ey there me again ok life has been hmm weird lately well we're trying to be friends again and it just amuses me now cuzi honestly dont think he's in it at all and now idont know if i am either im tired offighting for something he doesnt even believe in..!! well i have been weird i wrote a science test of thurs i almost cried i thought i failed so badly coz eveyone was like oh shit i failed then i had a breakdown coz he's obsessed with this other girl they all over each other half of the time so i guess i got jelous andstuff but now i really dont care anymore..!! Imjust gna smile and carry on i actually have no other choice..got this werid thing with i think is really true..
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[*/nEvEr/ sAy i_Love yOu,
iF /yOu/ rEaLLy ...dOnT cArE.
*Never tAlK /aBoUt/ fEeLiNgS,
iF ...tHeY aReN't /rEaLLy/ tHeRe.
*/nEvEr/ HoLd mY hand,
iF yOuR ...gOiNg tO /bReAk/ mY hEaRt.
*nEvEr /sAy/ yOuR going tO,
iF ...yOu dOnT pLaN /tO/ sTaRt.
*nEvEr lOoK /iNtO/ mY eyes,
iF /aLL/ yOu dO ...iS LiE.
*Never sAy /HeLLo/,
iF yOu ...rEaLLy mEan /gOoDbYe/.
*iF /yOu/ rEaLLy Mean fOReVeR
tHeN pLeAsE /sAy/ yOu'LL ...tRy.
*/nEvEr/ sAy Forever,
cUz ...fOreVeR mAkEs mE /cRy/]
i dont believe there is such a thing as forever..! Esp with love and my heart has been broken so bad i just dunno how to get out of it!! Sometimes i feel like im spinnin and spinnin and i dunno how to get out of it..just spinning round and round in endless darkness and i feel so sad...!!
[Find a guy who calls you beautiful instead of hot, who calls you back when you hang up on him, who will stay awake just to watch you sleep. Wait for the guy who kisses your forehead, who wants to show you off to the world when you are in your sweats, who holds your hand in front of his friends, Wait for the one who is constantly reminding you of how much he cares about you and how lucky he is to have you. Wait for the one who turns to his friends and says, "...that's her."]
I found that guy and being me lost him!! Stupid i know but oh well ill hopefully get over it!! ONE DAY!
well thats all for today...chat soon!!
Ive decided to keep an online diary! Ive let my ex boi go for the first time I feel i can carry on without him! I 'll always love him but i need sum one who i can fall in love with and who i can fall in love with! Im a hopeless romantic so i believe that dream guy will come and save me from all the shit i go through everyday. iM SO TIRED OF ALL THE BULLSHIT OF LIFE but ill be fine..im not gna go and try to kill myself ill suck it up and face it~!!! im on my meeds now to sort out my head and i feel very different! Itts scary at times sometimes you dont feel like you and thats very scary! I want to be free and fly again where i have dreams and aspirations..s
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