dear diary
guess what! im pregnant! the doctors told me it would never happen on account of me being a dude and everything, but finally i am with child. Its a wonderful feeling, knowing a living human is growing inside you and that you are his sole protector and provider. I never thought that...-burpz-
Sup dogs, this here is my final diary submission yo. Ive been on E town for a long ass time, watched it get big. Met tonnes of awesome people. 2 in peticular! Laughed, cryed and got fried on this site. Now its dying and I dont have room in my life for this kinda stuff no more. To all my friends, good luck yall. I hope lives are as great as my life is becoming! Well, im out. Peace of ya crazy ETrs!
Jesus, no matter what I do I fuck up. This is frustrating! Ok, I will be perfectly still and see what happens
Shit, as I sit here on this unfamiliar bed in this unfamiliar room. All I can do is look out the window and think: "Where did I go wrong." "How did my life get this way?" "When will it get better?"
One song just sings to me, literally and spiritually. I completely embodies the way I feel at this moment in my life.
Kid Rock - Only God Knows Why
I've been sittin' here
trying to find myself
i get behind myself
i need to rewind myself
looking for the payback
listen for the playback
they say that every man
bleeds just like me
and i feel like number one
but yet i'm last in line
i watch my younger son
and it helps to pass the time
i take to many pills
it helps to ease the pain
i made a couple dollar bills
but still i feel the same
everybody knows my name
they say it way out loud
a lot of folks fuck with me
it's hard to hang out in crowds
i guess that's the price you pay
to be some big shot like i am
out skirt stands and one night stands
still i can't find love
And when your walls come tumbling down
I will always be around
People don't know about the things
i say and do they don't understand
about the shit that i've
been through, it's been so long
since i've been home i've been gone,
i've been gone for way too long
maybe i forgot all the things I miss
Oh somehow I know there's more to life
than this, I said it too many times
and i still stand firm you get what
you put in and people get what they
deserve, still i ain't seen mine
No I ain't seen mine
I've been giving just ain't been gettin'
I've been walking down that line
So I think I'll keep walking
with my head held high
i'll keep moving on and only God
knows why
Only God... only God
Only God knows why
Only God... knows ... why, why, why only
God knows why
Take me to the river hey
Take me to the river
Ghost Behind My Eyes - Ozzy Osbourne
There is person living in my head
She comes to visit every night in bed
I fight the demon, but it just won't fall
The voices in my dungeon starting to call
The spiders dancing on the wall
Suicide of love we could have had it all
And it is you, you are the ghost behind my eyes
I can't see through you, you are the ghost behind my eyes
The ghost that tells me lies
The princess of the dark has made my mind home
My haunted head and her won't leave me alone
She dances on my heart with fire in my soul
I hate that feeling when I'm losing control
The spiders dancing on the wall
Suicide of love we could have had it all
And it is you, you are the ghost behind my eyes
The ghost that tells me lies
I wish to god that I could sleep
again, oh peace again
And wake up from this nightmare
Free again
Free again, oh me again
There is a woman in my head
She comes to visit every night in bed
The spiders dancing on the wall
Suicide of love we could have had it all
And it is you, you are the ghost behind my eyes
You, you are the ghost behind my eyes
You, you are the ghost behind my eyes
Behind my eyes
The ghost behind my eyes
BULLLLLLLLL SHIT! I was right about women all along. i knew it!! I fuckin knew it! something inside said dont fall for her dude, dont do it. but like a fuckin idiot, i did. if i ever write a messege like the one before this one, someone please, hit me. hard. because this hurts more than that would.