To anyone who reads these things,
Sorry for not being on in months. I haven't have much drive or care to be here or there or anywhere tbh. Work has damned me and I constantly am struggling with managing my stress and anxiety and the pain of working a job I hate. The crippling depression of trying to find a career is also proving to relinquish what little hope I have for a future.

I have a lot of personal problems and issues and none that anyone can help with and as much as I enjoyed writing to try to escape it's now just more work for me to think of anything. I'm sorry to disappoint you all. I'm just sad and unhappy and IDK what makes me happy anymore. If i had any roleplay with you assume I won't reply for a while or just cut me out or delete the page. I understand. I wasn't that remarkable. I'm sure you can find someone better to write with anyways.

I wish you all the best.

so work has been... yeah.
my mental state has gone down a lot from where I was.
I'm currently job hunting for the sake of my well-being essentially.
Sorry for the slow responses and such. I am trying best I can.

so work has been... yeah.
my mental state has gone down a lot from where I was.
I'm currently job hunting for the sake of my well-being essentially.
Sorry for the slow responses and such. I am trying best I can.

Welp, my coworker is out with Covid and so is her entire family. So our skeleton crew is reduced even more. I will likely be working 3 weeks or 4 straight with no signs of a day off in sight so my apologies if I don't reply in a timely matter. If you want to reach out to me check my page for my socials. Otherwise, I can attempt to get one maybe once a week or on slower days(If those even exist x__x). Hope everyone else is doing well and hope the best for all of you.

Don't know who all is going to read this but regardless if you know me at all this is more like a PSA than a journal entry. I know I have been slacking on being on and replying in a timely matter things have been especially rough. As much as I love writing I feel like my spirit is not in it currently. I need some time to get things sorted. I have a multitude of ofter things going on; work being the primary but my physical and mental health are not in the best place currently. I apologize if this causes any worry, it's not meant to. Just know that I need some time away before I can come back to a normal status or perhaps a little better at least. I'm sure those I RP with have likely noticed a decline in my replies as well as an activity decline here. I'm trying to fix myself and it's proving difficult so I need more time.

Thank you for your patience and best to all of you.

New song I'm coming up with?:
[Have you ever
had the need to
kill someone?
Have you ever
felt the need to
see some blood?
Here and now I stand before you
and here and now will be your end
Can't you feel your
heart a pumpin
Can you feel the
monster within
Here and now you will feel the pain
Now and forever will never be the same
Now you've lost total control
you don't even have a soul
your eyes are blood red
filled with the demon within!
try as you might you can not fight it
it now has total control
Now you will walk in the shadows
searching for all of your loved ones
anything or anyone in your path
will surely die a most painful death!
All your freinds and family gone
you slaughtered them one by one!
There is only one person left!
He stands in front of you out of breath!
He yells at you Please come back!
Be yourself, without regret!
You stare at him knowing what he is to you
you were lovers and were in love too
You raise your claws and go to strike
he closes his eyes oh so tight
You see the memories of you two
you see the love and the pain too
a tear rolls down from his eyes!
You then raise hand up high
and dig your claws into his core!
you then change back
to the sweet, innocent young girl
you look in front of you tears fill your eyes
you just killed the love inside......]
[I love this, I made it up! If u like it mail me!]