Yesterday was very very freaky, I went to my favorite Beach with some of my gurl friends It was great. We were putting each other on each other's shoulder and fighting trying to puch each other of the other person's shoulder of course me and danielle were the winners lol So yea when I went to go dry up,..there was a guy sitting and staring at me,..so i looked at him and he looked like my boyfriend. I told Christina ''Hey! Look doesnt that look like Joey?!'' She like ''ye! It does!OMG'' I couldnt beleive it cause my boyfriend lives pretty far and he wouldnt have went to the beach without telling me right meh!It was bothering me when i got back home, and i couldnt stop thinking if there was a possibility that the guy was my b,... hmmmm I wonder

So yea now im so messed i want to tell my bf a secret that i know that he does'nt know that i know but im not quite sure how to tell him.Im so scared i keep telling myslef that maybe if he ever does brake up with when i tell him if i ever do tell him or maybe if he can't be honest and tell me before i even tell him. Maybe we shouldnt even have this supposevly relashionship.:( My friends all tell me the same. And Ive been thinking bout it in my bed all week end of why am I on the face of the earth first my mom kicks me out , my dad hurts me, my family despises me n everything i touch or everyone i speak 2 end up hurting me emotionaly.....-.- I Honestly dont know what to do anymore,..n all i can really do is wait n c what the futur hold for me.

Yesterday My Uncle, Grama and Aunt called the cops on me and my friend was over cuz my lil sister called me grama to come and pick her up yet she didnt know that my aunt was snooping on the phone,...then bla bla bla stuff happened got the cops called on me then children aid o.o geeez whats next o yea found out my boy's grama is gonna die...poor baby is gonna be sad :( .....
o well ill write again whenever