it never fails that when i become happy i lose the thing that makes me happy, i guess it is time to get the razor agian and let everything go with the slit of a wrist everything becomes calm and at ease

i dont know what i should be feeling anymore i sometimes think that i am not suppose to have any feelings, i am totally in love with a great guy but i feel stupid having the feelings that i do, i am so scared to let anyone back in for the fear of getting hurt again

i feel like i am totally alone as if no one loves me all i see is darkness around me. my world keeps on falling down around me. nothing makes since anymore the only person that i can think of right wants nothing to do with me. maybe i am too easy going i let to many people get the best of me and i get hurt by pity little things