It so unfortunate that it didnt work out, obviously I couldnt please you and make you happy......but I wish you all the happiness in the world....you deserve it because you are terribly sweet and such a genuine person.
Enjoy life and all that unfolds for you.....maybe someday our paths will cross.....who knows........thats God's decision...........Adeu

Still feeling unbeivably nauseated today........it has got to be the most worst feeling ever....especially when have nothing left to disperse.....so youre just left with dry heaves.......oh well.........I can manage.....well hopefully it will be over tommorrow.....have very important company coming tommorrow

Best leave the past behind
Put forth your foot
And journey abroad

Life seems a stand still
If you bare to stay
And not focus your sights

Immulate your dreams
Before you stray the path
Find inner harmony

I tear my heart open, I sow myself shut
My weakness is that I care too much
My scars remind me that the past is real
I tear my heart open just to feel

Drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
I'm pissed cause you came around
Why don't you just go home
Cause you channel all your pain
And I can't help to fix myself
Your making me insane
All I can say is
[BELSEA!]

I tried to help you once
A kiss will only vise
I saw you going down
But you never realized
That your drowning in the water
So I offered you my hand
Compassions in my nature
Tonight is our last dance

[BELSEA!]

I'm drunk and I'm feeling down
And I just wanna be alone
You shouldn't ever came around
Why don't you just go home?
Cause your drowning in the water
And I tried to grab your hand
And I left my heart open
But you didn't understand
But you didn't understand
You fix yourself

I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life
I can't help you fix yourself
But at least I can say I tried
I'm sorry but I gotta move on with my own life

[Chorus x2]

Dont always reflect on the bad things in life.......dont always pressure yourself in to love......if you go in fool-heartedly and hasty......you will only feel let down in the end.........

God works in mysterious ways........he will show you when the time is right.........let love find you instead of searching for it...You'll be surprised what will unfold

Kind of tired and more subdued today.......Gonna go finish watching "Velvet Goldmine"........such a weird as movie....but interesting enough to keep my curiousity peeked...

I got to see a broad new spectrum of Ewan Mcgregor's acting.....and I mean broad 0.o LMAO (and if you know what I am hinting......then you are laughing as well)

(stole it, adapted it.....your fault.. ;) )



No Kim today, my love has gone away
The mailbox stands forlorn, a symbol of the dawn
No Kim today, it seems a common sight
But people passing by don't know the reason why


How could they know just what this message means
The end of my hopes, the end of all my dreams
How could they know the palace there had been
Behind the door where my love reigned as queen


No Kim today, it wasn't always so
The company was gay, we'd turn night into day


But all that's left is a place dark and lonely
A terraced house in a mean street back of town
Becomes a shrine when I think of you only
Just two up two down


No Kim today, it wasn't always so
The company was gay, we'd turn night into day
As music played the faster did we dance
We felt it both at once, the start of our romance


How could they know just what this message means
The end of my hopes, the end of all my dreams
How could they know a palace there had been
Behind the door where my love reigned as queen


No Kim today, my love has gone away
The mailbox stands forlorn, a symbol of the dawn


But all that's left is a place dark and lonely
A terraced house in a mean street back of town
Becomes a shrine when I think of you only
Just two up two down


No Kim today, my love has gone away
The mailbox stands forlorn, a symbol of the dawn
No Kim today, it seems a common sight
But people passing by don't know the reason why


How could they know just what this message means
The end of my hopes, the end of all my dreams
How could they know a palace there had been
Behind the door where my love reigned as queen


No Kim today, it wasn't always so
The company was gay, we'd turn night into day


But all that's left is a place dark and lonely
A terraced house in a mean street back of town
Oh all that's left is a place dark and lonely
A terraced house in a mean street back of town
Oh all that's left is a place dark and lonely
A terraced house in a mean street back of town



THANKS [NeverScape]Missing: </b>

Trying to figure just what exactly I want to do with my life........Ive lodged myself in my own little solitary niche......and now have the feeling of awakening and trying to break free of all that is familar and comfortable to me......I want some change in my life.....I want some closure.

Another friggin rainy day to force me to stay inside once again

Your witty verses amuses me......if it wasnt for your "fun hour" in the morning......Id be sad and lonely *pouts*............your like my surge of coffee in the morning.....both addictive and tempting

“Brave Sir Robin ran away, bravely ran away, away. When danger reared his ugly head, he bravely turned his tail and fled. Yes, brave Sir Robin turned about, he turned his tail, he chickened out. Bravely taking to his feet, he beat a very brave retreat. A brave retreat by Sir Robin.

[x] been drunk.
[ ] smoked pot.
[x] kissed a member of the same sex.
[ ] rode in a taxi.
[x] been dumped.
[ ] shoplifted.
[ ] been fired.
[x] been in a fist fight.
[ ] made out with a stranger.
[ ] stole something from your job.
[ ] celebrated new years in times square.
[ ] went on a blind date.
[ x] lied to a friend.
[x] had a crush on a teacher
[ ] been to Europe.
[x] skipped school.
[ ] thrown up from drinking.
[ ] lost your sibling... (warehouse)
[x] had a sleepover party.
[x] went ice skating.
[x] been cheated on.
[ ] had a car.
[x] drove.


Do you...
[x] have a bf.
[ ] have a gf.
[x] have a crush.
[x] feel loved.
[x] feel lonely.
[x] feel happy.
[x] hate yourself.
[x] think you're attractive.(sometimes)
[x] have a dog.
[x] have your own room.
[ ] listen to rap.
[x] listen to rock.
[ ] listen to soul.
[ ] listen to techno.
[ ] listen to reggae.
[x] paint your nails.
[x] have more than 1 best friend.
[x] get good grades.
[x] play an instrument.
[x] have slippers.
[x] wear boxers.
[x] wear eyeliner.
[x] like the color blue.
[ ] like the color yellow.
[x] cyber.
[x] claim. (sometimes...ghehe)
[x] like to read.
[x] like to write.
[x] have long hair.
[ ] have short hair.
[ ] have a cell phone.
[ ] have a laptop.
[ ] have a pager.


Are you...
[x one wing] ugly.
[x] pretty.
[x] ok.
[x] bored.
[x] happy.
[x] short.
[ ] tall.
[x] grounded.
[x] sick.
[x] lazy.
[x] talking to someone.
[x ] scared to die.
[x] tired.
[x] sleepy.
[x] hungry.
[x] thirsty.
[x] on the phone.
[x] in your room.
[x] drinking something.
[x] eating something.
[x] in your pjs.
[x] ticklish.
[x] listening to music.
[ ] homophobic. (NEVER!!! grrr put an x infront of it and hm die)

Divine Intervention

Maybe if you werent such an inconsiderate asshole.....you could get at least half the respect back from your family.... Please feel free to continue making everyone around you feel more alienated, and they can give a rats ass about what you have to say or think.......You make it so blaintently obvious that you could give a shit about theirs.

Whatever You Want

If you asked me to be there
I would do everything in my power to do so
If you needed a helping hand
Mine will always be outstretched
If you wanted some soothing words
I would spill my heart out
Whatever you want dear
I would give it to you
Anything to make you happy
Just to be able to savor your smile
That beautiful, pure smile
That melts my heart

Things to get done:

1.Start working on my "Sex Pistol' art
2.Finish up with some David Bowie art
3.Get some more pictures for Frank
4. *thinking*

Today sucks tremendously.......I have completely lost my voice.........the only noise I can manage to make is a pathetic whiney sound........Now I must use sign language and a note pad to communicate with everyone...........And everyone thinks this is so funny *pouts*.......Im gonna go lock myself in my room and listen to music *sobs*.......I wont be able to sing along with it.....but hell I can lip sync

Tred carefully and wisely
Im like a ticking time bomb
Just waiting to go off
I want to burst
Into a thousand little pieces
And have someone else
Clean up the mess
Im an emotional wreck
Ive experienced my high
Now Im hitting my low
I dont want to feel bothered
Baggered or bossed
I just want to steam
I just want to be left alone
My eyes sting from crying
My face tinged with tears
If you dont want to have your head bitten off
I advise you to stay at a respectful distance

(Ive sarted a daily song fav thing in here.....ill post my favorite song of the day and the lyrics for you all to enjoy)

Kelly Clarkson Lyrics

Since You've Been Gone Lyrics



Here's the thing we started off friends
It was cool but it was all pretend
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

You dedicated you took the time
Wasn't long till I called you mine
Yeah
Since you've been gone

And all you'd ever hear me say
Is how I pictured me with you
That's all you'd ever hear me say

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
What I want
Since you've been gone

How can I put it? you put me on
I even fell for that stupid love song
Yeah yeah
Since you've been gone

How come I never hear you say
I just wanna be with you
I guess you never felt that way

But since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you
Now I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone

You had your chance you blew it
Out of sight, out of mind
Shut your mouth I just can't take it
Again and again and again and again

Since you've been gone
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get
I get what I want
I can breathe for the first time
Im so movin on
Yeah yeah
Thanks to you (thanks to you)
Now I get (I get)
You should know (you should know)
That I get
I get what I want
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone
Since you've been gone

I think I can be more at ease when I can wake up in the morning and see your face in front of me. To be close and warm and happy in your presence. I have never loved someone so much as I do for you. I didn't think I had enough love in my heart left to give. You make me smile when I feel down, and you keep me grounded when I want to fly away. You are my stronghold, you make me feel more confident in myself when I lack the self-esteem. You tell me I am beautiful, and that I make you happy with everything I do, even when I dont notice what I did. I love to make you laugh and smile.  

(a story I am writing to pass the time and keep my mind working)

Blue Eyes           
                            By Kim Palmer


Wolf Song

If you talk to the animals
They will talk with you
And you will know each other.
If you do not talk to them
You will not know them,
And what you do not know
You will fear.
What one fears
One destroys.

       Chief Dan George


Chapter 1: Reunion and Reflection

I sit down in the brightness of the sun, with a smile upon my face. My focus is upon Nekyia. She is pouncing and prancing about in the freshly fallen snow. If it weren’t for her piercing blue eyes, she would fade and vanish into the white surroundings. The ground glistens and flickers as the sunlight gently kisses the snow. Nekyia’s eyes illuminates with happiness. She is excited and pleased to see me again. She comes towards me slowly with her head bowed, wanting to know if it is all right to sprawl out in my lap. I wave my hands in a welcoming motion, reassuring her that it is okay. She meets my face with a soft nuzzle and warm lick of her tongue upon my cold, red cheek. It was a long time ago that she had once lived with me. She was a tiny, orphaned wolf cub, shivering and hungry when I came upon her hiking through the woods on my 25-acre estate.                          

The leaves of the giant oak trees and maple were just starting to transform into their eclectic array of warm colors. It was the beginning of autumn. A metamorphous of brilliant reds, splattered with yellow and orange, with a tinge of green consumed my property. I had just left my house, zipping up my black hooded jacket. I packed a small lunch, and stuffed it into my trail bag along with bottled water. It was still warm outside, but a chill still nipped the air.

A half hour had passed when I finally reached a clearing on the trail. I found a large boulder underneath a tall, withered pine. . It seemed to be a nice, quiet place to stop and eat. I sat down, and grabbed my sandwich. Letting out a happy sigh, I then started eating. No sooner then I went back for a second bite, a cry filled my ears. It wasn’t a cry I was used to hearing. I jumped to my feet in search of where the sound was coming from. It was much like a puppy’s cry. “ Who in the hell would abandon a puppy out here on my property?” All these horrible thoughts and vision kept running through my mind. Behind a small bush, a few feet away from where I was sitting, was where the cry seemed to be coming from. My adrenaline started to ease when I found a small, white puppy. It must not have been a week old, its eyes and ears weren’t fully opened. I picked up the tiny mass of white fur and cuddled it close to my chest underneath my jacket. I grabbed my bag and raced home as quickly as I could.

Nekyia smiled gratefully, as I stroked her slightly swollen stomach. She was 2 months pregnant. I carefully palpated her abdomen, finding a few round masses in both uterine horns. I was hoping for a big, healthy litter. I expected Nekyia to be an excellent mother. Jessie, my black standard poodle, who had recently passed away, helped raise Nekyia. She learned from the best! Jessie was like the Matriarch of all my dogs. She taught every young dog that came into our family respect and discipline. Nekyia has helped fill that void when Jessie passed.