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HEY YOU ALLS!!!! damn ok i havnt written in here for like ever so il do a fill in..... summers over and school hs began summer totally kicked ass .. well the last part lol spent soo much time with filcia and wel had such a good time lol (skinny dipping, partying.. other stuff) but now schools in so ya.. back to being with all my weird friends and my bf (nothing wrong with that).. ok il write more later im busy lol

And hello once again dear peoples.. yes ok so at the moment im bored to the full my bf just left for 2 weeks today *sigh*.. im goina miss him soo much but at least i got to spend last night with him that was pretty funn

ok yayness iv been super busy this summer.. havnt done anything with any of my friends that are girls tho.. hmm to bad being with guys is wayyy funner.. sorry to everyone for not talkn to you all much but ya lol hope to talk to you all soon

oooooooh life SUCKS!! one of the coolest guys ever died in the london bombings.. he was my sisters fioncas (dude shes gettin married to) little brother and really close friend of mine..  uhhhuuuuuuuu so many people i kno are dieing it sucks sooo mcuh

ok i have a busy life il be on and off all summer  LOL i stole your mom filicia lol she loves me more

well YAY got back from yet another funeral (??) bla ok my uncle (??) got shot to death right in front of my cuzin and then my cuzin killed himself... oooh the funn of that. now my whole family is all crying and shit.. great funn

.. just a little bit ago my mom told me that a close family friend died in his sleep last night... it was a little bit weird cuz everyone was cying... everyone but me. My parents got a little bit upset with me becase i just kept on doing wat i was doing as if nothing happend... but i dont see why i shouldnt have been upset.. hes dead... no amount of sadness or anything will bring him back and so i dont see why i should be upset or anything hes dead.. D-E-A-D bla bla bla its just like say hes dead and move on... hes not comming back or anything this is stupid people should just shut up about him becase hes gone....

[NohRabbit] is going... ooh i dont want him to go *crys* im going to miss him sooo much like no joke my summer is now ruined. im going to miss him so much..

GOING TO FILICIAS HOUSE OH YA... COKE!!! but no cat food *crys* hmm well good enuff lol cant wait its goin to be soo funn

well today was a hard day... i went thro most of it thinking one of my bestfriends was dead.. i was trying really hard to be happy so i wouldnt ruin all my friends last day of school.. but my bad mood came out a little bit by the end of day i had hit a few people and made a girl cry... i guess im not at all nice when im in a bad mood. but im really easy to side track so sometimes i would forget all together but i would feel even worst when i remberd cuz i had forgotten so when i got home i went on my msn and Talen started to talk to me.. oh god i was sooooo happy like iv never been so happy in my life cuz the reason i went on msn was to write a little letter to my best friends telling them good bye cuz i planed on killing myself tonight cuz i wouldnt be able to keep living without Talen hes the only person that fully understands eveything in my life and all so right now im feeling so happy cuz hes still alive but im also feeling really bad cuz i cant make him feel better bout Bailey

my friend is going thro so much right now and i feel so bad that i cant help him or do anything for him... he says that if his gf dies hes going to die with her and hes such a good friend for me i know i wont be able to take it hes like the only person i trust and... for the first time in a long time i feel lke cying and for a little bit i was.. i stoped when he heard me crying...i feel so bad that i cant do anything to make him feel better

ok i would like to say sorry to all the guys i said i love you to.. i say that alot and i almost never meen it.. im sorry to everyone i hurt and ya.. bye

hmm its really weird now that i have been going to a new school and i have new friends and all it just seems really hard to talk to people i used to be friends with.. now all my old friends think im a major whore and they think that im always fucked .. it makes it pretty hard to talk to them. things suck cuz just bout everyone i was really good friends with now act like i dont belong with them.. well w\e i have new friends life will go on i guess

.... WOW thanks.....*smile* so great to hear what you do when im not around .. makes me really trust you... god fuck this i dont need to take this..... OK MOVING ON ok this is to who ever iv been talkin to over the last few days sorry if i said or did anyting bad *smile*

.... im sooo sorry i would have told you sooner or later i guess but i didnt ... i didnt want you to be mad at me. im soooo sorry i love you i hope you dont hate me..... im soooo sorry

damn life sucks! i want Stryx to be here he always seems to make things better.. he just seems to understand everything. i want to talk to jose soo badly i miss him soo much. i really feel like crying but that wont help anything. i just want to go back to my old school and go back and live with derrick and just forget bout the last few months

damn i havent been able to sleep very much.. i dont even rember how long ago that was it seems like months ago but it was only a week and a half ago at the most.... i really need to sleep

hello all ok well to all those i scare im pretty sorry. an if i have been a little fucked up in the last little while but i have a really good reason so just shut up and dont talk to me bout it. but once again im pretty sorry freaking you all out

tsss........ this week has been shit in the last umm..7 days iv been kicked out of my house twice and ran away once thank god for filicias (queen saphira) house even if i had to walk for 2 hours to get there god i hope my parents die the only thing that theyr good for is their money and ... ya thats bout it like shit they couldnt care if i was dead and the sad thing is is that thats true they dont care wat i do or when i do it as long as i dont embarass them everything is ok as long as they can pay people to cover it up they dont care wat i do.   damn thats pretty sad eh

HOLY SHIT I HATE EVERYONE AT MY SCHOOL!!!!!!!!!! today just bout everyone pissd me off stupid wankers can all burn in hell!! well ts that just made me sound like someone who sits in the corner talkin to themselfs well w\e. I really think ms.m has some sorrta problum with me like wft i havnt even calld her a bitch to her face or anthing and she still hates me like fuck her if i wanted i could have her fierd and she still acts like she has a fucken thing out for me (not in gay terms)(n\o or anythng)

im really starting to hate haveing my friend have a "crush" on me its like good for u but if im goin to have to hear it from everyone but u i really dont care and omg i cant belive that he lookd at all my e-mails those had nothng to do with him so y the fuck did he look at them and i cant belive lindsay shes starting to act like josh now im starting to dislike her like i ate josh and all but since hes like her bf im somewat nice to him.

hmmm well im bored of bitching so tra-la-la-la hunn im not sur if yr goin to read this but ya just to be sur I LOVE U *kiss* lol 

amy