heya i havent posted for a while firstly i have a new boyfrend hes fantasic and hes called fig!! he lives in mexico
rather rad!
today im havin a lazy day
knowing and accepting are two very different things
like knowing that im here and accepting that you're gone
i didn't want to see you somewhere you didn't want to be
but it hurts me that that place is with me
i want to see you happy and see the sun shine through
but how do i know that life goes on without you
where do i go now that you've gone?
i still feel your presense here
and baby its been oh so long
but you, you still linger on
i miss your face
and this tired place
just doesn't feel like home without you
when i feel like crying i count my lucky stars
that i got the chance to hold you in my arms
when i feel despair because we are apart
i think of all the reasons your still in my heart
your not gone but your not here
your so far away but you feel so near
where do i go no that you've gone
i still feel your presense here
and baby its been oh so long
but you, you linger on
i miss your face
and this tired place
just doesn't feel like home
without you
you are to beautiful to me
youll always be with me
and now i just have to see
whereever i go now that your gone
though i still feel you here
yes its been way too long
i now that you still linger on
i see your face
but this tired place
is the only home i have
without you
Its ironic that pain can make you stronger
That the one that made you cry can make you stop
Whoever broke your heart can make it hurt no longer
What i wouldnt give for one more day
Ive learnt to fall without angels to guide me
Ive learnt to take the pain just how it comes
I know that in the end i will thank you
I know myself because you showed me how
With every breath you lifted me up higher
You held me in your arms and wiped my tears
Ill love you forever and a day
A night, awake, i lay
I see your face
Miss your embrace
I am who you see
Everything i can be
All because you loved me.
This juliet is bleeding
But you can't see her blood
It's nothing but some feelings
That this old dog kicked up
It's been raining since you left me
Now I'm drowning in the flood
You see I've always been a fighter
But without you I give up
Now I can't sing a love song
Like the way it's meant to be
Well, I guess I'm not that good anymore
But baby, that's just me
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Now your pictures that you left behind
Are just memories of a different life
Some that made us laugh, some that made us cry
One that made you have to say goodbye
What I'd give to run my fingers through your hair
To touch your lips, to hold you near
When you say your prayers try to understand
I've made mistakes, I'm just a woman
When she holds you close, when she pulls you near
When she says the words you've been needing to hear
I'll wish I was her 'cause those words are mine
To say to you till the end of time
Yeah, I will love you baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
If you told me to cry for you
I could
If you told me to die for you
I would
Take a look at my face
There's no price I won't pay
To say these words to you
Well, there ain't no luck
In these loaded dice
But baby if you give me just one more try
We can pack up our old dreams
And our old lives
We'll find a place where the sun still shines
And I will love you, baby - Always
And I'll be there forever and a day - Always
I'll be there till the stars don't shine
Till the heavens burst and
The words don't rhyme
And I know when I die, you'll be on my mind
And I'll love you - Always
Maybe it's intuition
But some things you just don't question
Like in your eyes
I see my future in an instant
and there it goes
I think I've found my best friend
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
[chorus:]
I knew I loved you before I met you
I think I dreamed you into life
I knew I loved you before I met you
I have been waiting all my life
There's just no rhyme or reason
only this sense of completion
and in your eyes
I see the missing pieces
I'm searching for
I think I found my way home
I know that it might sound more than
a little crazy but I believe
[repeat chorus]
A thousand angels dance around you
I am complete now that I found you
[repeat chorus to fade]
silly silly me
oops false alarm on the last one...........
dany.
thanx for using me
u wanker
thanx
BEST DAY EVER ME AND DANY BACK TOGETHER!!!!!!
I
LOVE
DANY
XXXXXX
nothing ever changes i dont think it ever will
as much as i pray it will
what is normal? and when will it return
this vicious circle some time soon it will kill
both of us, together then
now apart
but forever in my heart
i dream and i wish
the truth. what is that? why cant you see
dreams and wishes never bring you any closer to me
does what i say shock you
did you already know
that you own my heart
and why i cannot go
i cannotleave today, maybe ill walk tomorrow
later. when is that?? when i cannot see my future
lots to say
just no voice
and no choice
wot i say comes out wrong
thats why i wrote this song
to show im not totally lost
i can find my way home if i have to.
hey,
a good weekend in all......good times good times.....did laser quest, only girl, n i bet half of them lol!!!! Go me...im off aainon friday with...well just dany so far but i think stef and ozzy and slack and lucy may want to come too....would be a bit awkward with just me and dany!!!!
was textin him today...he said as it stands we arnt getting back together.....s
never knew that i could feel like this
like ive never seen the sky efore
i want to vanish inside your kiss
everyday i love you more
listen to your heart
can you hear it sing??
telling me to give you everything
seasons may change
winter to spring
but i love you
until the end of time
come what may
come what may
i will love you
until my dying day
suddenly the world seems such a perfect place
suddenly it moves with such a perfect grace
suddenly my life doesnt seem such a waste
it all revolves around you
and theres no mountain too high
no river too wide
sing out this song and ill be there by you side
storm cloudsmay gather and stars may collide
but i love you
until the end of time
come what may
come what may
i will love you
until my dying day
she crys herself to sleep
and he sits to watch her weep
the glow of the candle light on her face
he takes her hand to say goodbye
she knows they cant live a lie
but the end is just too soon, such a waste
she looks up, tears on her cheeks
he has been dreading this for weeks
the loves not there, theres nothing he can do
he wipes her tears away
shes praying for another day
she still loves him, its so out of the blue
she opened up her mind and heart
he came in and tore it apart
a look of saddness holds in her eyes
he walks away, towards the door
she cant bare, it she looks to the floor
no final words, too choked to say goodbye
Your body's warm
But you are not
You give a little
Not a lot
You coup your love
Until we kiss
You're all I want
But not like this
I'm watching you disappear
But you, you were never here
It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon
And leaving too soon
Your body gives
But then holds back
The sun is bright
The sky is black
Can only be another sign
I cannot keep what isn't mine
You left and it lingers on
But you, you were almost gone
It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon
And leaving too soon
I cannot tell if you mean what you say
You say it so loud, but you sound far away
Maybe I had just a glimpse of your soul
Or was that your shadow I saw on the wall
I'm watching you disappear
But you, you were never here
It's only your shadow
Never yourself
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Filling the room
Arriving too late
No, no, no
It's only your shadow
It's only your shadow
Nobody else
It's only your shadow
Arriving too late
And leaving too soon
It's only your shadow
you don't run with the crowd
you go your own way
you don't play after dark
you light up my day
got your own kinda' style it sets you apart
baby thats why you captured my heart
i know sometimes you feel like you dont fit in
and this world doesnt know what you have within
when i look at you i see something rare
a rose that can grow anywhere
and theres no one i know that can compare
what makes you different makesyou beautiful
whats there inside you shines through to me
in your eyes i see all the love ill ever need
what makes you different makes you beautiful to me
you got something so real
you touched me so deep
see material things
dont matter to me
so come as you are
you got nothing to prove
you won me with all that you do
and i wanna take this chance to say to you
what makes you different makesyou beautiful
whats there inside you shines through to me
in your eyes i see all the love ill ever need
what makes you different makes you beautiful to me
you don't know how you touched my life
oh in so many ways i just cant describe
you taught me what love is suppose to be
its all the little things that make you beautiful to me
hey all.....
had a realli good day..endof term..played hide and seek inmr P's classroom...lo
Emilybob: my betest m8 you really stuck by me through all the hard times....thank you so much...you know more about me than i do and you always help me though...whene
Ozzy: like i said yesterday your my one and only sugarplum...th
Slack: what can i can???.....let
Stef: my hunni bunni....the best mate a girl could ask for...bless ya...you get me through..thank you.....luv yas xxx
Ilz: my snazzest mate......chee
Lola: what can i say...not alot...we've bee through alot together...ull be one ill remeber forever...xxx
Dany: I love you
bless tom
It's been a while how have you been doing
Do you over think about me and you and
All the things we used to do
The times that we shared
Well I've been looking for love and affection
It's brought me back in your direction
Even though we've been apart
Your part of my soul
Ok I know (I know I was a fool)
A fool (To lose my faith in you)
But girl before you go
I want you to know
That I think of you every day, baby
And I can't seem to get away
from these feelings
And I, I need to tell you some how
That I need your love right now
Looking back I can see things clearly
The mistakes that I paid for dearly
Taking love for granted only leaves you alone
Well if we talked you would understand that
Time has made me a better man and
With your love behind me there's nowhere I can't go
So take a chance (Just take a chance on me)
And you'll see (It's where you need to be)
If your heart it tells you so
You'll know what I know
That I think of you every day, baby
And I can't seem to get away from these feelings
And I, I need to tell you some how
That I need your love right now
Right now is the time for both of us
To put aside our differences and trust
All the words I never used to say
Now I've found a way
(Now I've found a way)
That I think of you every day, baby
(I think of you, I think of you, baby)
And I can't seem to get away from these feelings
(I can't seem to, I can't seem to, get away, get away)
And I, I need to tell you some how
(Some how)
That I need your love (Your love, right now)
(Right now)
That I think of you every day, baby
(baby)
And I can't seem to get away from these feelings
(I can't seem..
From these feelings)
And I, I need to tell you some how
That I need your love right now
I said I need your love right now..
hey yall...made a complete arse of myself and upset Dany and myself in the process...not good
here i stand alone with this weight upon my heart
and it will not go away
in my head i keep on looking back
right back to the start
wondering what it was that made you change
well i tried but i had to draw the line
but still this question keepson spinning in my mind
what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know
many roads to take some to joy some to heart ache
anyone can lose their way
and if i said that we could turn it back
right back to the start
would you take the chance and make a change??
do you think how it would have been sometimes?
do you pray that id never left your side??
what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know
if only we could turn the hands of time
if i could take it back would you still be mine?
well i tried but i had to draw the line
but still this question keepson spinning in my mind
what if i had never let you go?
would you be the man i used to know?
what if i had never walked away
cos i still love you more than i could say
if id stayed
if you'd tried
if we could only turn back time
but i guess we'll never know
we'll never know
ozzy, my one and only sugarplum:
we'll get through this together, i promise....ur themost honest sweetest guy i ever met......and the most genuine...but too soft foryour own good lol...bless your little soul....luv u
that all today folks
lauren
hey yall
today as been better for me as me and dany seem to be finally getting closer...i wanna be close to him again...i feel safer with him.....plus (sounds corney) i miss his smell lol...i miss him full stop...ahh...b
today is my brothers birthday lol happy birthday danny.
yeah scarey...Alex said today 'ya know if i didnt know you two (me and dany, lovely dany not my brother) id think you too were brother and sister'
THAT WOULD BE WRONG ALEX also illegal i think lol...........
love lauren
Hiya,
Jo's party what can i say??? FUN!!!!!!!!!
Though i learnt alot.....no matter how happy people seem on the outside, we all have secrets inside...and you can only be truly happy if you are yourself.....y
For Alex, the Best Alex i no:
Are you swimming upstream in oceans of blue?
Do you feel like you're sinking?
Are you sick of the rain after all you've been through?
Well I know what you're thinking
When you can't take it
You can make it
Sometime soon I know you'll see
'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong
We're taking each step one day at a time
You can't lose your spirit
Let live and let live forget and forgive
It's all how you see it
And just remember keep it together
Don't you know you're never alone
'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on, and be strong
No you're not defeated
And soon you'll be smiling once again
Then you won't have to feel it
Let it go with the wind
Time passes us by
And know that you're aloud to cry
'cause when you're in your darkest hour
And all of the light just fades away
When you're like a single flower whose colours have turned to shades of gray
Well hang on and be strong
love lauren
hey yall
well today is friday...tomor
Dany,
You once told me this:
''dont leave the person who you love for the person who you like because the person who you like wil leave you for the person that they love''
Love is always there
just sometimes
never seen
not felt
look deep
its there
i can still see it in your eyes
your smile never lies
Love is still there
just
never seen
not felt
LOOK
Love Lauren xxx
this is only my second diary entry...i want to write more regulary really.....
First and most importantly me and Dany broke up...extreamly sad because as it stands we are not really talking...i wish we were..i miss him so very much....to see him everyday makes me feel sick that ive lost him...for a second time makes it harder. when all i want to do is tell him how much he means to me...maybe i cant tell him to his face..hope he reads this:
Dany,
i know your hurting now, that makes the both of us. i dont hate you. im not even angry. im disapointed. not in you. in life. fate seems to deal us a crap hand right now yeah? i know you know i love you, more than words, but i had to tell you....so you dont forget.....don
''a kiss without commitments like a flower without the rain
it only leads to pain
it fills my heart with emptieness
your touch without commitments like the calm before the strom
the tears that start to form in my eyes
when i kissed you i was curious
the child that i was
i never realised that i would love your soul
and in the magic of the moment i was swept to the side
and i saw your heart so small and tender
the pyhsical is fine but i cannot avoid the pain
im like an express train as i surge towards the mountain
i am certain as im living i cannot do this again
we're much too greater friends to play games
when i kissedit was evrything i dreamed it would be
but i never dreamed it would mean so much to me
and our friendship is too valuable to carelessly lose
so today i choose to really love you
Daniel your heart is like newly budding rose
expanding as you grow
your petals have been bruised but you have so much love to give
and its so beautiful to see
your beautiful to me my friend
and when i kissed you i believed it wouldnt get in the way
i want to stay your friend and have you mine
and im hoping that our god can make great things of our lives
his love survives the greatest struggle
Daniel your cage is open nothing in your way
a friend youll always stay to me whatever else were gunna be
a friend youll always stay to me''
laurenxxxx