I am so torn. My heart is yelling take his love Rebecca. Then my head shouts, DON'T IT COULD BE A TRICK! If that is not bad enough all my kittens died. This is really been an interesting week. He has said that he is trustworthy. my heart trusts him and part of my mind trusts him but I still have that nagging doubt. I have fallen in love but I still have to display caution.
Ok so maybe caring is not so bad. Maybe letting my heart run a little but I need to keep it grounded enough. This day has not been so bad even though my little sister and I have had an adventure.
I'm still a loveable idoit. I'm not really that speical my head is in a cloud and my heart is on fire so what now. Well nothing at the moment I still need to settle on my life before I can even think about something foolish. Its one step foreward but I still need to take two steps back. I got ahead of myself it still isn't enough. My head will turn into mush before the night is over.
The harvest moon is bewitching.
It's hard to know which way to go but once I point to where I will be fine.As of now I am stuck in neutral.
The shootings in Virginia Tech effects me now. Even though I am miles away from the college...the words that south korean male said...It should not justitify killing a bunch of other human beings. In the end his message did reach us but I don't know if it is right to say it was a soul touching message. I don't see why killing many people will get your message heard...was he feeling left out? Was this rage learned by family or something else? Does this show how shallow human nature truly is?
Love is like fire and ice
It will feel so good but does not think twice to leave you in a confused state.
One touch will set the flame
It can just as easily go out with no one to blame.
One can be completely nice
the end result is the heart left in ice
Bad quiz grade...I should have expected it. My dad got concerned and so did my mother...I guess I could have kept it quiet but what good would that have done?
The past tends to bring up bitter lessons but it's up to us to make something of our lives.
Well its funny to hear an english professor tell you that you have good ideas but you have a hard time writting them down on paper..Oh well just have to work harder.
Stupid girl
I look in the mirror and see a face split into three places
I can't tell which one is real
My head is spinning so much information.
Even though I feel more knowledge getting into my head.
I still feel really stupid.
Its hard feeling everything. It seems like a waste of time but it does has its purpose somewhere in the fine line.
Konsite densit quiten sara uneter
slendes regresars hitenie
Densute regresars luminte
Salonde internte
It's funny how fate can drop kick you instantly. Oh well I'm slowly climbing back up the education latter. Maybe I can start to trust my heart. For now I got to take it one day at a time.
Well it is my last day of class before spring break. I don't know what to expect but I will keep my spirits up.
Well I'm slowly beginning to feel the earth beneath my feet. I still have a ways to climb but I will make it. It just will take a while.
It's hard to stare at the truth. When you don't want to accept it. Love is one thing that leaves me into confusion. I have taught myself to use my head instead of my heart. It's not easy understanding the fine line between them. Leads to more pondering and hurting but in the end as of now...only have a few certainies that education is one of my loves that I can not brake. I need to know myself before I can accept that special partnership
Fear and tears
Through all the nights I spend alone
Wrestling and fighting trying to figure out things on my own
I don't want to feel empty inside
There are certain things I can not hide
I hate to lose or hurt a person I call a friend
I also can not use him for my selifish desire to begin
I'm sorry for the pain I have caused for a dear person
It is better this way it is a hard lesson
I still have such fear that makes me stay in my ivory tower
I feel the lords power but am scared to let a man in
I need someone who can face it and tell me that my life will soon begin
He needs to tell me to stop being stupid but also be understanding that wounds take time
I hope to see the loving sign someday, and someone who will love me dear
That will face and kiss away my tears and fears.
It's my birthday hurray. Not really much to say.
hmm so much to ponder about but we tend to worry too much.
When the smoke disappears you find out exactly how much you are left with. Then you have a choice to either just lay there and willow in self pity or you can get back up.