Oh shit I miss you so much Justin. GRRRRRR.......
I miss you!!
Feeling rather low and down in the dumps. I tired of listening about everybody's fucking problems, Ive got enough of my own to deal with.
Well, Ive got 2 people to pick up puppies this afternoon, so that leaves me with 2 puppies left. Wow, it was just yesterday that I was cleaning up 8 piles of puppy shit, and refilling the bowl with water, after everyone had taken a little swim. Oh it was so much fun, but Im not looking foreward to doing it anytime soon.
LAYER ONE:
Name: Kim
Nickname: stooge, lil_misfit
Birth date: 03-27-85
Birthplace: Virginia Beach, Va
Current location: New England
Eye color:reddish brown
Hair color: aurburn
Height: 5'3'' ......163cm
Righty or lefty: left
LAYER TWO
Your heritage: little bit Italian, Iriquios, French Canadian, and Scottish
Your fears: Spider, Heights, and drowning
Your perfect pizza: BLT pizza, mayonaise, cheese, lettuce, bacon, and some tomato
Goals you'd like to achieve: To have a wonderful, loving family of my own.....become a professional photographer
LAYER THREE
Your most overused phrase on AIM: lol
Your first thought when you wake up: Im not ready to get up
Your best physical feature:my eyes
Your bedtime: 10:00pm
Your most missed memory: High school (believe it or not) I miss the social time and my art classes
LAYER FOUR
Soda: Mountain Dew
Best fast food joint: Wendys
Single or group dates: single
Adidas or Nike: don’t care
Lipton Ice Tea or Nestea: Liptons Ice Tea
Chocolate or vanilla: chocolate
Cappuccino or coffee: none
LAYER FIVE
Smoke: yes (twice and never ever again)
Cuss: Been known to have said some outraguous shit when prevoked
Sing: sometimes
Take a shower every day: sometimes
Have a crush: possible....no
Do you think you've been in love: Once
Want to go to college: nope
Like high school: yep
Want to get married: Maybe someday......b
Believe in yourself: sometimes
Get motion sickness: nope
Think you're a health freak: nope
Get along with your parents: most of the time
Like thunderstorms: yep
Play an instrument: yep (guitar and piano.....trom
LAYER SIX
In the past month...
Drank alcohol: nope
Smoked: nope
Done a drug: nope
Had sex: nope
Made out: hmmmm yes
Gone on a date: yes
Eaten an entire box of Oreos: nope
Eaten sushi: nope
Been on stage: nope
Gone skating: nope
Made homemade cookies: yes
Gone skinny-dipping
Dyed your hair: nope
Stolen anything: nope
(well that was interesting..)
LAYER SEVEN
Ever...
Played a game that required removal of clothing: yes
Been trashed or extremely intoxicated: nope
Been caught doing something that you should'nt be:
Not that I know of
Been called a tease: no
Gotten beaten up: no
Shoplifted: no
Changed who you were to fit in: no
LAYER EIGHT
Age you hope to be married: before I turn 30
Numbers and names of children: 2......Mackenz
Describe your dream wedding: Never really thought about it
How do you want to die?: N/A
Where do you want to go to college: dont want to go to college
What do you want to be when you grow up: Horse trainer......e
What country would you most like to visit: Italy
LAYER NINE
In a guy/girl...
Best eye color: blue
Best hair color: black
Short or long hair: medium
Height: not too tall
Best weight: no preference
Best articles of clothing: no preference
Best first date location: anywhere, as long as Im with that person
Best first kiss location: (might sound corny) but outside in the rain
LAYER TEN
Number of drugs taken: (prescribed) cant remember
Number of people I could trust with my life: 4
Number of CDs that I own: 30
Number of piercing: 3 (more soon)
Number of tattoos: 0 (soon)
Number of times my name has appeared in the newspaper: 1
Number of scars on my body: not many that shows up
Number of things in my past that I regret: a lot
Why is it when I dont see your face....or dont hear your voice, I go crazy? Why is it can't I get your scent out of my head? Why is it I yearn to be near you?
Im always gonna be stuck with the feeling if things actually do happen for a reason. If we are really to learn from our past mistakes, and use them for future reference.
Was it planned for me to finally meet you? After all this stress and misfortune in my life, is it actually Godsend that you stepped in at this moment? Are you here to help me cope with my depression and unhappiness?
Kind of laying back today and kicking my feet up......
Maybe Ill drawing something today.....
Maybe think about Justin XP.........
Who knows......
Maybe sleep for good part or take Arion of for a ride.........
Ill just let thing fall into place as they go
DREAM
I saw you in my dream last night;
A heavenly vision shrouded in a cloud of white;
Your eyes shown green and heavy upon me;
The love that imminated in those eyes was enough to let me free;
Then the atomosphere started to disappear;
You were gone, I was alone with fear;
That feeling of desire and want vanished;
All I felt was uneeded and banished;
The place grew darker and crowded with pain;
The quietness and solitude was to make me insane;
Huddled in a mass of sorrow and hate;
I come to the conclusion that this was my fate;
I rocked myself slowly, to ease the hurt away;
And keep all unwanted thoughts at bay;
But in my hour of drakness and quam;
Your light shown once more, to soothe and calm;
Your voice rang through my ears, envoking every emotion;
Your words sang a song like waves crashing at the ocean;
And you took in me in your arm, and kissed my tears dry;
Your wings outstretched around me, ready to fly!
(wow I didnt think I could actually write something like this)
Nothing seems to numb the pain of a broken heart. Life almost seem worthless if you have nothing to strive for, nothing to bring you cheer, but what do I know......I have yet to figure out my goal in life......why the fuck I was put on this Earth. I only seem to bring harm to myself and bring down others with me.......
(poem which ignited an artist image in m mind)
Wherever amber skies kiss crystine waters
And a calming tide caresses the shore
You will find him
Carefree, wild, frivalous, and majestice
The stallion who dances in the surf
In unbridled freedom
(Lets see where this will take me)
Favorite Song of the Day
The Used Lyrics
Take It Away Lyrics
Life's greatest questions have always been: Who am I? Where did I come from? Why am I here? Where am I going? You are about to see and hear one of the most significant messages given to us from God.
Get down
Wooooooo!
Get down
I'm lying to myself
And this dagger's my excuse
I'm a pawn
I Should have paid up
And I left an hour late
I was laid up
I must abuse myself
I'm against all that I've made up
Set in stone the sun will come
And I hate light
You know I hate light
To me it looks so pretty burning
Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away
I must have caught something
In the heat of all these dances
I'm a worm with no more chances
And I've lost all doubt
In a chemical romance
I can't stop itching
over thoughts of tarnished hope
kinda funny
lonely feeling
I'm not in love
You know it's not love
To me it looks so pretty burning
Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away
Burn the sun
Burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand
Take my life
Take take take take take take it away
Brothers and sisters
I'm right here with you
Cause everyone's got one
A story to kill me
I'm so apathetic in my resentment
Living, loving, knowing not
Take my hand [x8]
Take my life
Take my heart take my mind
Take my life take my life
Burn the sun burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand take my life
Take take take take take take it away
Burn the sun burn the light
Take take take take take take it away
Take my hand take my life
Take my life
Take my life
Take my life
Once I collate the money from the puppies that I so sculpiously took care of.........Im off to make some modifications.
yes.....I tend to look quite different.....
What a hectic friggin day it was yesterday.....
My mother has been diagnosed with Iron Defiency Anemia......so my job has extended more with helping her........so dont mind if Im a little irritated lately........
Been entertaining myself by doing some freewriting while listening to music.....whet
This is what I got from listening to Oasis last night
Gravity
Above shallowed ground
Lay in weight-less wonder
See the future before you
Left in residual sunder
Pondering such thoughts
Leaves on nauseated
Feeling heavily pressed upon
Life seems so complicated
Leave Room to Fail
Killer smile
Hazel eyes
Was my inebitable demise
Sweet you are
Fell so deep
Happiness, unwanted keep
Imagine life
Were it to be
Fulfilled dreams for you & me...........(to be continued)
Youre never alone
Always under watchful eyes
Cold, heavy stare
Makes you feel empty
Guarded unknowingly
(LAST GOOD SONG OF THE DAY)
The Used Lyrics
The Taste Of Ink Lyrics
Is it worth it can you even hear me
Standing with your spotlight on me
Not enough to feed the hungry
I'm tired and I felt it for awhile now
In this sea of lonely
The taste of ink is getting old
It's four o' clock in the fucking morning
Each day gets more and more like the last day
Still I can see it coming
While I'm standing in the river drowning
This could be my chance to break out
This could be my chance to say goodbye
At last it's finally over
Couldn't take this town much longer
Being half dead wasn't what I planned to be
Now I'm ready to be free
So here I am it's in my hands
And I'll savor every moment of this
So here I am alive at last
And I'll savor every moment of this
And won't you think I'm pretty
When I'm standing top the bright lit city
And I'll take your hand and pick you up
And keep you there to so you can see
As long as you're alive and care
I promise I will take you there
And we'll drink and dance the night away
As long as you're alive
Here I am
I promise I will take you there
(I just love rocking out to this song *does the rock on sign with hand and joins the mosh pit*........Mo
A.F.I. Lyrics
The Great Disappointment Lyrics
I can remember a place I used to go
Chrysanthemums of white, they seemed so beautiful
I can remember, I searched for the amaranth
I'd shut my eyes... to see
Oh, how I smiled then, so near the cherished ones
I knew they would appear... saw not a single one
Oh, how I smiled then, waiting so patiently
I'd make a wish... and bleed
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
I can remember... dreamt them so vividly
Soft creatures draped in white, light kisses gracing me
I can remember when I first realized
Dreams were the only place to see them
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away
I never, never wanted this
I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
How could I have become?
I never, never wanted this
But from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this
How could I have become?
I never, never wanted this
I always wanted to believe
I never, never wanted this
I never, never wanted this
But from the start I'd been deceived
I never, never wanted this
Inside a crumbling effigy
But you promised
So dies all innocence
But you promised me
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
While I waited I was wasting away
Hope was wasting away
Faith was wasting away
I was wasting away
(MY ALLTIME FAVORITE CURE SONG.......Ble
The Cure Lyrics
Lovesong Lyrics
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
(MY ALLTIME FAVORITE CURE SONG.......Ble
The Cure Lyrics
Lovesong Lyrics
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am home again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am whole again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am young again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am fun again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am free again
Whenever I'm alone with you
You make me feel like I am clean again
However far away
I will always love you
However long I stay
I will always love you
Whatever words I say
I will always love you
I will always love you
It so unfortunate that it didnt work out, obviously I couldnt please you and make you happy......but I wish you all the happiness in the world....you deserve it because you are terribly sweet and such a genuine person.
Enjoy life and all that unfolds for you.....maybe someday our paths will cross.....who knows........t