I miss my sweet birdsong .
Little time left now , thank god .
Big E.T. secret - Dela Loves silver blue , but, oh- what to do he's gay all day !
On the subject of friends ,, hmmmm , let me see Maybe i shall ask the great and powerful Dela how to do it ??? All you need to do is , gain the trust , then find somebody to trash them with every day - all the while pretending to care about them ...
That is it ,, oh so simple , just like Dela.....
Dear diary , why ?
Come you masters of war - you that build the big bombs , you that play with my world like it's your little toy , and I think that you'll find that all the money you've made wont buy back your soul " Bob Dylan
Feel like sunshine today!!!!!!!!!
I met kevin fifteen years ago -[ he was the closest thing to having a child that I will ever know ]... I worked as a preschool teacher then ; Kevin and I hit it off really well. I wore just tee-shrits year round , so did kevin , I played guitar and Kevin began to learn ! He became one of the most Talented people with Guitar that I have ever seen ; by eight , he could out play everything I knew , WOW , I was so proud of him !!
Kevin took his life last week due to a schizoaffectiv
I will look to the sky and wonder , and miss you dear friend .
Love you buddy !
I guess I will try again in this diary . I have been so down lately and have not wanted to bring others down.
I have been assessing my life and have not liked what I see ~
It used to be that I was dedicated to living a good life , free of unlawful activites . I have now become a drug addict ~ It started in '97 for me , back then I had gone to the Drs many times to try to find out why I felt awful pain all over my body , as well as many other strange complaints . I was then intraduced to oxycontin . Back then , I used it right , just swallowed them ; and though this was not my prescription it was a life save for me !
I started looking for my own Dr , and couldn't find one that knew about fibromyalggia ~ also around this time I cought a good sized man falling as we transfered him from wheel chair to van seat ~ I ended up catching him in mid air , and thus a back injury , that is making it hard every day !
I have waited the last three years for social security disability , and man your fucking pride goes down the toilet ! I now have it and with that I feel happy to have an income , and worthless at the same time .
I guess I will try again in this diary . I have been so down lately and have not wanted to bring others down.
I have been assessing my life and have not liked what I see ~
It used to be that I was dedicated to living a good life , free of unlawful activites . I have now become a drug addict ~ It started in '97 for me , back then I had gone to the Drs many times to try to find out why I felt awful pain all over my body , as well as many other strange complaints . I was then intraduced to oxycontin . Back then , I used it right , just swallowed them ; and though this was not my prescription it was a life save for me !
I started looking for my own Dr , and couldn't find one that knew about fibromyalggia ~ also around this time I cought a good sized man falling as we transfered him from wheel chair to van seat ~ I ended up catching him in mid air , and thus a back injury , that is making me so sad every day now . {more later}