wow its been a really long time. lots have changed. people move on, i move on, life lives on. i'm starting to belive love is only for fiction.

o' well, there's more to live for right?

i don't know anymore. all i care about at the moment is music. the one love that can't let me down. hell i'm not saying i don't still "spit game" because belive me i love wemon. what i can't stand though is a "cock block". its my diary you read it so im going to tell the story.

ok, so i wen't to this concert at the belfrey at clocktower. some local bands were playing. like, the minute i leave, round one fight!, and, latin for truth. any way there was this beautiful girl she was about 5'6 with dirty blond hair, well i sat at the couch and we gave each other these's looks, (you know what i'm talking about the kind of intrested looks) so i waited and she headed over to me music blaring. it was like slow motion. then an idiot in a blue shirt goes "hey an open seat". and flops down WHY'LL IM SPITTING MY GAME. any who so she winks at me and sits in a chair on the other end, the bad thing is no other chairs 2nd bad thing the music was so loud i couldn't be heard over a mic.


well thats my faulty game. :(

i'm so board its 12:12 right now. i know make a wish right?

so i guess toomarrow i'll pick up my bass wait for my new pick ups to come in solo jam for about an hour and a half. wait for mondays practice for my band INNUENDO. maybe go skating. watch "Across the Univers" for my 14th time. and try to let a relationship back in, hahah that'll be forever so don't count on it.

p.s
  im not crazy.

p.s.s
   i'm going to invent a conjoined killswitch
so that when any of our band members try to speak you can accually her us say "SHUT THE FUCK UP SO I CAN TALK" and "HOW ABOUT YOU LISTEN TO WHAT I HAVE TO SAY THEN READ MY LIPS AS YOU WAIL ON THE GUITAR STRINGS FOR 10 MINUTES LIKE YOU THINK YOUR PART OF "DRAGON FORCE".

P.S.S.S
    a killswitch is a button that kills all the sound comeing out of an amp. ugg if you want to see what i'm talking about, go to youtube and search buckethead jordan. that guy uses a killswitch though the whole song, that and finger taps.

peace!,

You think you know someone one and you think everthing is perfect and will be from then on. im sure there are people out there and to them i say stay strong. but for the others i know now what you feel, hurt, discomfert, love but also agany. there was this girl in my life who ment everything to me now i feel like she has nothign to do with me. the one problem is im crazy, and i mean crazy, because even though i don't think its going to happen again just because the way things are going i don't want to give up. im ubsested and pathetic i couldn't stand my life without this person, and i never want to im so attached that im crazy without her, im so infacuated that i can't even sleep at night because i've got her on my mind. always and forever this feeling and passion for her will never subside. but i think it has for her. have you ever in the middle of a conversation have some one say "hey i don't want to talk anymore" then hang up? its not the best feeling in the world i remember when i talked about her a lot. but now i don't stop.if the person im talking about is reading this don't take it the worng way. ok... i wear that hair clip you know the heart, every day , it makes me feel closer too you. you probly now think im syco and thats because i am. im sorry that im pathetic and im not being stupid im being honest....... i want you,, but do you really want me??