Trying to figure just what exactly I want to do with my life........Ive lodged myself in my own little solitary niche......and now have the feeling of awakening and trying to break free of all that is familar and comfortable to me......I want some change in my life.....I want some closure.

Another friggin rainy day to force me to stay inside once again

Your witty verses amuses me......if it wasnt for your "fun hour" in the morning......Id be sad and lonely *pouts*............your like my surge of coffee in the morning.....both addictive and tempting

“Brave Sir Robin ran away, bravely ran away, away. When danger reared his ugly head, he bravely turned his tail and fled. Yes, brave Sir Robin turned about, he turned his tail, he chickened out. Bravely taking to his feet, he beat a very brave retreat. A brave retreat by Sir Robin.

[x] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[ ] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[ x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] been to Europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling... (warehouse)
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had a car.
[x] drove.


Do you...
[x] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[x] think you're attractive.(sometimes)
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[ ] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[x] wear eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[ ] like the color yellow.
[x] cyber.
[x] claim. (sometimes...ghehe)
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[ ] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.


Are you...
[x one wing] ugly.
[x] pretty.
[x] ok.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] short.
[ ] tall.
[x] grounded.
[x] sick.
[x] lazy.
[x] talking to someone.
[x ] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[x] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[x] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic. (NEVER!!! grrr put an x infront of it and hm die)

Divine Intervention

Maybe if you werent such an inconsiderate asshole.....you could get at least half the respect back from your family.... Please feel free to continue making everyone around you feel more alienated, and they can give a rats ass about what you have to say or think.......You make it so blaintently obvious that you could give a shit about theirs.

Whatever You Want

If you asked me to be there
I would do everything in my power to do so
If you needed a helping hand
Mine will always be outstretched
If you wanted some soothing words
I would spill my heart out
Whatever you want dear
I would give it to you
Anything to make you happy
Just to be able to savor your smile
That beautiful, pure smile
That melts my heart

Things to get done:

1.Start working on my "Sex Pistol' art
2.Finish up with some David Bowie art
3.Get some more pictures for Frank
4. *thinking*

Today sucks tremendously.......I have completely lost my voice.........the only noise I can manage to make is a pathetic whiney sound........Now I must use sign language and a note pad to communicate with everyone...........And everyone thinks this is so funny *pouts*.......Im gonna go lock myself in my room and listen to music *sobs*.......I wont be able to sing along with it.....but hell I can lip sync

Tred carefully and wisely
Im like a ticking time bomb
Just waiting to go off
I want to burst
Into a thousand little pieces
And have someone else
Clean up the mess
Im an emotional wreck
Ive experienced my high
Now Im hitting my low
I dont want to feel bothered
Baggered or bossed
I just want to steam
I just want to be left alone
My eyes sting from crying
My face tinged with tears
If you dont want to have your head bitten off
I advise you to stay at a respectful distance

(Ive sarted a daily song fav thing in here.....ill post my favorite song of the day and the lyrics for you all to enjoy)

Kelly Clarkson Lyrics

Since You've Been Gone Lyrics



Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

I think I can be more at ease when I can wake up in the morning and see your face in front of me. To be close and warm and happy in your presence. I have never loved someone so much as I do for you. I didn't think I had enough love in my heart left to give. You make me smile when I feel down, and you keep me grounded when I want to fly away. You are my stronghold, you make me feel more confident in myself when I lack the self-esteem. You tell me I am beautiful, and that I make you happy with everything I do, even when I dont notice what I did. I love to make you laugh and smile.  

(a story I am writing to pass the time and keep my mind working)

Blue Eyes           
                            By Kim Palmer


Wolf Song

If you talk to the animals
They will talk with you
And you will know each other.
If you do not talk to them
You will not know them,
And what you do not know
You will fear.
What one fears
One destroys.

       Chief Dan George


Chapter 1: Reunion and Reflection

I sit down in the brightness of the sun, with a smile upon my face. My focus is upon Nekyia. She is pouncing and prancing about in the freshly fallen snow. If it weren’t for her piercing blue eyes, she would fade and vanish into the white surroundings. The ground glistens and flickers as the sunlight gently kisses the snow. Nekyia’s eyes illuminates with happiness. She is excited and pleased to see me again. She comes towards me slowly with her head bowed, wanting to know if it is all right to sprawl out in my lap. I wave my hands in a welcoming motion, reassuring her that it is okay. She meets my face with a soft nuzzle and warm lick of her tongue upon my cold, red cheek. It was a long time ago that she had once lived with me. She was a tiny, orphaned wolf cub, shivering and hungry when I came upon her hiking through the woods on my 25-acre estate.                          

The leaves of the giant oak trees and maple were just starting to transform into their eclectic array of warm colors. It was the beginning of autumn. A metamorphous of brilliant reds, splattered with yellow and orange, with a tinge of green consumed my property. I had just left my house, zipping up my black hooded jacket. I packed a small lunch, and stuffed it into my trail bag along with bottled water. It was still warm outside, but a chill still nipped the air.

A half hour had passed when I finally reached a clearing on the trail. I found a large boulder underneath a tall, withered pine. . It seemed to be a nice, quiet place to stop and eat. I sat down, and grabbed my sandwich. Letting out a happy sigh, I then started eating. No sooner then I went back for a second bite, a cry filled my ears. It wasn’t a cry I was used to hearing. I jumped to my feet in search of where the sound was coming from. It was much like a puppy’s cry. “ Who in the hell would abandon a puppy out here on my property?” All these horrible thoughts and vision kept running through my mind. Behind a small bush, a few feet away from where I was sitting, was where the cry seemed to be coming from. My adrenaline started to ease when I found a small, white puppy. It must not have been a week old, its eyes and ears weren’t fully opened. I picked up the tiny mass of white fur and cuddled it close to my chest underneath my jacket. I grabbed my bag and raced home as quickly as I could.

Nekyia smiled gratefully, as I stroked her slightly swollen stomach. She was 2 months pregnant. I carefully palpated her abdomen, finding a few round masses in both uterine horns. I was hoping for a big, healthy litter. I expected Nekyia to be an excellent mother. Jessie, my black standard poodle, who had recently passed away, helped raise Nekyia. She learned from the best! Jessie was like the Matriarch of all my dogs. She taught every young dog that came into our family respect and discipline. Nekyia has helped fill that void when Jessie passed.

Dream

Raising her voice to the silence of the night sky, she call out in a melencholy song that reaches far beyond the spiritual realm of the snow-filled forest. In her single howl, there are the voies of many, the kindred spirits which reside deep within the soul and beating heart of every wolf. She travels wearily alone, in search of something she desperately needs......

A story inspired by my weird dreams

Getting ready for Thanksgiving.....Yay!.......Ive got tons of stuff to do and cook..........

Im so thankful this year......Im thankful that my father is home....alive and healthy to celebrate with my mother and I........I almost lost my father last year around this time........We never really found out what he had........my he got very sick........His white blood count went down to 0 and his immune systems was down as well.......He had to be put into an isolated room....and nobody could go in without a mask on and hospital garbs...not for what the people could get from him......but what they could give to him no matter if it was a little cold.....it would have killed him............Doctors had ran alot of test.....and they though my father had Lukemia........but found out that wasnt it..........we still dont know what the hell happened.......just that he got really really sick.................and Im so happy he is home.........I love my father so much even though he can be an ass.........

And another thing I am thankful for *blushy* is meeting [hji]......and falling in love.......yep..........I cant wait to start my life together and grow old with you.......

-My Theory for Training Horses -

I have three simple rules for training horses: You...

1. Tell a gelding (castrated male).

2. Ask a mare.

And...

3. Discuss it with a stallion

Im presently working on a great love poem for [hji]........Im gonna use all my resources....and every last drop of creativity to make it really good.....so Ill be on my way

hmmmm.......here's an one


Questionable Reality

Are we all wandering spirits upon this dismal orb? To walk in endless pain and suffering, just to end up where we've started.

Circling, upon circling, never knowing what else to do, because we accept what we've been taught, not what there is to experience.

Are we really that naive, virgins to society. No one dares to pursue where their curiousity may lead them.

We just stay in the same, drab existence, not straying from the path thats been laid out before us.

Passionate desires, wildly tangled within my heart. Feelings of want and need for you cannot be subdued. Longingly thirsting the taste of your kisses, and the scent of your presence. My mind is a whirlwind of thoughts I cannot surpress. My cries for your love can no longer put me to sleep. I can invision you near, yet, not able to touch. Words cannot express my utmost feelings, wishes, and dreams.

*sighes* Another one I can finish! ERRRR!

I have finally found love within your eyes;
No more fear, there is strentgh in my heart which resides;
I await the gentle touch of your lips that will kiss my tears away;



*sighes* Yet another sappy poem that I cannot finish. Frank, I need some more inspiration. I can't seem to write anything lately, Im going through another dry spell. I want to finish a poem so I can post it on the wiki *sighes* ^_^

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You are on my mind
Every morning and every night
It is you that I find
That makes my days so bright

Your words envoke a smile
Your carisma so gentle and sweey
I dream of you all the while
Awaiting the day we meet

My heart warms everytime you...
Say how much you love me
I feel the same way too
With you, I want to be

To see, to hear, to feel your embrace
And know that you are really there
Its enough for me to touch your face
And to know how much you really care



Not quite finished, but tell me what you think. And of course, I give thanks to [hji] for inspiring me to write again!