Blarginhimeign.

I'm sorry to anyone if I ever hurt or have hurted you.
I know its not fair
To go through harsh pain..
But remember the shit
Life pain...death shame.
I know to you everything is lost
I'm sorry the blood thats falling is at my cost
I love you to much to let you go all the way
But I set you free...and pray u come back to me.

(to who it is to...it could be U or U...or not....but proble is...but u dont even know it is)

you almost always pick the best times
to drop the worst lines
you almost made me cry again this time
another false alarm
red flashing lights
well this time I'm not going to watch myself die
I think I made it a game to play your game
and let myself cry
I buried myself alive on the inside
so I could shut you out
and let you go away for a long time

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask

I think the chain broke away
and I felt it the day that I had my own time
I took advantage of myself and felt fine
but it was worth the night
I caught an early flight and I made it home

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that

with my foot on your neck
I finally have you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you
right where I want you

I guess it's ok I puked the day away
I guess it's better you trapped yourself in your own way
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer than that
and if you want me back
you're gonna have to ask
nicer than that
nicer
nicer

one of my fav songs.....Buried myself alive. The Used~!

well no matter what happens with ur family. u'll always have me. i will miss u while ur gone. i already miss u. and tomorrow will be a better day. u can make it on ur own if u need to. everything will turn to dust and u'll be sparkling gold. shiny and new with everything u deserve eventually. money isnt the staple of everything it u'll be fine without it. the best things in life as they say come free. like me. u will never have to pay a thing. because of the fact that i love u. and everytime i see u in my mind u and more and more real. and soon enough u will be here in my mind to stay. i will always love u. and i dont know how but we will make it though. im sorry for everything i ever did to hurt u. but im here now for sure

i miss love.
and everything that came with it.
even the pain from break ups or fights
im just so alone now.
with nothing to do and nowhere to go.
im lost inside and out.
every memory with u has long been forgotten by the others
and every time i try to bring them back my hopes are shattered
and the smallest tear comes setting in
the rain poors over and over again from my eyes
and all i can think about is red.
red roses, red skies, red tears, red blood
horrible thoughts with every turn
im dying since i left u
and all i can say is i need u more now than ever
but u wont get this message,
u wont know its to u
and all the times we had together.
never more shall i see u smile
never more shall we be together
never more shall i see u
good bye my huney.
im sorry for u
~*~a song/ poem about....well its kinda obvious i think~*~

i dont think my girlfriend feels the same about me as she use too. im sorry huney if i did ne thing. remember...
whenever I'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am home again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am whole again
whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am young again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am fun again


however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you


whenever i'm alone with you you make me feel
like i am free again whenever i'm alone with
you you make me feel like i am clean again


however far away i will always love you however
long i stay i will always love you whatever
words i say i will always love you i will always
love you
((this is here for Jay...the girl of my dreams...i love you huney......its our song!)

As the blade touches my skin...
I feel the blood start to rush again
I just feel the adrenaline
As I lye there
Dying within
U claim to love me and u claim to care
But then y do I feel so cold just lying there
U would have helped me up
U would have held me
If u had truly cared
U would have followed me
Stopped me before I took that jump
Caught me before I fell over that hump
But NO its to late
Shit I’m only 13
do u think this is the place to be?
I need u to help
I need u to see
This life, shit it ain’t a good life for me
i'm tired of facing things that are to hard!
i'm way too young and far to scarred
i'll try my hardest
to do it on my own
but unfortunately i cant hold on to how it use to be
So please if u can...
please Come save me!!

I made a mistake that broke your heart
I made a mistake that tore us apart
I made a mistake that made my destiny
I made a mistake that decided you and me
I made a mistake that I cant take back
I made a mistake that stopped your good luck in the sack
I made a mistake that took my innocence
I made a mistake that had no sense
But now I stand up
i cant take it back
But you have the a bigger thing now
Its your mistake some how
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a new poem i dont think im finished yet! but u know!

I MADE IT!!! superbowl!! hoep eagles win!!! welp gtg!! love yallz!

Hi YaLlZ1 So ToDaY i TrIeD oUt FoR k>a>s>c> aNd I rEaLlY hOpE i MaKe It! i MiSs My Ex BoYfRiEnD sO mUcH1 ThIs WeEkEnD iS sOlO aNd EnSeMbLe >.>.>.>.>. I hOpE i Do GoOd! WeLp I'M sLeEpY1 NiGhT1

Hey i like 6 guys right now!!
Christian
Carlton
Johnathan
Joey G.
Cory
Charles
OMG thats alot!!
well yeah i got a poem to post but i'll do that tomorrowe

Your friends on crack
watch ya back
because were comin for u
and we aint cuttin no slack
so pull out ya gun
the fights begun
there aint gunna be no way u can say u won
the fight is ova and i beat ur ass
now ima whip out my lawn mower
and turn u into grass!

thats just a flow its corny but o well!! lol
*heart* Sami

Hi! well I have just finished my last day of skool for this semester adn I already miss everybody!! Hopefully I 'll get to see a lot of ppl while I'm off cause I've become dependent on my friends. I feel really bad tho! Like sick!! I have a joke:
What did one saggy boob say to the other?

Write me and find out!!

WOW!!! Long ass time since I wrote in here!! South Park is hilarious!!
In the darkness I sit, absorbing it all in. Letting the pain surge through every inch of my body, succumbing to its sting. And I laugh to myself because I truly believed you loved me...I still love u and I always will CHINO!! I love u!!

WHAT COMES TO MIND WHEN YOU HEAR...
Lotion: ashy
Rubber:glue
CD: hoobastank
Bed: sleep
Paper: cut
Run: track
Candle: burn
Mouse pad: cat pad
Sweatshirt: nahntucket
Door: running into it
Pictures: smile
Flowers: polen
Deodorant: b.o.
Pencil: sharpener
Sex: virgin
Radio: music


now heres my suicide note to the world..about n insane person n an unknown grl

itz past x-mas n i'm doin ok!!! mi dads friend jux died while we were gone n dat wuz kinda sad!! i lyke dis guy named jon n dis otha guy named cale{elevenmemory}

I write poems.....I dunt thinx people like mi poems tho....

I kinda hate my life but I love my life at the same time!! I'm so confused wiht myself! I hate when I confuse myself!! My favorite class was sooooo funny today!! TO: Mardibabe!! Today in band-Micheal-Ho ho ho ho!! Lets go ride in the snow!!!LOL!!!! Funny days!

OMG!! I am so tried of being sick! I hate the fact that I like to sleep so late on Sunday! Thats why I'm sick! GRRRRR!! It sux to be sick!

so i'm talkin to auggie like usual and i'm just ready to finally meet him in person, but i dont wanna get hurt like i have in the past. I really like him and if i could say sumthin to him i would be like i wanna kiss u! I dunno if he likes me though caz hes kinda playin wit my emotions!! I just wanna go wit him but he doesnt even kno wht i look like! I dunno i really wanna go wit him but i dunno if he would want to go wit me after he meets me!!! well i needs to go!! LOL!!!! Gots to sleep!!!-Sami

so its the after my bday an i jus relized how much i like this guy named auggie!! i really just thought it was a little crush but i really like him!!