well this is way late but it cant be helped!

i havent been here for a while or anywhere online really cause my family has had problems and i secretly haad a pregnancy scare cause i had sex with my new bf gus and the condon broke! well we went out two weeks later and got a pregnancy test fdrom the store! and it said postitive but i freaked out and made gus take me to the hospital to get tested again and they tested me and thankfuly i am not prego!!! i would have died if i was cause im only 18!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!! and we will never be using that brand of condoms again! what can i expect we got it from a qurter machine in a mens restroom at a place we went to... dont ask! anyways i am NOT prego yet and dont plan to be till im 24 so im going on the pill and yeah my mom know we boinked cause she kinda walked in on us lucky for me she didnt get mad she thought it was funny that gus had blushed! cause hes mexican and up until then i had never seen a mexican blush before! i turned red too! anyways i have a new phone number now, i had a stalker on my old number. so if you want my new number give me a message and ask me! okie i love you all and i miss you too and i am truly sorry that i vanished!

lets see i just got an email from my ex lover josip cause i sent him an email 5 weeks ago before i hooked up with my new bf Gustavo! and josip is mad now! so is my ex bf chris! just because i want to not be poly anymore!!!

well ive made love to Gustavo and it was amazing! he is so wonderful to me and very handsome!!

well heres some news!


i was so fucking upset a few days ago that i cut myself again! and i bet none of you care! lord knows hardly any of you talk to me anymore!

i know this is majorly late but i already sent [Optimus_Prime17] stuff in the mail! so happy bday daddy!

*cries loudly* my dad is a fucking nut case! he attacked me today and was just so fucking crazy and he caled me a cunt! all because he said i slammed the van door! which i didnt! *cries more*

please someone take me away from here! i just want to leave!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

plus while i was at a friends house for the week my mom and brother cleaneds my room and now i cant find anything!!! *cries harder* atleast when my room was a mess it was orginized chaos!!!!!!!!! no i dont know what to do and there is a pile if notebooks stuffies and other stuff of mine on my bed and i have to clean it off before i can get in it!! *mega dies*

who here loves me? i really want to know cause i feel down right now.

i have changed my msn sn! i am now sexykitten183@hotmail.com

hello to my lovers and friends! i just want to say i will not be going to jail! thank the goddess!

just so you all know i may be in jail for a while cause i did something stupid at school! no it was not a gun or anykind of weapon. what happened i have told to a select few and i shall hope they dont tell what i have done! i am sorry to all my lovers and friends! i know now what i did was wrong and very stupid!

I LOVE YOU ALL!



hopefully ill be on friday (tommorrow)

hey my lovies im back for now.

hey im trying to start a rpg for people who and into sex and kinky stuff want to help?

tell me through email here on eltown if any of you guys or girls want to help me with this... one major rule would be you guys cant be rude... unless your into that kinda thing.

well im sure to work out the rules later if someone helps me get it started.

~sits here crying~ someone please help me i feel so alone! i need help. please! somebody tell me im loved.

i get to see my bf and my bff in april

hey lovies! just to let you all know my birthday is in july and im going to be 18! yay for me! hehe.

so if you guys want to give me any presents like cards or candy then cool also if anyone wants to burn music for me that would so rock, cause i have only one two friends that live close enough to come with me on my special day. and apparently my mom is doing something where boys are not allowed. hopefully i dont have to take my lil bro with me.

if you want my address tell me and i shall give it to you.

and kingofhearts you could draw me a really cool birthday picture.

*rereadrs entry* wow this looks really superfificial.... though im going to be doing a job over the summer and i can get stuff for you guys too.

okie i have msn now so all of you guys tell me your screennames for msn!

everyone please go here and check out my poerty under my sudoname.

http://anisce.deviantart.com/

i have to take really terrible medicine and it makes me want to barf!!! *cries* im in so god damn much pain right now!

OMFG!!!! I'M GOING TO DIE TOMORROW!!!!! SOMEONE SAVE ME!!! I DONR+T WANT TO HAVE AN OPERATION!!!!

okie i got in to a fight yesterday!

this is how it went:
I'm sitting in science and we are talking about my hair and this blonde says "so has anyone called you blues clues yet?"

i said "no and you had better not or i start cracking on you!" so she didnt say anything and the class continued talking (we had just finished a test) and im talking and this girl named Mary-Ann (who is pregnant) starts bitching at me, she's been doing it for two weeks straight! and i never even did anything to make her bitch at me! she is crazy.

anyways i notice i have red ink on my neck and i ask to go clean it off. the teacher lets me go and when i come bback i stop a couple feet from Mary-ann's desk and i say "Mary-ann i got a question for you"

she say "What?!"

i say "do i ever say anything, make any comments or say a single thing about your face!!!!??" cause she has these hue black pimple things all over her face.

she jumps up really fast and grabs her bottle of water throws it at me and hits my leg and yells "YOU WANNA GO AT ME BITCH ILL FUCK YOU UP!!!!"

i say calmly "im not fighting a pregnant girl"

she screams " YOU JUST WAIT TILL THIS BABY'S OUT OF ME YOU JUST WAIT I'LL FUCK YOU UP BITCH!!!!!!!!"

and i say "you and what army?" i pick up the water bottle and throw it away

she gets up and says "fuck this class" throws her book at the wall and storms out. the whole class starts laughing and talking about what just happened, the teacher calls some one down i leave the class with her and im telling her what happened and my milk bottle comes open and she and the hall gets soaked.

im not in trouble but i have to pay the cleaning bill.

hey my new pic is up yayayay!

okie this is boring........ i need someone to talk to.