i am tired of not knowing whats going on ... especially in my own life .... and right now i am really in love with someone and they are with someone else and it hurts because they feel the same way about me but want to make things workout with the other person which i understand but the aiting just sucks and i can't do it anymore ....
im trying to quit smoking because jessica wants me to and i slip sometimes ... but i think i am doing pretty good so far ... i have the patches and they seem to help alot but if there is any body who knows of another way please tell me i need some help here ....... oh and apparantly i am immature because i had lost a cd that was not mine and was going to replace it .... well the persons sister demanded that i replace within 24 hours and then when i get to the place to replace it she there looking for it and finds it and then when i get it to but it she tells my gf that if i pay for it she would not accept it .... is that not the most infuriating thing you have ever heard ... well after the fact im sitting in the car waiting for the people that i am there with to come out and my gf comes up and says that if the sister asks she (my gf) paid for it .... and i said that no i wanted her to know that i paid for it. and well i said also that i thought it was bullshit that she wouldnt take the damned cd if she knew that i paid for it and that the whole situation was fucked up. and fuck her if she was going to bitch at me about replacing the cd and then refuse to take it if i paid for it. so now my gf is mad at me and thinks that i was being immature and my roommate is mad at me cause it was his gf that i told this to.
well i have discovered the difference betwix loving someone and being in love with someone ...... while i do still love the girl i am living with i am not in love with her and i just cant see myself spending the rest of my life with her ..... however i am in love with the girl from my home town and i could see myself spending the rest of my life with her. so here is the crux of the problem .... i dont want to be an asshole about not wanting to be with the girl im living with and i am not sure i can accomplish that very easily ..... sooooooo .... im really in a jam here
i have a problem here ... there are two really sweet girls in my life and i am currently living with one of them and the other is in my home town .... however that is not the whole problem you see i am going back to my hometown later this month and will have a chance to see the girl there but the girl i am with will be coming along so that might pose a prob .... i really do love both of them and have no idea of what i am going to do .... if any one can give me some advise on this i would really apreciate it
bored at my new job already and it just seems like im not going to get anywhere fast where im at ... so in order to fix that i plan on going to college for like a 2yr associates in criminal justice and maybe trying for a police type job .... or security i dunno yet
Many of my friends already know about what's been happening recently, but for those of you who don't and might be interested here it is. Met a girl while I was working at Wal-Mart, hooked up and am now living with her at her moms house, because we just moved back to her hometown of Lewisville, Texas. Have a new job at Neiman Marcus in the receiving dock. Well that is just about all of it. If you want details just ask.
well i thought i was going to have some problems with my relationship with jessica .... but i was just being parranoid .... i mean i should have trusted her more than that ... it was stupid of me to think that she would accually do that to me she is just too sweet .... i seriously love her to death ... and always will
you know my poem ..... the one titled "and then you came" ...... i found another girl who accepts me like i am .... and she just needs to get some things taken care of ..... and then it will be official ..... yup .... im hearted and cant figure out why .... not that im not grateful for it ......... just cant figure out how anyone could heart (love that is) me
got a job in dec ..... been there since ... it sucks cause i have to work from 4 till 1 ... but i guess it will all be okay ......... once again i thought i had found a girl but once again she turned out to not be interested ...... but oh well i give up ... utterly and completely give up ... i really dont care if i live to see the next day ... O_O ..... yeah it IS that bad
yeah ... well im getting a job either tomorrow or the next day ..... its just a matter of waiting for the person to call me in for an interview.....
well halloween was fun for the most part .... it really was the day after that sucked ..... mainly cause the girl i had been hanging out with just suddenly started ignoring me ... and i thought we might have had something substansial(sp?).... but i guess not. oh well i guess the search for a gf is still on.
I leave tomorrow for my physical in amarillo so i can join the army so i probly wont be on for the next few days. anyway i can't believe that i am finally over and done with school, and getting ready to do something with my life. ohwell it feels good anyways.
the prom sucked ass and we all left early and went to someones house and "had fun". my date got pissed at me and so i said forget it and didnt worry about any more. oh well once again byes
today is the prom and i regret to say that i am going.
nooooottt!!!! im glad to be going cause alot of my friends will be there and i actually have a date!!! yay for mee:P
yeah well i gotta goes for right now bubyes