Back to school, work, and life. Now I want to say I have a friend on here that is really good to talk with and I am glad that I finally met another juggalo on here. He's awesome. Juggalos mean a lot to me so that makes him better. I noticed that friends seem to turn back on other friends but my juggalos and homies never do! So I hope Juggalo_420 and I stay talking for a while. It keeps me entertained on here having a friend!
I'm excited. I only have 8 more days than I will be 20. (big deal) I get to go to the renassaince fair too for my birthday. heck yea!!! It's almost time for me to return to work which means I have more to do in the day. I just wtached fat albert and not am watching boondock saints. Well, that is my excitement right now besides my baby is crying. peace!!!
It took 3 hours to align my car today. I had phoenix and it was cold. I got to go out last night for the first time without phoenix. it was nice to realx and watch a funny movie with all my friends. I liked it very much. *looks at crying baby* time for phoenix again. I love it!!!
School has started again and I can't wait to go back to work. People actlike I am suppose to be sore just becuz of a lil C-sectin and a newborn. Come on! I am not that weak. Either way! I am doing great and love my lil Phoenix. (do you like that name..??? be honest now!)
Wow! Drama, it has been in my life. That is not good but ya. Now I have a child due in two weeks from today. By the way, forget Russell I have not seen in him in over a year. BJ and I are together still and yes it is his child. Him and I do not live together but we live close to each other. We are moving in with each other after February. I am livign a great life. Forget drama, I have alife to live!!!!
Committment. That is what I am faced with right now. I have not been the one to deal with that. I have dated guys and after so much time we separate. Now BJ is talking about us moving in together. (Ok, I can deal with that.....) Next month! Ah! That is soon. I have to think about this. (and I have...) The more I do, the more I think it is crazy. (Then there's the one other side...) I may like living with him. It will be a nice step for me. I need to grow up and face the truth. I want to have kids. (later in life...) I want to have a family in a nice, comfortable home. (maybe early 30s (33)...) I want to get married. (maybe late 20s (28)...) I want to move in with the one I love. (maybe early 20s (22)...) But BJ is talking about moving in next month together. (4 years too early) Then he want to get married 2006. (10 years too early). I do not know if I should. I mean I love him, I do! But committment and me just do not mix. I need advice!!!!!!!!
Guess what? I was right. I did love russell but we had a fight and he called me things that coul dhave gotten him killed. I have been going out with a guy named BJ for over half a year now and we are engaged. This coming up next 2 or 3 months we are moving in a house together. January 27, 2006 we will be married.
This is bad. I think I may be falling for my boyfriend Russell but how can that be. Wait, no I can't. I don't believe in love so rah! I am not in love but I do really like him.