[merihevonen]'s diary
I can't believe it's been a one year now already!!
we've known each other for one year now. to the date.from june 8th 2005 .... till now... :D
exactly a year ago, shay first messaged me and since then i've had her as my friend. ^^___^^
heh heh heh... >_-<
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"But I, being poor, have only my dreams;
I have spread my dreams under your feet;
Tread softly because you tread on my dreams."
--W.B. Yeatshttp://video.g
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"One girl is worth more than twenty boys."
- Peter Pan
"The wisdom of the wise, and the experience of ages, may be preserved by quotations."
-Isaac D'Israeli
"The heart has its reasons which reason knows nothing of."
-Blaise Pascal
"It's choice - not chance - that determines your destiny."
-Jean Nidetch
"Life's greatest happiness is to be convinced we are loved."
-Victor Hugo
"It is impossible to go through life without trust: That is to be imprisoned in the worst cell of all, oneself."
-Graham Greene
"I not only use all the brains that I have, but all that I can borrow."
-Woodrow Wilson
"Love the moment. Flowers grow out of dark moments. Therefore, each moment is vital. It affects the whole. Life is a succession of such moments and to live each, is to succeed."
-Corita Kent
"Only passions, great passions, can elevate the soul to great things."
-Denis Diderot
"Those who bring sunshine into the lives of others, cannot keep it from themselves."
-James M. Barrie
"The secret of life is to appreciate the pleasure of being terribly, terribly deceived."
-Oscar Wilde
"Hold a true friend with both hands."
-Nigerian Proverb
"My future starts when I wake up every morning... Every day I find something creative to do with my life."
-Miles Davis
"If you want to catch something, running after it isn't always the best way."
-Lois McMaster Bujold
"The difference between fiction and reality? Fiction has to make sense."
-Tom Clancy
“I must create a system, or be enslaved by another man's.”
-William Blake
“Jealousy is all the fun you think they had.”
-Erica Jong
"A life spent making mistakes is not only more honorable, but more useful than a life spent doing nothing."
-George Bernard Shaw
"Everything has got a moral if you can only find it."
-Lewis Carroll
"A hero is no braver than an ordinary man, but he is braver five minutes longer."
-Ralph Waldo Emerson
"That's what music is entertainment. The more you put yourself into it, the more of you comes out in it."
-Kurt Cobain
"Do you know what friendship is... it is to be brother and sister; two souls which touch without mingling, two fingers on one hand."
-Victor Hugo
"Give me where to stand, and I will move the earth."
-Archimedes
"It's a shallow life that doesn't give a person a few scars."
-Garrison Keillor
"I'm gonna put a curse on you and all your kids will be born completely naked."
-Jimi Hendrix
"It is a miracle that curiosity survives formal education."
-Albert Einstein
"As filmmakers, we can show where a person's mind goes, as opposed to theater, which is more to sit back and watch it."
-Darren Aronofsky
"The opposite of love is not hate, it's indifference.
The opposite of art is not ugliness, it's indifference.
The opposite of faith is not heresy, it's indifference.
And the opposite of life is not death, it's indifference."
-Elie Wiesel
"An actor must interpret life, and in order to do so must be willing to accept all the experiences life has to offer. In fact, he must seek out more of life than life puts at his feet."
-James Dean
"First they came for the Jews. I was silent. I was not a Jew. Then they came for the Communists. I was silent. I was not a Communist. Then they came for the trade unionists. I was silent. I was not a trade unionist. Then they came for me. There was no one left to speak for me."
-Martin Niemöller
"Don't gain the world and lose your soul, 'cause wisdom is better than silver and gold."
-Bob Marley
"You see things; and you say, "Why?" But I dream things that never were; and I say, "Why not?"
-George Bernard Shaw
"Every human is an artist. The dream of your life is to make beautiful art."
-don Miguel Ruiz
"I am not in this world to live up to other people's expectations, nor do I feel that the world must live up to mine."
-Fritz Perls
"I think my whole generation's mission is to kill the cliche."
-Beck
"...when you have eliminated the impossible, whatever remains, however improbable, must be the truth."
-Sir Arthur Conan Doyle
"Time spent with cats is never wasted."
-Colette
"The gem cannot be polished without friction, nor man perfected without trials."
-Chinese Proverb
"I'd rather have a free bottle in front of me than a prefrontal lobotomy."
-Tom Waits
"To be trusted is a greater compliment than to be loved."
-George MacDonald
"I see two retarded political parties in our country that don't represent the masses."
-Glenn Danzig
"You've got to be original, because if you're like someone else, what do they need you for?"
-Bernadette Peters
"I love acting. It is so much more real than life."
-Oscar Wilde
"The trouble with most people is that they think with their hopes or fears or wishes rather than with their minds."
-Will Durant
"I tend to live in the past because most of my life is there."
-Herb Caen
"The way I feel about music is that there is no right and wrong. Only true and false."
-Fiona Apple
"Style is knowing who you are, what you want to say and not giving a damn."
-Gore Vidal
"We know what we are, but know not what we may be."
-William Shakespeare
"Truth has beauty, power and necessity."
-Sylvia Ashton-Warner
"Dreams are like rainbows. Only idiots chase them."
-[Daemon SaDiablo]
"Much unhappiness has come into this world because of things left unsaid."
-F. M. Dostoyevski
Just a memory note for myself:
And ask about Janne if you can download WoW from him. >__>
Adn if this happens, learn netpeak/1337! OMG! ..... it'll be the end of thee world as we know it...
and try not to be so grumpy to your friends all the time...
This is what a typical Kent fan looks like. >__<
Written about Wednesday 2006-05-31
Written: (6751 days ago)
I messed up my philosophy test today... I mean, it went completely wrong... I couldn't remember anything.
The things I had studied weren't in it.... agh...
So i'm rather mad at myself at the moment due to that.
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-30
Written: (6753 days ago)
Long story short, I had to get naked and carry him to the water and getting my entire body icecold
since the water was exactly what I thought; cold like hell. Don't let the sun shining to the water fool you, it was cold.
>__< hehh hehh.. but let's not make fun of my darling Petelius, i was scared to go the water as well... >__>
I wish the tide would just come and sink me...
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (6758 days ago)
just something that [Morningstar Rising] did for me. thank you.
the original picture can be found from the adventures... ----> heidi's adventures
Written about Tuesday 2006-05-23
Written: (6760 days ago)
I'm never enough...
Written about Monday 2006-05-22
Written: (6760 days ago)
"With so much love around you
I just wish you'd love youself"
What can i say about me...
Always with head up in the clouds...
"I am open-minded enough to listen to your opinions, humble enough to admit when I am wrong, but not quite stupid enough to argue with a fool." - [Steel Mal'ak]
"God made me an atheist. Who are you to question his wisdom?" - Unknown
"We have NO PROOF that such a "God" existed besides a crumby book that's been changed, altered, and re-written over THOUSANDS OF YEARS!!!" - [Whiskers], Whiskers' rants
"Religion is excellent stuff for keeping common people quiet." - Napoleon Bonaparte
"An Atheist believes that a hospital should be built instead of a church. An Atheist believes that deed must be done instead of a prayer said. An Atheist strives for involvement in life and not escape into death. He wants disease conquered, poverty vanished, war eliminated."
-Madalyn Murray O'Hair
"It ain't the parts of the Bible that I can't understand that bother me, it is the parts that I do understand." - Mark Twain
"I acted alone on God’s orders." ― Yigal Amir, assassin of Yitzak Rabin
"If anyone can show me, and prove to me, that I am wrong in thought or deed, I will gladly change. I seek the truth, which never yet hurt anybody. It is only persistence in self‐delusion and ignorance which does harm." ― Marcus Aurelius
"As a mother, I know that homosexuals cannot biologically reproduce children; therefore, they must recruit our children." ― Anita Bryant, 1977
"An atheist is a man who has no invisible means of support." ― John Buchan (1875‐1940) British author, statesman
"No, I don’t know that Atheists should be considered as citizens, nor should they be considered as patriots. This is one nation under God."
― George Bush
"It’s hard to be religious when certain people are never incinerated by bolts of lightning." ― Calvin, in Calvin and Hobbes by Bill Waterson
"Mom and dad say I should make my life an example of the principles I believe in. But every time I do, they tell me to stop it." ― Calvin and Hobbes
"A one sentence definition of mythology?Myth
"And what if we've picked the wrong religion? Every week we're just making God madder and madder?" - Homer Simpson, Simpsons
"The Bible is one of the most genocidal books in history." ― Noam Chomsky
"Many good souls protest against a destructive criticism of Christianity and demand a substitute. I do not feel any obligation to substitute a new god for the old ones. I should gladly let them all go. I do not approve of cancer, and yet I do not feel that I have no right to attack a quack who promises a false cure until I have no real cure to propose. As someone said: he who helps destroy the boll‐weevil has done as constructive work as he who plants the seed." ― Rupert Hughes, Why I Quit Going to Church
"Many of the truths we cling to depend greatly upon our own point of view." ― Ben Kenobi, in Star Wars by George Lucas
"Xtian (at crucifixion): <snif> It’s a shame he has to die
Jesus (shouting from cross): Well maybe I wouldn’t have to die if somebody would get a LADDER and a pair of PLIERS!!
― Kinison
"Belief means not wanting to know what is true." ― Friedrich Nietzsche, in The Anti‐Christ
"All religion, my friend, is simply evolved out of fraud, fear, greed, imagination, and poetry." ― Edgar Allan Poe
"The name of Christ has caused more persecutions, wars, and miseries than any other name has caused." ― John E. Remsburg, The Christ (1910)
" … A socialist, anti‐family, political movement that encourages women to leave their husbands, kill their children, practice witchcraft, destroy capitalism and become lesbians." ― Pat Robertson, on feminism
" Many of those people involved in Adolf Hitler were Satanists, many were homosexuals—th
"It is the Democratic Congress, the liberal‐biased media and the homosexuals who want to destroy all Christians." ― Pat Robertson
"You say you’re supposed to be nice to the Episcopalians and the Presbyterians and the Methodists and this, that, and the other thing. Nonsense. I don’t have to be nice to the spirit of the Antichrist." ― Pat Robertson
"They said God was on high and he controlled the world and therefore we must pray against Satan. Well, if God controls the world, he controls Satan. For me, religion was full of misstatements and reaches of logic that I just couldn’t agree with." ― Gene Roddenberry
"Those of us who believe in the right of any human being to belong to whatever church he sees fit, and to worship God in his own way, cannot be accused of prejudice when we do not want to see public education connected with religious control of the schools, which are paid for by taxpayers’ money." ― Eleanor Roosevelt
"It is an interesting and demonstrable fact, that all children are atheists and were religion not inculcated into their minds, they would remain so." ― Ernestine Rose
" I do not need the idea of God to explain the world I live in." ― Salman Rushdie
"God in His law requires the death penalty for homosexuals." ― R.J. Rushdoony
" All religions begin with a revolt against morality, and perish when morality conquers them." ― George Bernard Shaw
" It is not disbelief that is dangerous to our society; it is belief." ― George Bernard Shaw
"Beware of the man whose God is in the skies." ― George Bernard Shaw
" All great truths begin as blasphemies." ― George Bernard Shaw, in "Annajanska"
"The same means that have supported every other popular belief, have supported Christianity. War, imprisonment, assassination, and falsehood: deeds of unexampled and incomparable atrocity have made it what it is." ― Percy Bysshe Shelley, in Notes to Queen Mab"
"Hokey religions and ancient weapons are no substitute for a good blaster at your side." ― Han Solo, in "Star Wars" by George Lucas
"I do not concern myself with gods and spirits either good or evil nor do I serve any." ― Lao Tse
" To be an atheist requires strength of mind and goodness of heart found in not one of a thousand." ― Samuel Coleridge
" My best advice to anyone who wants to raise a happy, mentally healthy child is: keep him or her as far away from a church as you can." ― Frank Zappa
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“Aerodynamical
However the Bumble Bee does not know this,
so it carries on flying anyway.”
--- Terry Pratchett
hehh.. wonderful.
Written about Sunday 2006-05-21
Written: (6761 days ago)
As you can see, I've inherited the same hair colour... :0
Written about Sunday 2006-05-21
Written: (6762 days ago)
yesterday afternoon I went to see my grandmother at the hospital of Meilahti...
my father and Milka were talking about paying the rent of her apartment.. .
and all i could think about was
"paying rent reminds me of death.
paying rent reminds me of death.
paying rent reminds me of death.
paying rent reminds me of death.
paying rent reminds me of death.
paying rent reminds me of death."
i just kept repeating that in my head...
hmm. sometimes i scare myself.
My grandmother is at the hospital.
I'm not sure what she has... Is it cancer again??
yesterday wasn't the best of days... i felt like crying most of the time.. Somehow i didn't- i don't know how i didnät just fall apart to the floor and just start crying...
she's at the hospital of Meilahti, on the 17th floor. in the isolation wing.
i'm so worried about her... *sighs sadly*
i watched her eat. and apparently it the first time she ate with no difficulties..
So that's something. at least. to be thankful of.
i wasn't able to get a clear answer from my father about what she has... i asked him if it's cancer again... (she started smoking as a teenager and when she was 26 i think she got breath cancer... And her left breast was removed then. Now, years later... and she hasn't smoked since.) My father just kept avoiding the answering... like he always does.
and my mom said that it might be anemia.. the nurse said something about "low white cell levels" or i don't know if i heard it right...
and Janne had went to see her as well, and he had called mom who told me that Milka had had some breathing difficulties. apparently that was the reason she was snet there. So i guess some of the mystery is solved. I'm a bit less worried... And Janne said to mom who told me that she has to be in the hospital for the next 3 weeks.
And my aunt Tuula is on some hopsital as well. at Laakso, I think. I should go see her. She was sent there again because of her legs. She had this accident during this summer at our summer cottage/cabin (whatever the proper word is). You see, Tuula is absolutely terrified of dogs. Especially the really jumpy ones who bark a lot and are scare. (She isn't afraid of Pete since he hardly ever barks at all) So anyways, we have this neighbour who has this dog who's just terrifying. And there's this fence in between of our and our neighbour's house, But then there's this forest behind the fence, so the fence doesn't really separete itself from the background. And Tuula doesn't have the bests of sights...
So she got really scared of the idiot dog of our neighbours this summer and she locked herself in the sauna room (he lives right next to the sauna, in the next room. whiles my father, me and Milka sleep in the actually house/cottage/
well anyway.. things happened and Tuula got scared of the dog and the she fell the ground, and having bad legs already that didn't really help... so long story short, she went to bed after getteing her better... and then at the morning, she was bleeding. and her ebing quite overweight, my father broke his back while carrying her from sauna to outside, and the ambulance came some time after.,,., And now. she's been on and off from hospitals... havig to use this rollator thing... i don't know how long it will take her to start walking again...
my apologies, i know there are alot of typos. i just wrote that in a hurry. and i'm so tired to fix them right now...