eyes open and close to light that peaks through a morning window to wake the world for a new day, but then covers and sheet are thrown over the head to hold on to the rest of a sleep from a tiresom night that could have went tons better. but then you decide to go ahead and start the day and get ready for what it throws into your face, thats the way i felt this morning, well i actually should say this afternoon haha, i know i was lazy today but couldnt help it since there was nothing to do today besides watch avatar and my neice, just a lazy sunday that was filled up w/ yawns and noding off, but hey i think it was a nice day since nothing came and nothing left just a nice catch your breath day, but yeah i liked it so thats all that happened and now this diary of mine is repetitive so ill shall be seeing you later

to whom may ever pass this knowledge, never let it bring you down.......and never forget who or what you are.....

            signed
            soul griever

ok i am EXTREMLY TIRED right about now cause its like 1230am and we had our first kinda real gig thingy ya know, and it went awsome except that our bassist guitar messed and so the show was delayed for about an hr while ran around like chickens w/ our heads cut off lol but it was still fun and we played our show and then did a just ramdomly played stuff ohhhh it was great, except the fact i saw one of my ex gf (eek) yeah that was fun meh but oh well i talked to her for a bit and then i did my acoustic set and that went good (or i think it did) but yeah i played rape me(Nirvana), wish you were here(pink floyd), mother(pink floyd), times like these(foo fighters), disarm(smashing pumpkins), and finally rooster(alice in chains GREATEST BAND EVER) i love acoustic songs ya know they are just better, more feelin i guess to it, but oh well i guess thats enough for me tonight well ill see ya later.......

to whom may ever pass this knowledge, never let it bring you down.......and never forget who or what you are.....

                signed,
                soul griever

this past two days have been alright i just wonder what will happen tomorrow night when we actually play something close to a gig ya know, but hey i think itll be great, here latly things have ben getting weirder and weirder, like ive been hangin out w/ some of my close friends brothers more than i have w/ them its crazy, but oh well life goes on like a orchrasta someties the weird parts make it all the greatest thing eh? my friend nate wants me to go to his show but he i dont think would come to ours because of some of my band mates he kinda dislikes it upsets me cause i have lots of ppl that know i will be there to go and see them do whatever ya know but sometimes ya just can't count on ppl anymore harldy. oh and im over my depression also like i always tell people itll come and go as like it always have, but they continue to tell me other wise, i say life is better w/out the help of pills, ive already spent too much of my life on drugs and i dont wanna go ight back to them no matter for what, im clean, and i want nothing to do with them, even though they may have gotten me this way i should just pull myself out of what i got into. but anyways ive already written an essay on whatever im feelin right now lol, its always mixed things coming from everywhere and just about nowhere, buttonight i dpart with happyness in me right now, but who knows what tomorrow may hold for the man lost inside of himself...................

to whom may ever pass this knowledge, never let it bring you down.......and never forget who or what you are.....

          signed,
           soul griever 

Today was a bad for me, my band mates tell me i suck then cassie's mad for some weird reason, she said she has been since last night, oh well who really cares anymore, a friend told me to go this site to talk to her some, her name is rachel she kinda reminds me of a couple of my friends mixed together, i think she may like but i may be wrong, i mean who would really like me at all, but oh well self loathing get u know where in life, my ex rachel thinks i shoudl be in therapy right about now cause of my depression, i think ill make it out alive.................

to whom ever may pass this knowledge,never let it bring you down....and never forget who or what you are.....

              signed,
               soul griever