Children's words about...

I just saw those words and and my heart rate went faster... Memories flooded my mind..


 Mou ichido tsuyoku dakishimete. Aishiteru.


*sighs*

i'm back.

so i've been here now 2 days. today is the third.

well i've been on a massage, walked around the town... (my feet hurt!! but thankfully my father had the brain to call the taxi so that we didn't have to walk all the way back to the hotel.. -.-)


and i was on some weird upper back massage today... 0.o umm it was warm? i can't say anything more about it.

and yesterday i was on this weird... thing. i don't know what to call it.

and but i can't remember was it thursday i was on this amazing massage.. 17 years of back pain gone in 30 minutes... i was in heaven for one full day.



oh yeah and today.. we went walking to center of the town for like 2 houes, my feet went stiff. and we went to these 3 shops.. and bought few things...

so yeah. i've bought few souvenirs etc.. i'll write more about it later..


right now, i'm using the hotel's computer writing this thing. my father's sleeping in the hotel room.
i got to go wake him up in about half an hour when we have dinner...
and after about an hour after it we're going swimming....


so yeah. bysy busy...

and tomorrow we have only one spa treatment left and then we're going..
it's this "manual massage". i'm not quite sure what that means..
but i first had my prejudicesabout all the treatments, but i don't regret that i tried them..

only thing that sort of is in my mind is that i didn't get another cd to go with me.
all i have is Manic Street Preachers' This is my truth tell me yours.
and this big package of batteries today. so hopefully they'll last for some time...


so later more.. i'm going to go walking again..

So I'm going now. I've been delaying my leaving for hours now.

And now finally I'm going.

I'll try to enjoy my trip, and not be such a serious person all the time.

Dude and Berserk are without any doubt the greatest words in the entire English language.
And this is coming from a person who speaks English as her third language, so... *nods* it's a fact.

I keep seeing these dreams.. even when my eyes are open.
Well, I've been seeing these dreams altogether for about a year now. But first it started with one. And then second one came...

The dreams mostly make me smile. But then there are really odd ones. The ones that make me scared to go back to sleep again.
Last night I saw another dream... and then... *sigh* it's difficult to explain.

It's extremely personal. ...And I keep thinking.. is she my alter ego or something?
Well, actually there's two persons. I know them. And for some reason I've chosen them to be in my dreams always.

They used to be two separate persons. And I was able to recognize them both.
It's different now.
I knew who they were and what kind of different relations and feelings I had with both of them, not getting confused.
But now, it seems as if my dream world is messing up with my reality.

And I know that it might be that everything.. that now is... won't be the same in the future.
So which one is it then? ..I don't even know which I hope it to be.

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when I first created Ashley - remember, that was in fift grade... =) I remember I thought about these characters, they sort of inspired my mind to create them. So i don't know if they have some similar personality traits with them. if you need to picture them. This is will help I guess.
Ashley - Lara Croft ;)
Sarah - Julianne Moore ;D red head
-and then I'm not sure, first i sort of picture Sarah blonde, but.... it's still under wondering. 0.o i don't know how to picture her. i'll just have to stick with that, and keep her a red head.-
or something... 0,0
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I remember when I first joined ET I had that story about Sarah and Ashley... And then I had this awful poetry written by me on my diary (I took everyone of them off, don't bother going to search it from my older entries :p).
The persons.. "Sarah" and "Ashley" are few of my favourite English names, so that's why I chose them to be the leading stars of my stories.
They... I have never really been able to write it into a decent story with a real plot line or anything.. but still, i keep dreaming. I don't want to write it. I'm not talented enough to write it. I feel like if I wrote about it I'd ruin it. Since they're in my dreams. I don't know how/don't want to change that.

All the happenings of the Untitled Ashley and Sarah Story are based on real life persons who I know... in real life or online..
And... I guess it's just me showing my side of things.


But.. I never want to write it into paper. I will never show it to anyone (Not even you, [Shatureel]. I'm sorry. Even though I once have said something of the kind.)

It's just too personal.






Don't ask what this means.. I'm just being.. me. vagueness. 0.o

Perverted jokes >.O

    "You are one of god's mistakes.
    I'm well aware of how it aches.
    And you still won't let me in."

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http://www.deviantart.com/view/22451106/

my favorite Mouth quote<3-->>Mouth:
"I'm not that guy, Rachel. Maybe the elite girls just aren't for me. But one of these days I'll meet a girl who really loves me. Maybe she won't be what you call hot, but I'll think she's beautiful, and I'll tell her so. I won't be mean to her because I won't have to play games with her. I'll just be the guy that she can always count on, and that'll be enough. And she'll be elite to me."
       - Marvin "Mouth" McFadden, played by the actor Lee Norris

( from the television show One Tree Hill http://www.imdb.com/title/tt0368530/ )


Every word is true. I live by those words.

http://quizfarm.com/test.php?q_id=10907


You scored as Satanism. 



Your beliefs most closely resemble those of Satanism! Before you scream, do a bit of research on it.
To be a Satanist, you don't actually have to believe in Satan.
Satanism generally focuses upon the spiritual advancement of the self,
rather than upon submission to a deity or a set of moral codes.
Do some research if you immediately think of the satanic cult stereotype.
Your beliefs may also resemble those of earth-based religions such as paganism.

Satanism   92%

Buddhismn  83%

Hinduismn  75%

agnosticism  75%

Islam  67%

Paganism  63%

atheism  63%

Judaism   58%

Christianity   25%


>.> I don't know if I'm surprised...

*sighs*

Svenska med borgmästaren
I might as well, try and study a bit of Swedish if I plan to go to Stockholm next September.
if a gun was pressed against my head, i guess i could speak Swedish enough so that i could somehow understand, but still... it's... it's.. Swedish!! *shakes fist* >_> ......must study then i guess, so that when we get lost there I can pronounce fluently
"Förlatt. Vi kommer frän Finland. Vi äker till Blind Guardian concert i Globen Hall. Var är det?" o.0 O.0 o.0 0.0 o.o
and then when they tell me where the Globen Hall is, "Tack så mycket."
or then mari will just do all the talking. hopefully. *makes hair even messier* hmphh >.<

I'm back.

Did anyone even notice I was gone?

This is... my room. yes, it's a bit messy. o.0

This would be the view from my window. Taken today, June 14th.

And now now for something completely different...

Yes... >_>_< what else would two Finns do in the middle of a forest than take take pictures of each others dressed in LARP costumes...
That. Was. Fun. :D
Oh yeah, if you still haven't realized it. This is Mari. She made the dress herself. Tell me what do you think.

Thee whole dress.

Aaand... my darling Captain Petelius Snowbeard *hugs him tightly* he's mineee! ^__^ isn't he cute??

And I'm going to Tampere tomorrow. my brother Janne has an exam there, since he's applying for a university there... so i guess it's few hours away. Well anyway, we're leaving at morning. early... AND i'm not a morning person. at all. >_> so pain for me...
So while Janne's taking his test.. Kari said something about us going to some planetarium. so i guess.. yey?

and i'm eating caramel icecream with a fork at the moment. Makes lots of sense. >_< Yuppiduu.

Nirvana - been a son

She should have stayed away from friends
She should have had more time to spend
She should have died when she was born
She should have worn a crown of thorns

She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son

She should have stood out in the crowd
She should have made her mother proud
She should have fallen on her stance
She should have had another chance

She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son

She should have stayed away from friends
She should have had more time to spend
She should have died when she was born
She should have worn a crown of thorns

She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son
She should have been, been a son