Graaah!
-_____________-

All I want is to have my peace, but NO..

Yesterday, we got this new book in school - called "The Reader". There's soon a movie in the cinemas about this novel.

Today, I finished it ^^° I was just way too captured into the story, even if it's just a small book. It's about a 15 year old boy who fell in love in a over 30 year old woman who cares a big big secret around her and about her past. I don't want to tell anything more because I think you all should read that by your own, but I promise it IS worth it (if you love books.. like me..)

I hardly can wait for the movie. By the way movie, I've just seen Twilight again. Yep, I am addicted. Though I like the book more, if you watch the movie as a separate, you can love it. But there's something I have to say..

I

WANT

HIS

CAR!!!

Edward's car looks like a girl-car, to be honest. It doesn't fit to him. BUT IT WOULD FIT TO ME!!! I set this as a new goal in my life - Own a Volvo C30! xD

WTF? What is it with the guys online? Don't they have any other hobbies instead of wanting ME to be THEIR girlfriend? Hello? From Germany to California? Without even seeing a PICTURE of me? How incredibly desperate are they to get laid? I don't understand it, really. "Oh, when I talk to you I am feeling like I never felt with anyone else" - Sorry, you're a nice guy, but shut the fuck up! Probably I am a fat, old, ugly woman sitting behind the desk.

I miss my old times with May. So much. So so much..
*headdesk*

Oh man...

I am so incredibly out of order. Thanks to a lot of medicine that I am able to sit straight here on the chair.

I've got the influenca and in it's most worse part. I feel incredibly ill and weak since friday and I swear, 5 days with fever are exhausting. I just hope I will feel better soon..

Just 3 more days.

3 more days.

And then, I hope everything finally changes into better. Though I honestly feel like a little psycho.

I've experienced magic today.
*smile*

I was just outside this evening, and the moon was shining down on the snow. And the snow was sparkling so lovely.. I could have watched it the whole time. Till it got too cold. But it was.. lovely. I've never seen something more beautiful in my life.

That moments make me truly believe in magic, because this.. was magical. <3

I feel like I am getting obsessed with the stupid series of "The Tudors". But.. they are pure sex. PURE sex. And I mean that literally. I am willed to say that some scenes are better than any porn >_<

But.. to be honest, I don't understand the girls who are so horny on King Henry. Of course, the actor looks good, but he has nothing. I mean, just look at Anna. God damned, this woman is hot. (The actress, of course.) Let the girls have Henry - because then there will be more Anna left for me.

And now, my slippage into the little teeny-girl is over for tonight.

The world can please fuck itself today. Please.

Omg.

Don't visit an Irish Pub with a karaoke night without expectations. Because you might win.

Well....

it happened to me.

And I am.. bamed. o.O
I mean... It's nothing sooo special of course BUT... I am on the second place. Behind me was a woman who was able to sing like a musical singer and she was on third place. I mean.. behind ME!!!! I am not a professional.. *scratches head*

And.. on the first place, there was the hottest woman alive. She rocked the house, she was tiny and white and sang like a black woman. And WOW!!!!!!!!!!!I've heard the first vocal she sang and was like I wanted to fall from my chair.

Now, we want to make a girlgroup because Jessica got the third place because that musical-woman wasn't there anymore.

BUT the thing was, that this hot woman told me she loved my singing and that I have to make more out of it because she saw potential in it and honestly, I never blushed so much in my whole life. Now my ego is up in the sky, but just tonight I guess.

And I have to drive to Hildesheim again on 30th January because there is the final competition. I could win a trip to Paris.. But I just want to be in Disneyland Paris honestly ;____;

Okay, this was the random entry of the evening. I am talking what I am writing because I am very tired.
Oh god.
Please shut my mouth off because I won't gonna stop... it.


GOOD NIGHT

Gott, leckt mich, ich bin so scheiße fertig.

*smirks* I'm looking forward to tomorrow.

If my stomach pain won't go away, I have to do a gastroscopy. Do you know what that means? Right. PANIC! for me at least. I've heard it should be very unpleasant to do something like that. Why me? ;__; I don't wanna.
I
don't
wanna!

I easily get in panic when it comes to hospitals and everything about it. I guess I could call it phobia.

Ich habe angst!

I'm scared ;__;

My poor belly.. it didn't do anything wrong.

I wish I could play this song.

But I suck at playing guitar..

But "Guardian Angel" is what is going through my head atm.

I wonder what it means that she tried to talk to me again.... It feels like a hard slap in the face, but I'm doing my best to stand against it.

You tell me that you need me, but then you go and cut me down...

uhm.. I've found this somewhere and translated it into english.. I bet no one will write something about it, but if you are reading this and you want to tell me, I would be glad about it.. because I'm curious how you're feeling about me :)


What would you do when...

» I die:
» I would tell you, I like you:
» I would kiss you:
» I am living next to you:
» I am stealing something:
» I'd had to move somewhere far away:

 What are you thinking about my...

» Character:
» Eyes:
» Face:
» Hair:
» Clothes:
» Behavour:
 
[1] Who are you?
[2] Are we friends?
[3] Where and when did we meet the first time?
[4] How was I dressed?
[5] What are you thinking about me?
[6] What's the best memory you have of me?
[7] How long do you think we'll stay friends?
[8] Do you love me?
[9] Did I ever hurt you?
[10] Would you hug me?
[11] Would you kiss me?
[12] Would you have sex with me?
[13] Are we close to each other?
[14] Whats the most important thing about our relationship?
[15] Do you wish I'd be cooler?
[16] Do you think I'm lovely?
[17] What about me makes you happy?
[18] What about me makes you sad?
[19] Is there something that reminds you on me?
[20] What would you change on me?

Okay, I thought I was really bad at dancing yesterday, but the review of my classmates showed me that I could't have been sooooo bad. They said they liked my movements and that I was able to keep the beat and that I looked kinda sexy.. o__O Well, I can't remember exactly because I needed alcohol to walk on the dancefloor, but when I think about yesterday, I have to admit that it was a lot of fun too. I need to dance more, by the way, it makes a nice ass *g* I don't like hip hop much, though, but it has the best beat and Dennis (a guy out of my class).. omg, he can shake his hips like a Topmodel. Well, I bet I will do that again, but I must not have it every week.

Today's evening showed me how much.. .. never mind. I just couldn't get any clear thought at all, and honestly, dancing isn't my thing. I know why I don't like discothekes so much. And thinking while dancing doesn't make anything better. By the way, watching all these couples together.. THAT makes everything worse.

Saturday is gonna rock.

I am nervous.. o.O

The day I should meet the group here in my town was suspended to next week, but today I'll have a call with the band leader.. God, it would be perfect to get some stage experience with a few scenes on the stage. Even if I haven't planned to stay here for the rest of my life 'cause I've planned to leave Germany after I've got my final exams next year for attending a musical and stage school, it would be helpful. Very helpful. Nevertheless I am nervous, but I'll manage it somehow.