what I want is peace, peace and quiet, peace of mind, calm friendships.. I'll develop more on this in a while, my son is crying.

You've gotta be extra careful
with the things nearest to you
you know the closer you get to something
the tougher it is to see it

Explain to me this happiness
That you just got to experiance.
Or maybe you're so blessed
that you can't even remember?
That you stand here now
That you live and breathe
They're all little miracles
Just by themselves.

You've gotta be extra careful
With the things nearest to you
You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it.

You know the closer you get to something
The tougher it is to see it.
And I'll never take it for granted
It's fine to say "Never give up"
and "Keep chasing your dreams"

But the more time you spend talking big
The less you get done.
I'll press that handful of courage against my heart
and with its help, survive another day
And I'll never take it for granted
Lets go


...sounded better in Japanese

Letter number: 75180077
From: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
To: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:06:47
Comment in 75180612


hello

Letter number: 75180612
From: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
To: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:27:51
Comment to: 75180077
Comment in 75180616


Hello.

Letter number: 75180616
From: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
To: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:28:21
Comment to: 75180612
Comment in 75180627


who are you

Letter number: 75180627
From: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
To: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:32:35
Comment to: 75180616
Comment in 75180630


Raven...who are you?

Letter number: 75180630
From: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
To: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:33:14
Comment to: 75180627
Comment in 75180702


im vampiror the synthetic dysaster

Letter number: 75180702
From: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
To: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:52:41
Comment to: 75180630
Comment in 75180711


...Of course you are...

Letter number: 75180711
From: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
To: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:55:30
Comment to: 75180702
Comment in 75180720

what are you to kayla

Letter number: 75180720
From: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
To: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:56:36
Comment to: 75180711
Comment in 75180723

Don't you read?....Shes the mother of our son..

Letter number: 75180723
From: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
To: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:57:12
Comment to: 75180720
Comment in 75180728

Yeah i know that part man but you know i was her man before you to and all and i am with her now

Letter number: 75180728
From: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
To: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:58:01
Comment to: 75180723
Comment in 75180735

HAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHAHA

Letter number: 75180735
From: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
To: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 04:59:33
Comment to: 75180728
Comment in 75180744

you laugh now man she dont want nothing to do with you

Letter number: 75180744
From: [Raven Song] (its a whole new world out there...)
To: [Fear the Reaper] (Candyland Massacre)
Sent mail 2008-11-03 05:02:19
Comment to: 75180735


You got that backwards, but hey go back to being delusional or whatever the fuck you, oh wow thanks for the laugh. Good times..good times..haha Funny...how I just saw her tonight, I talk to her on the phone all the time, oh yeah I just got off the phone with her, guess what she said? I love you, yeah...have a good night fucktard..


- Okay, Now I'm getting a bit ticked... I know one thing, someone says something else, Who the hell do I believe, not only that.. what is with these people who keep saying she wants nothing to do with me? WTF...if she wants nothing to do with me, she should fucking tell me. I'm sick and tired of these fucked up crazy assholes who think they're her boyfriend/lover/whatever, Yeah you know what? ME AND HER AREN'T TOGETHER ANYMORE, she broke up with over a month ago.. I don't care who she dates. But I know you aren't who shes with. Yeah I could've been a bit more civil in my last message to him, but I didn't feel the need to be I'm tired of being civil to retards who call themselves a vampiror ...Who can't spell VAMPIRE (Vampyre to some) or even spell disaster god damn get your head out of your ass and learn how to spell and type. An investment into Grammar, and spelling will take you further in life, but then again, I don't expect much from you.

Now Kayla, if you read this.. Which you more than likely will :) like I said, I could've been civil in my last message, and I should've been I know that you know that. But if you're with someone tell them that, and don't tell other people you're with them, I know you had that problem when we got together you had..what 3 other people all online...haha.. Yeah you broke up with them for me, but leading all those people on isn't really a good thing, I know who you're with, you know who you're with.. I've got some suspicions of another but that's something private.

...now Mr. Synthetic Disaster, Go away...shoo. Don't bother me anymore, you're a sad pathetic excuse for a human. Either enjoy your life or despise it. Choice is yours, but I suggest leaving me out of it, it will only end badly if you continue to bother me with such trifling things such as who you believe you're with. I'm on quite the short fuse lately, ((@Kayla, if you want to know more about the reasons why, just ask. Oh and hun, you can fix it))

End Diary.

Say what you say I just sail away,
She cant stand me but i miss her face,
I feel like driving but the tides too low
And now I'm waiting for the undertow

2x
So.. Stand tall It gets a little better,
I see the water we can break down together,
Stand strong It gets a little better now,
(we can break it down, we can break it)

Life can only take so much,
Depression ain't gonna pressure us,
Oh, they came to watch us fall,
Oh yes, they came to watch us fall,
We will rise up against them all,

2x
So.. Stand tall It gets a little better,
I see the water we can break down together,
Stand strong It gets a little better now,
(we can break it down, we can break it)

2x
Sing my song gonna sing it proud
No ones gonna bring me down
You stand us stong and hold my crown
Tell me what are we fighting for
Change to do we done before
Tell me what are we fighting for (yeah yeah yeah)


2x
So.. Stand tall It gets a little better,
I see the water we can break down together,
Stand strong It gets a little better now,
(we can break it down, we can break it)

Damn this song is old..I seem to have stumbled upon it recently though. Simple Plan doesn't have many good songs but I like this one.

"I'd Do Anything"

Another day is going by
I'm thinking about you all the time
But you're out there
And I'm here waiting

And I wrote this letter in my head
Cuz so many things were left unsaid
But now you're gone
And I can't think straight

This could be the one last chance
To make you understand

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

Together we broke all the rules
Dreaming of dropping out of school
And leave this place
To never come back

So now maybe after all these years
If you miss me have no fear
I'll be here
I'll be waiting

This could be the one last chance to make you understand
And I just can't let you leave me once again

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I close my eyes
And all I see is you
I close my eyes
I try to sleep
I can't forget you
Nanana (....)
And I'd do anything for you
Nanana (....)

I'd do anything
Just to hold you in my arms
To try to make you laugh
Cuz somehow I can't put you in the past
I'd do anything
Just to fall asleep with you
Will you remember me?
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
There's nothing I won't do
I'd do anything
To fall asleep with you
I'd do anything
Cuz I know
I won't forget you

"With This Knife"

I let myself fall into a lie
I let my walls come down
I let myself smile and feel alive
I let my walls come down
No matter how i try i don't know why
You push so far away
You wrapped your hands tight around my heart
And squeezed it full of pain

[Chorus:]
With this knife i'll cut out the part of me
The part that cares for you
With this knife i'll cut out the heart of me
The heart that cares for you

I can't believe the way you took me down
I never saw the pain
Coming in a million broken miles
Like poison for my veins

[chorus:]

The hate and the fear
The nightmares that wake me up
In tears
The nightmares and (the hate)...