This one is to any military folks out there. No matter what country, no matter what type. We all go through the same shit. Just with a different accent... *chuckles* I'm sitting in Norfolk, Virginia. (thats the east coast of the USA for the geographicly challenged). I normaly live in texas (south central USA). I've been in this god forsaken naval base for 3 days now, and FINALY I'm able to catch my flight, which is going to take me halfway around the world to the Persian Gulf, where I'll be dropped off in a foreign country with NO ONE to get in contact with and NO CASH to my name. 
And what does the military do? "Good luck, have a nice flight :D" lol. Oh well. the price we pay to serve.
I'll be floating around in the Persian gulf for a few months on my big floating hunk of steal, learning the hard way to do everything b/c they used me and my fellow graduates as test bunnies for a new school, which left me knowing a whole lot of nothing.
Now they expect me to do my job AS SOON AS I GET THERRE! Wierd huh? Well... oh well.
Then, hopefuly within a month or so, i'll float to Sasebo Japan, literaly on the otherside of the planet from home, have little to no contact with my best friends and loved ones. fun. :D But, honestly... through all this bitching and whining... most of us don't care. its our duty. It sux ass, but.. hey... its the price we pay to do a good deed and get a good reward in the end. 

Wish me luck, and I'll return the favor to all you military people out there.

GOOD LUCK.

USN, MMFR, Matthew J. Clark

An amazing person, but still... shes not ready for my kind of love. she just doesn't have herself open enough to put in what deep love requires... I'm left hanging.. it doesn't hurt.. not at all... but it does leave me empty and drained and I won't let that last. I just pray she'll learn that love requires both to open up to each other... and stay open.

You bring me pain
And laugh away
I sigh in vain
As you tear your way
I go insane
As I lay
Here in chain
Your sadistic way
Bringing true pain
As you hear me say

I love you...
You are my all
My only beauty

And yet I get
None in return
Little but regret
For my 3 words burn
I hate it all and yet
To you I still turn
To the cruelty set
As I simply yearn

i'm not the type of friend that you pay much attention to.. i'm a mutt.. i'm always nearby ifyou need company, but no need to mess with me more than that.. I'll whine for attention a bit, show that i'm still there and that i care... usualy just a small pat on the head in return... you know... just to boost your ego a bit, knowing that you've got one being that loves so much that no matter what, they won't leave... which you find humorous that they stay through it all... I'm just a faithful hound... i defend, and just walk along.. too worn out to go off and have fun... too young to wear out and leave... too faithful to find a new master that cares... just a mutt... an old mutt.