Finally got internet at my new place... all the moving kept me incredibly busy but it's slowly starting to actually LOOK like some kind of home. But as it does I sense a certain ackward feeling coming up that I tended to ignore in my past. While I simply didn't find any time to think about what's actually bothering me before, it has now become more and more vivid. Actually realizing that I'm gonna be stuck here for one more year is harder than I thought it would be - especially considering the fact that I couldn't go home this summer. I feel so homesick right now, it's almost idiotically unbearable and the fact that I watched a whole season OC within 48 hours didn't quite improve my situation... just to remain somewhat neutral in my choice of words.
At least I passed my finals. The reason that I remained in Germany in first place instead of visiting home for at least a while.
Oh and yeah... I'm single again, but I have no plans WHATSOEVER to change that right now. For I'm never ever gonna get myself into something as ILLUSIVE and DRAINING as an internet relationship again nor do I plan to even think about seriously looking for something permantent here in this local zoo called Saarbridge. All in all I'm left in a quite pissed off state. Thinking about kicking some sandbags... or just... ugh.
How come I'm being most creative when I have to revise for an important final the very next day - huh?
Geeh... anyways:
I am a haunted person following the almost desperate attempt to use his given potentials to be smarter than nature (in the context of recent day widespread understanding of it), to foresee several developing/evo
Hah! That sounds just like me again... and now, back to study!
ps: DON'T BLAME ME IF ENGLISH GRAMMAR RULES PROHIBIT THOSE KIND OF THOUGHTS! I have better things to do with my time than to regard crusty ancient obsolete laws as if they were something immutable. I'm a creator, not an upholding couch potato - deal with it!
pps: Inspired by a hypothetical tête-à-tête with Jeffrey Sachs - thanks buddy! ^^
In the process of MOVING!! Maybe I should think about decorating my new place in a somewhat ancient Egyptian style? Thought is there... lets roll :)
I feel like throwing up, and it's not due to the coughing which has been hunting me for the past 3 weeks!
Will see this weekend, stay tuned whoever feels the need to.
damn, I didn't get the place in that community that I wanted and planed to move into for the next year. They prefered to take a girl... because she's a girl. *sighs*
Oh how I hate these kind of shallow decision only based onto gender - where's the fairness in that? As if being a girl is like a guarantee that they will get along better :(
I should have faked a PMS attack... maybe that would have gotten me further... screw that. I'm PMSing right now *mumbles* Too late...
Feeling very chilly today... laid back, everything is fine. Yay! If I only had some more time, I could actually start to write that essay about "Freedom - seen as a beautiful art", that I wanna hand in into a national essay contest in regards of Friedrich Schiller`s death. Gotta see how I will figure that one out!
Got only 1 1/2 more weeks of class and after that about one week to get ready for my finals - not all too much time to get my stuff done though... plus I need to find a new room. My lease is ending at the end of this semester and I didn't find a subsequenting place yet. Plus I need to take care of my friends a little more, I've been kinda lazy lately... So much to do, so little time! *sighs* At least I'm feeling good :)
Yay, I won! Thanks to everyone that voted for me :)
XXX <- this day was evil! I'm hopefully gonna forget about it...
Yeah, midterm exams over!! I'm loving it, I'm loving it, I'm loving it! (as you can tell ^^)
So although the semester is still lasting for another month (culminating in some more finals), I finally happen to find at least some time to use the summerish conditions we happen to have right now for me getting a nice tan! Yay! Lov y'all! :)
Drowning in work... sleepy sleep oh sleepy sleep, sleepy sleep, sleep, sleep... *head falls onto keyboard making a wushing smashing sound*
I think I'm gonna write a book - a novel of some kind that is using my accusations in some kind of way for it's plot.
I never ment to mix with the crowds of people that have been writing books for it's ment to be stylish... but the more I advance in time the more I have an increasing demand to express myself in a way that people would listen to. Essays are fine, but they won't do if you're not already interested into certain topics. Plus - they won't give me any money *long* *long* ;o)
Tell me what you think!