well yesterday and today i got in a fight with one of my friends and it made me feel mad and hate for my self cuz i dont like getting people mad at me but i dont think me and this friend r gonna stay friends cuz i lied to her about having a gf but she was acting like we were together like me and my friend were goin out but she has a bf so i dont get y she was acting like my gf also she was kinda acting like my mom cuz i did something that she told me not to do so yeah she's mad at me and i dk whats goin happen next i will keep u posted

well today turned out to be pretty sucky and here y well to begin with me and my mom got in a fight this morning and then all day it seemed like no one wanted me around and when i finally got to talk to the one person i wanted to talk to it seemed like she didnt wanna talk to me and it just added to how i was feeling form that day so i have been feeling alone unwanted and sad pretty much all day which sucked and i felt so sad it made me wanna do things that would seriously injure myself and i also felt like i was gonna cry so is there anyone who wants me around cuz it seems like there none

well i fucked up again like always is there ever a time were i dont fuck up i wish i wasnt such a fuckin fuck up i mean how could i hurt the one person i truely love its like theres something inside of me that says u better hurt that person and like a fuckin idiot i listen y i dont wanna hurt her i never wanted to hurt her i fuckin hate myself i dont deserve to live i feel like im dead inside and im alone in this fucked up world so if u dont hear from me for a couple of days u will know y so hopefully talk to u guys later have a gr8 life and it will be gr8 cuz im not in it and i just want u to know i love u sarah rita medley u will always be in my heart and i hope u i will be in urs well bye everyone i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

whats wrong with me can anyone plz help me i dont know y i do things to hurt people i love i dont wanna hurt anybody but i do and i dont know y thats y i need some professional help so i can try to control the evil inside me i dont want it in me i need it out so could some one plz get it out of me before it hurts someone else so there for i still hate myself i will never like myself again so until i die i will always and forever hate myself and all the things that happen to me i deserve i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself will i ever beable to like myself i doubt it

well i fucked up again my friend said she was gonna kill herself and its gonna be my fault cuz i couldnt stop her and its gonna be with me til i die so would someone plz tell me y im such a fuck up i can barely do anything right and its all my fault i hurt her i never meant to hurt her but i did and now im payin the price for what i did and its not a good thing cuz she has everything to live for shes to young to die i really hope she doesnt kill herself well i still hate myself and i will always hate myself i dont deserve to like myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself

im still trying to figure out what the fuck is wrong with me cuz i have almost drivin some very close to my heart to kill herself i feel like im the one who should be tryin to kill them selfs not her she doesnt deserve that like last nite i was almost walkin in the middle of the road cuz i wanted to get hit thats how bad i felt about hurtin that person and so i ask my self y am i like this y am i like my god damn father i dont want to be like him so y ask what the fuck is wrong with me that i could hurt the person that i didnt want to hurt my im such an asswhole and i fucking hate myself and probably will never like my self again i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself i hate myself