[aisubara]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2006-03-17
Written: (6638 days ago)

Lost loves
Torn hearts
Is it teenage angst?
Or something else
I don't understand

Something real
Or is it fake
Give or take
This world of mine
It makes no sense
Why is everyone so intense?

Is it love?
Or is it death
Is it truth?
Or is it pain
Heartache, sorrow
For a cause
Or is it pointless
Far off love

I sit and wait
My tears will dry
When I see you
Your head held high

You understand
What's going on?
Or are you merely
Playing pretend

Brainwashed by the media
Everything's commercialized
Fake or real
Truth or lies
No one knows
Why we die

Why the pain
Why the sorrow
As we gloomly
Wait for tomorrow

Rain drops faintly
On the roof
Is that proof
That it's real

Is life an illusion?
Am I just a pawn?
For this I'm afraid
I'm not very fond

So I'll lie in bed
My pills in hand
As I wish it all away
And slip into
A deep, peaceful, permanent sleep
Goodnight, farewell
Goodnight

764328  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-03-17
Written: (6638 days ago)

Emotions pouring
Pouring out of me
Drowning in my sleep
I feel weak
When I think
Of how you hurt me
The cut's so deep

Why did I let you go?
Why can't I think straight?
Now that you are gone
I feel empty
Empty heart and soul

Cause when you left
You took my heart with you
Now I'm dieing
My heart stopped beating
When you left me here

Alone
In the dark
Look at the time
And I'm still waiting
Why can't I see?
You're not coming back
You don't really care about me

Emotions pouring
Pouring out of me
Drowning in my sleep
I feel weak
When I think
Of how you hurt me
The cut's so deep

764327  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-03-17
Written: (6638 days ago)

It's just a fad
It won't last
Be yourself
Or you'll regret your past

Think things through
Before you do
Anything drastic
Anything major
Just remember

It's just a fad
It won't last
Be yourself
Or you'll regret your past

Don't ruin your life
Before it began
How about working with this little plan

Don't try to fit in
Don't try to be cool
I know you're different
Outside of school

It's just a fad
It won't last
Be yourself
Or you'll regret your past

764326  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2006-03-17
Written: (6638 days ago)

I am fourteen
Stuck in the middle
Obedient yet free
What do they expect from me?
I have to work and do things on my own
I feel I'm loosing grip of the one's I love
They always argue
They always complain
I don't have opinions?
Is life just a game?
Mom and dad used to spoil me a lot
Until my baby sister was born
Years far off
I felt neglected
I didn't understand
Why does she get attention?
What, am I too bland?
Crying and wining, that's all babies' do
But now I know they need the attention from you
Now in my life
The attention is scarce
Wish I could go back
Go back in reverse
Back to a time
When I felt love everywhere
Instead of neglect
And worries that they don't care

I'm fourteen and crying for my lost loves
My parents are yelling and shouting about
And I wonder, 'why is this happening?'
We used to be happy
We used to have fun
Is it me that's changing?
Or is it everyone
I sit in my room
As I ponder these thoughts
Am I awake or am I sleeping
Is this all just a dream
This beautiful scheme
This game, its name
It's known as life.

718067  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-12-19
Written: (6725 days ago)

You know you live in 2005 when:









1) You accidentally enter your password on a microwave

















2) You haven't played solitaire with real cards in years

















3) The real reason for not staying in touch with your friends is because they don't have a myspace/email address

















4) You'd rather look all over the house for the remote instead of just pushing to button on the TV.

















6) Your boss doesnt even have the ability to do your job.

















7) You read this list and keep nodding and smiling

















8) As you read this list, you think about sending it to all your
friends

















9) And ... you were to busy too notice number 5.

















10) You actually scrolled back up to check that there was no 5

















11) And now you're laughing at your stupidity















12) Repost if you fell for it. You know you did!

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