GAHH!!! AHH! GRR!!! what is it with my x bfs? we break up, they call me mean names, and then tehy beg me to come back! what doythey expect me to do? actually come back? i mean tehy say im clingy, 3 freakin emails in 1 day? each a page long? i understand that they arent over me, i dotn knwo why but there not, and im sick of it, i dotn want them anymore, thats why im no twith them. but i can tjust be rude about it, i mean tahts almost as bad as what they do. and teh worsty part is, they use country songs ( one of my few weaknesses) to express teh way " that they still love me" BAH! they were all them them them, control freaks, or said i wasnt enough fo rthem because iw ouldnt sleep with them well you kno wwhat i haev to tel lthem? PHTBBB!
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i can live through the pain
i can see through my tears
i could run and hide
or i could face my fears
they chase through the dark
they're trapped in my mind
theres nothing to do
i dotn know whats right
noone to turn to
or to tell the truth
did it have to end in a fight?
did it have to hit so hard?
emotional bruises all over my arm
fight back i cant
im just to weak
im sorry i lost
but i cant give up
because that would be
the final end of me
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amen
I am one and alone
nothing life changing
insignificant by myself
but you understand
because you're bigger than life
you're bigger than me
I can't change the world
not even my friends
so I turn to you for my hope
to you for my faith
in you I carry on
in you I can live
though broken I am
through you I am fixed
I can't change my fate
the stars won't move
but I can change my heart
and the way that I think
I can carry your word
and put you first
I don't deserve you
or the salvation I seek
and yet here it is
in the palm of my hands
with one word its mine
and so I say.......Amen
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will i
will i ever be number one
not just a runner up?
will i be seen for me
and not what i wear?
will i ever be more
than a prettty face
another one in the crowd?
will i be who i want
or end up a clone
of what society is
and what it wants done?
how do i choose
the right path to take
the most love or
the least pain?
which one is mine?
both have a bend
that i cant see past
shadows that hide
the fears in my eyes
should i travel alone?
or with my love by my side?
how do i choose?
will i pick the right one?
not a toss of the dice
or a flip of a coin
this choice is big
it determines my life
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old flames
he said that he loved you
that hed never leave
that you were the most important thing
he said that he cared
that hed never lie
but you caught him in the act
he had a new life
as you turn around
with your head held high
you choke on a sob
you hold back your cry
but think whats the use
i was only a muse
a pawn in his game
yet sometimes i wonder
sometimes i cry
what would have happened
if he never lied
would he still be here
would you still care
would you still love him
the same as before?
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who am i?
you see what i do
and you hear what i say
but do you ever wonder
if its really me
am i really so happy
or do i hide my tears
i dont let you see
and i dont let you hear
i just turn and laugh
and nobody knows
cause nobody cares
is it true what you say
that my life is great
i dont think it is
i think its a lie
listen and see
that sometimes i cry
it's all in my eyes
they'll tell you whats wrong
my life isnt real
i live in a dream
thats a nightmare.
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time heals all wounds
Heartache and sorrow,
along with some grief.
It rises and falls
just like the sea.
You know its happened,
but you don’t yet know why.
I know its hard to believe,
he wont be there to say hi.
But life won’t stop,
the world still turns.
The seasons will change,
and the rain will end.
Don’t think of the times
that you fought,
or didn’t get along,
but the times that he laughed
and other good times.
Don’t forget his name,
or who he was.
hold tight to your family
and to your friends,
because they’ll always be there,
Through the thick and the thin.
Time heals all wounds,
though it still leaves the pain.
I promise it will lessen
with each passing day.
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unanswered questions
will i ever be number one
not just a runner up?
will i be seen for me
and not what i wear?
will i ever be more
than a prettty face
another one in the crowd?
will i be who i want
or end up a clone
of what society is
and what it wants done?
how do i choose
the right path to take
the most love or
the least pain?
which one is mine?
both have a bend
that i cant see past
shadows that hide
the fears in my eyes
should i travel alone?
or with my love by my side?
how do i choose?
will i pick the right one?
not a toss of the dice
or a flip of a coin
this choice is big
it determines my life
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the fringe
i may be in your life
if just on the edge
call me spoiled
but what good is a fringe
if thats all you give?
where is the love?
the kisses and hugs?
push me away
say i had my day
my time in the sun
if im on the edge
im still in your life
if just on the fringe
i may not be what you want
just what you need
but cant you see
that i want you back
i guess that your gone
theres nothing to do
but let this all go
im just on the fringe
cause thats all you give
say that you love me
that you still care
yet you leave me on the fringe
just hanging here
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amen . . .
i am one and alone
nothing life changing
insignificant, but you understand
you are bigger than life
you are bigger than me
i cant change the world
not even my friends
so i turn to you for my hope
to you for my faith
in you i carry on
in you i can live
though broken i am
through you i am fixed
i cant change my fate
the stars dont move
but i can change my heart
and the way that i think
i can carry the word
and put you first
i dont deserve you
or this salvation i seek
and yet here it is
in the palm of my hand
with one word its mine
and so i say...
...amen
It is june 27, 2005 and my cousin erin is having her baby girl, savannah. savannah, i cry for you because you must face this world alone. savannah i cry for you, because you enter this world of pain and grief and despair, when you have done nothing to deserve this. savannah i pray for you, that this place will be kinder to you than it has been for your mother or for me, savannah, i clap for you because you are beautiful. you, savannah are a miracle.
i lov emy guy so much! hes so sweet and great and yay! hehehe i love you !
why doi try? is there any use in this? mein zucker maunchin (i dotn think thats spelt right) my ass! theres just no use in this, sure love dulls the senses while its there but when its gone and over it cuts you deeper, hits you harder, comes faster than any knife bullet or death can. kris i did love you maybe it was that we said it so soon but i cant deal with it. i lost this game, i wont play again.
Romans 5:1-2
Since we have been made right with God through our faith we have peace with God. this happened through our Lord Jesus Christ who has brought us into this blessing of God's grace that we now enjoy and we are happy because of the hope of sharing in God's glory.
Amen
I am one and alone
nothing life changing
insignificant by myself
but you understand
because you're bigger than life
you're bigger than me
I can't change the world
not even my friends
so I turn to you for my hope
to you for my faith
in you I carry on
in you I can live
though broken I am
through you I am fixed
I can't change my fate
the stars won't move
but I can change my heart
and the way that I think
I can carry your word
and put you first
I don't deserve you
or the salvation I seek
and yet here it is
in the palm of my hands
with one word its mine
and so I say.......Amen
nobody loves me everybody hates me guess ill go eat worms. big ones fat ones short ones skiney one guess ill go eat worms....serio
dont you hate it when people type LiKe ThIS it is so annoying i hate it. does anybody know if i will ever find soemone who really likes me? i dont think i will. but then what do i know im just a duck after all. and plastic at that. oh well guess ill go back to my lonely bubbly bathtub ttfn( ta ta for now)
i bought another belly button ring today its pwettiful.
hey everyone whats going on? not a whole lot happy turkey day to everyone
hey guess what i dressed up for halloween as i was a hot pink cowgirl