[choke_on_dreams]'s diary

707592  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-11-30
Written: (6932 days ago)

[x] been drunk.
[x] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex.
[x] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[x] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] had sex.
[ ] had sex more than once in the same day
[xxx](k jk) had a threesome
[ ] snuck out of your parent's house.
[ ] been arrested.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[ ] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] celebrated mardi-gras in New Orleans.
[x] been to Europe
[x] skipped school.
[x] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling... (for a year)
[ ] played 'clue'.
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[x](What?) dropped x.
[ ] been cheated on.
[ ] had a sweet sixteen.
[ ] had a quinceanera.
[ ] had a car.
[ ] drove.
Do you...
[ ] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] (sometimes) hate yourself.
[ ] think you're attractive.
[ ] have a dog.
[ ] have your own room.
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[x] listen to soul.
[ ] listen to techno.
[x] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[x] wear eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[x] like the color yellow.
[x](Well only with Nick) cyber.
[x] claim.
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[x] have a mobile
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.
Are you...
[ ] ugly.
[ ] pretty.
[x] ok.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] bilingual
[x] short.
[x] tall.
[ ] grounded.
[ ] sick.
[x] a virgin.
[x] lazy.
[x] single.
[ ] taken.
[ ] looking.
[x] not looking.
[x] talking to someone.
[x] IMing someone.
[ ] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[x] annoyed-ish
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[ ] on the phone.
[ ] in your room.
[ ] drinking something.
[ ] eating something.
[x] in your pjs. (How did you know?)
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic.
[ ] racist.

706509  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-11-28
Written: (6933 days ago)
Next in thread: 707317


Dear Diary [<3]

My life is like spiraling downward.
I couldn't get enough money to go to that Bloodred Romance and Suffocate Me Dry concert. It sucks coz they play some of my favourite songs like [stab my heart out coz I love you], and [Rip Apart My Soul], and of course.. [Stab Me Rip Stab Stab]! And it doesn't help that I couldn't get my hair that flippy thing either, like that guy from that band can do. Some days I rip my heart out.
I'm an emo kid, non-conforming as can be, you'd be non-conforming too if you looked just like me. I have paint on my nails and make-up on my face, am almost emo enough to start shaving my legs. Coz I feel real deep, when I'm dressing in drag, I call it freedom of expression...most just call me a FAG. Coz their dudes look like chicks,their chicks look like dykes, coz emo is one step below transvestite.
Stop my breathing and slit my throat, I must be emo. I don't jump around when I go to shows. I must be emo. I'm dark and sensetive with low self esteem, the way I dress makes every day feel like [.H.a.l.l.o.w.e.e.n.] I have no real problems but I like to make believe, I stole my sisters mascara now I'm grounded for a week. Sulking and writing making poetry are my hobbies, I can't get through a [.Hawthorne.] [.Heights.] album without sobbing. Girls keep breaking up with me,its never any fun they say they already have a pussy,they don't need another one.
Stop my breathing and slit my throat, I must be emo. I don't jump around when I go to shows. I must be emo. Dye in my hair and polish on my toes. I must be emo. I play guitar and write suicide notes. I must be emo.
My life is just a black abyss, you know? Its so dark. And its suffocating me. Like I'm in a hole tightening its grip. Tighter than a pair of my little sisters jeans. Which look great on me by the way.
When I get depressed, I cut my wrists in every direction, hearing songs about getting dumped give me an erection, I write in a line drew and wear thich rim glasses. I tell my friends I bleed black, and cry during classes. I'm just a bad,cheap imitation of goth, give me catcher in the rye, and watch me jack off. I wear skin tight clothes, while hating my life, if I said I liked girls, I'd only be half right.
I look like I'm dead and dress like a homo,I must be emo. Screw X-box I play old school Nintendo. I must be emo. I like to wine and hit my parentals. I must be emo. Me and my friends all look like clones. I must be EEEEEEEMO.
My parents don't get me,you know? They think am gay just coz they saw me kiss a guy. Well a couple of guys. But I mean its the truth...why can't two, or four dudes make out with each other without being gay? I mean, chicks dig that kinda stuff anyways. I dunno diary, sometimes I think you're the only one that gets me. You're my best friend.
I feel like Tacos...


706313  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-11-28
Written: (6934 days ago)

Me: do you enjoy touching horses
vag: in what context
me: in a totally sexually context
vag: MALLY
me: lol okay in a non sexual context....
vag: ugh no im not having this conversation with you
me: lol okay like, example, i like touching furry things, but it doesnt nessisarily mean that i am attracted to all furry things
vag: yes but you are
me: yes but thats not teh point

705872  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-11-27
Written: (6934 days ago)

Dear Ian,

Check out the awesome Bass line In "Break me Shake" - Savage Garden.


Yours forever,
Malavika.

x

705871  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-11-27
Written: (6934 days ago)

Dear Isobel,

Im sorry for shitting in your mouth.



Yours always.
Malavika
x

698957  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2005-11-15
Written: (6947 days ago)

Edit that.

I can.



He remembered.

694425  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-11-07
Written: (6955 days ago)

Fuck.

I cant use [Drive Faster Boy.] anymore.

Need a new one I guess.

694419  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-11-07
Written: (6955 days ago)

Matt has this idea that if he squeezes my boobs, Ill fart.


Matt: Mally so if i squeeze your booobs your fart, what happens if I squeeze your ass?
Me: Ill shit on you.

694064  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-11-06
Written: (6955 days ago)

Nick was high ;;


Nick: I always thinks that...
Me: wait..."I always thinks" lmao.


Me: You are being MEAN.
Nick: I am NOT
Me: you ARE
Nick:...Sorry.



Nick: Ill brb.
Me: okay sure bebe
*five minutes pass and Mally clicks on nicks window. Hes sitting there blankly*
Me: lol Babe...
Nick: *laughs* I forgot to say im back.
Me: haha...
Nick: mally...
Me: yes?
Nick: Im back

Mally: *says something*
Nick: wow youve never said that word before...coooool.
Mally: said what?
Nick: that word?
Mally: what did i say?
Nick: neat
Mally: no i didnt?!
Nick: yes you did..
mally: nick i said I love you...


Me: whatare you thinking/>?
Nick: are you asking me special questions?
Me: what?!
Nick: are you asking me special questions because im high?
Me: like what?
Nick: like what are you thinking?
Me: nick dont i always ask you that?
Nick: yeah


Me: *trying to talk dirty*
Nick: OOOHHH SHES RUBBIN HER PUSSY NOW. OOHHH.
Me: *burst out laugh*?nick stfu. I cannot do this while your high.


Nick: your like one of those people who one 5 dollars at on the lottery...im nothing special.
Me: No, im one of thsoe people who dont buy lottery tickets because shes got everything she needs at home.

693233  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-11-05
Written: (6957 days ago)

So listen,
its bonfire night tonight.




But I do not participate in such events.
Thank you.
Goodbye.


I may quite possibly stay over at Izzy's tonight,
along with my GOOD BEST FRIEND ;; Harriet QUEEN BELL.


Yes.


Nicholas and I will be Level four by the end of this weekend.


Guildwars. Yes.




I really should start studying for my exams I guess ya?


693231  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2005-11-05
Written: (6957 days ago)


See Ya Later Sexy.
Thats what he says;; Yeah.

692136  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2005-11-03
Written: (6959 days ago)

.:YoUr LiKe PoIsEn RuNnInG tHrOuGh My [V/e\I/n\S]:.

691371  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-11-02
Written: (6960 days ago)



Have we photosynthesized our breakfast today?




She was the still point of the turning world, man.



691370  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-11-02
Written: (6960 days ago)





When She Jumped, She Probably Thought She Could Fly.



690414  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-10-31
Written: (6962 days ago)




.N o A t t r a c t i o n.





None Whatsoever.
690413  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-10-31
Written: (6962 days ago)

Upon Request, I think I could quite possibly write a little bit more on this diary.



Vag. Ahem.

690411  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2005-10-31
Written: (6962 days ago)

Hey Man,
Today I called Nick, and It was like :


Nick: Uh oh.
Me: *silence* *Tries to stop laughing, because she thinks shes rang the wrong number* Is Nick there?
Nick: *Funny Voice*Uhm...Ya Ill give it to him *Silence* Hey Bebe, That was me all along.
*LAUGH FOR EVER AND EVER AND EVER*





Tom: I gtg guys
Nick: OHHH PLEASE DONT GO MAN PLEASE, IM GOING TO MISS YOU SO MUCH OMGGGG PLEASE, DONT LEAVE ME.
Mally: Bye man.
Tom: Ok Ill stay.
Nick: jk leave.
Mally: omg nick, well done.


Mally: *laughing really hard*
Nick: *silence* Okay. You just snorted. that was funny.

689861  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2005-10-30
Written: (6963 days ago)

Im
Booooored.

Im a sex machine
Ready to relode.

687784  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2005-10-26
Written: (6967 days ago)

I think its funny When
[N O N . E M O] boys
make their houses
All Pretty and stuff
Im a Fag.
I know.


685491  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-10-21
Written: (6971 days ago)



He Knows Its Too Late.


























































Other:
Handed in all my work.
Its the best I can do.
Anything you can do
;;I can do better.

Out Please.
Okiez Dealz.




685490  Link to this entry 
Written about Friday 2005-10-21
Written: (6971 days ago)

Everytime I use ;; or &&. I just feel So Cool.


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