grrr why do i keep losing everyone i care about i always seem to be betrayed in the worse possible way i wish for just once that someone would be loyal that i would come first... is that selfish i think it is i shouldnt want to be important there is so many more people out there who need love and companionship more than i do but its like i crave it crave the feelings of being wanted. i dont seem to get it that often and when people do finally look past my bad looks they see what a horrible person i am on the inside or they are just not my type it seems there is no one really out there for me and the one who was i have lost him again i cant belive i got him back only to loose him again and not just him alot of my other friends i would do anything to go back in time and change what hapenened... just to hold him in my arms one last time...