well hey there... no, there will be no rap today...lucky you... my ex has joined the army and that makes me sad... it seems as if evertime i want a relationship to work things go horribly wrong...i don't know if it is me i just wish it would stop. i guess that's why i'm excited about college next year. a whole new begining. a chance to get away from the madness. oh well i don't really want to type anymore so i guess i'll let off and see what goes on.

tomorrow is my b-day
whoop dee do da day!
i'm not having a party
like my cool friend maeghi
just sittin' at home all alone
feel like i was cut to the bone
oh well it's not that big of a deal
i'm just trying to keep it real
i'm kinda bummed there's nothing to do
so i'll sit at home and dream of you!
MUTHA FUCKA

*note* this is my free style...my friends and i do it all the time...ok my friends more so than me...but that is beside the point...i'm just trying to have fun

hola!
well i just gt back from church camp and met the guyof my dreams! it was so weird...HE HAS 2 LLAMAS! sorry...it thught it was cool...he lives in Bonnieville ky 2 hours away and i miss him terribly...Maeghi...i will show you pictures and give you dirt...yeah for a church camp we were naughty...we went into some caves...soooo cool and made a bonfire...t'was so much fun! anyway if you really want the storry just ask...oh i also gave some whore the smack down...at the camp...yeah...i was bad...OOH! MAEGHI! "i've been bad" lmao

ahola.....yeah i can;t really think of anything to say so i'll just say hi....I LOVE YOU MIKE!aka [Captain Backfire]

well hey..it's been a while since i've written in here so here it goes... life is a bitch simply put! anyway i just want to get out theat i think i'm starting to like vince at my school damn...he's just been so damn nice to me lately...strange...oh well i'm done with guys for a while the just cause so much pain...yeah today i miss tim the first guy i gave my heart to...my friends warned me but hey i never listen...it's a flaw but at least i can admit it! oh well i broke up with josh after two weeks...he wasn't right for me and i didn't want to lead him on so...yeah...i hate hurting people...pain is the bitch that causes life! oh well i'll just throw n my new saying.....
life is a spoon full of peanut butter and i'm going to eat it!

weeeee! green day totally rocks! hence my frustration at my parents not letting me go! gaaaaa!

oh my love where have you gone
away to torment my soul
my body shakes with sobs i dare not cry
my hand shake because yours aren't there to steady them
it's hard to breath
it's hard to live
i miss you always
i think of you always
you are my one and only
always

fire burns in my soul
i'm on fire for you and you alone
you don't care.
it's been a while but i still have feelings
you were my first
love
friend
enemy
you never knew about the pain
you only ever told me lies
where does the caous end and life begin?
will i ever be whole
or will i be left battered and bleeding
my broken soul the only testament to our love?
so now i sit in the dark and nurse my heart
it isn't broken
but it is cracked and bleeding
waiting for someone
anyone
to fix it and mend my broken wings

fire fire burning bright
in the forest black as night
watching with a feirceful eye
i stalk your graceful symmetry
your hiding from your hunters wrath
tonight will be a crude blood bath
i hide my self in midnight stealth
you run and try to save your self
but i'm to quick for you to see
you never should've betrayed me
i draw my knife across you throat
you are my sacrifical goat
lick the blood off the blade
slip back into the moon shade
i walk away and know i've won
killing you was so much fun