ok, time for a new Diary ^^ I recently moved to Virgina to be with the love of my life, and things are going great between us... its everything else thats the problem :P need my lisence and our own place and that would solve most of the problems... but I am happy here with her ^^ LOVE YOU [Igor's Hero]!!!!
In Virgina with my love. ^^ OMG!!! She is so amazing!!! How can anyone be so prefect? Should have went home Sunday, but changed the day until this coming Sunday ^^
Moving to Michigan, and wont have the net for a week or 2... if anyone wants to know how I'm doing or what I'm up to [Igor's Hero] will be glad to let anyone know ^^ talk to everyone as soon as I can... bye
*breaks down and cries* I have to move... I have no choice, and its farther away from my love... she doesn't think we'll make it, but I wont give up... I would give anything to be able to finally hug her
back to depression... having problems with my love, mainly cause of things thats happened in the past... or at least thats the only way I can think of putting it... I dont know what to do any more...
I've messed up... like always T.T I always find a way to screw up... even the best thing thats ever happened to me... I just hope she gives me a second chance...
It's long over due for another one of my diary's. Not to mention over due for me to talk about someone that is very special to me. [Igor's Hero] is very wonderful ^^ I am always wondering what she sees in me, and how I could get so lucky? Because of her I've been extremely happy for a while now, instead of the normal depressed me. I hope she doesn't leave me ever, and hope she can forgive all my flaws.
My internet is disconnected. So anyone trying to message me it might be a while before I can reply...
and I thought I knew how stupid people could be...
After experiencing difficulties with his computer, a poor, incognizant user called the system maker's technical support line for assistance...
Technician: Hello. How can I help you today?
Customer: There's smoke coming from the power supply on my computer...
Technician: Looks like you need a new power supply...
Customer: No, I don't! I just need to change the startup files...
Technician: Sir, what you described is a faulty power supply. You need to replace it...
Customer: No way! Someone told me that I just had to change the system startup files to fix the problem! All I need is for you to tell me the right command...
For the next ten minutes, in spite of the technician's efforts to explain the problem and its solution, the customer adamantly insisted that he was right. So, in frustration, the technician responded...
Technician: I'm sorry. We don't normally tell our customers this, but there's an undocumented DOS command that will fix the problem...
Customer: I knew it!
Technician: Just add the line "LOAD NOSMOKE.COM" at the end of the CONFIG.SYS file and everything should work fine. Let me know how it goes...
About ten minutes later, the technician received a call back from the customer...
Customer: It didn't work. The power supply is still smoking...
Technician: Well, what version of DOS are you using?
Customer: MS-DOS 6.22...
Technician: Well, that's your problem. That version of DOS doesn't include NOSMOKE. You'll need to contact Microsoft and ask them for a patch. Let me know how it all works out...
When nearly an hour had passed, the phone rang again...
Customer: I need a new power supply...
Technician: How did you come to that conclusion?
Customer: Well, I called Microsoft and told the technician what you said and he started asking me questions about the make of the power supply...
Technician: What did he tell you?
Customer: He said my power supply isn't compatible with NOSMOKE.
Oh my gosh!!! Its another of Zare's famous diaries :P Any ways, I finally watched Dead Silence today. If anyone that reads this loves scary movies(yes, I mean the good scary movies that make you paranoid for a while) then I highly recommend this movie. Also, if you are the paranoid type even before you watch scary movies, I dont think you should watch it... I'm not paranoid hardly ever, and it took some time after watching the movie before I wasn't paranoid any more ^^
O.o I broke part of my tooth today. It sucks even more now. Not only does it still hurt to chew on that side of my mouth, but I dont think I can get it filled now, but instead will have to have it pulled. T.T This really sucks. I was hoping a small (ok, maybe it would have been a big) filling would help, but now that its broken this much, I dont think they can just fill it. Eh, I need money so I can go the the stupid dentist.
I know I dont write here much, but doesn't mean what I do put here isn't important to me... As of right now, I'm a little lost in what I should do. Maybe life is finally catching up with me, or maybe I've finally lost what little mind I use to have... I know I need to decide this myself, but sometimes it would just be easier if someone would tell me what to do... Don't get me wrong, I dont want anyone to tell me what to do or anything... just sometimes seems it would be easier to decide things... well... I'm starting to lean more towards the 'Lost my mind' theory...
I've lost sight of myself again... It's becoming harder and harder to see what I want any more... It's gotten so bad I can't explain who I am... Is this normal? I've never seen or heard of people loosing themselves this much...
It seems that an old injury is starting to flare up... I have no idea why, but the other day I could barely walk because of it... why must my life be so horrible?
There it is again... This is the second time I've felt this way. Out of my whole life, only two ppl have made me feel like this, and both is the same year... I no longer know what to do about it... The first time ended in a disaster, and I just dont want to relive it.. Someone tell me what to do...
Love is just a myth. People always talk about it, but can never explain it. When you think your in love, something unexpected happens, and makes you realize your not. It always seems to be so close, but you can never find it. Until I find out different, I'll always think of it as a myth, and nothing more.
Happyness is a strange thing. When you really want it, it seems to be hard to find, and it seems like you've never felt it before. Then there are times where you can't get away from it, and can't remember life with out it. Some people can go their whole lives without happyness, but others find it difficult any time they don't have it. The ones that find it difficult struggle through life, just to try to find it again.