[loonygirl2005]'s diary

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Written about Friday 2007-06-15
Written: (6176 days ago)

I'm still a loveable idoit. I'm not really that speical my head is in a cloud and my heart is on fire so what now. Well nothing at the moment I still need to settle on my life before I can even think about something foolish. Its one step foreward but I still need to take two steps back. I got ahead of myself it still isn't enough. My head will turn into mush before the night is over.

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Written about Sunday 2007-06-03
Written: (6188 days ago)

The harvest moon is bewitching.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-05-09
Written: (6213 days ago)

It's hard to know which way to go but once I point to where I will be fine.As of now I am stuck in neutral.

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Written about Thursday 2007-04-19
Written: (6233 days ago)

The shootings in Virginia Tech effects me now. Even though I am miles away from the college...the words that south korean male said...It should not justitify killing a bunch of other human beings. In the end his message did reach us but I don't know if it is right to say it was a soul touching message. I don't see why killing many people will get your message heard...was he feeling left out? Was this rage learned by family or something else? Does this show how shallow human nature truly is?

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Written about Sunday 2007-04-15
Written: (6237 days ago)

Love is like fire and ice
It will feel so good but does not think twice to leave you in a confused state.
One touch will set the flame
It can just as easily go out with no one to blame.

One can be completely nice
the end result is the heart left in ice

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Written about Thursday 2007-04-05
Written: (6247 days ago)

Bad quiz grade...I should have expected it. My dad got concerned and so did my mother...I guess I could have kept it quiet but what good would that have done?

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Written about Sunday 2007-04-01
Written: (6251 days ago)

The past tends to bring up bitter lessons but it's up to us to make something of our lives.

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Written about Thursday 2007-03-22
Written: (6261 days ago)

Well its funny to hear an english professor tell you that you have good ideas but you have a hard time writting them down on paper..Oh well just have to work harder.

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Written about Friday 2007-03-16
Written: (6267 days ago)

Stupid girl

I look in the mirror and see a face split into three places
I can't tell which one is real
My head is spinning so much information.
Even though I feel more knowledge getting into my head.
I still feel really stupid.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-03-14
Written: (6269 days ago)

Its hard feeling everything. It seems like a waste of time but it does has its purpose somewhere in the fine line.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-03-14
Written: (6269 days ago)

Konsite densit quiten sara uneter
slendes regresars hitenie
Densute regresars luminte
Salonde internte

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Written about Tuesday 2007-03-13
Written: (6270 days ago)

It's funny how fate can drop kick you instantly. Oh well I'm slowly climbing back up the education latter. Maybe I can start to trust my heart. For now I got to take it one day at a time.

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Written about Thursday 2007-03-08
Written: (6275 days ago)

Well it is my last day of class before spring break. I don't know what to expect but I will keep my spirits up.

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Written about Thursday 2007-03-08
Written: (6275 days ago)

Well I'm slowly beginning to feel the earth beneath my feet. I still have a ways to climb but I will make it. It just will take a while.

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Written about Monday 2007-03-05
Written: (6278 days ago)

It's hard to stare at the truth. When you don't want to accept it. Love is one thing that leaves me into confusion. I have taught myself to use my head instead of my heart. It's not easy understanding the fine line between them. Leads to more pondering and hurting but in the end as of now...only have a few certainies that education is one of my loves that I can not brake. I need to know myself before I can accept that special partnership

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Written about Monday 2007-03-05
Written: (6278 days ago)

Fear and tears

Through all the nights I spend alone
Wrestling and fighting trying to figure out things on my own
I don't want to feel empty inside
There are certain things I can not hide

I hate to lose or hurt a person I call a friend
I also can not use him for my selifish desire to begin
I'm sorry for the pain I have caused for a dear person
It is better this way it is a hard lesson

I still have such fear that makes me stay in my ivory tower
I feel the lords power but am scared to let a man in
I need someone who can face it and tell me that my life will soon begin
He needs to tell me to stop being stupid but also be understanding that wounds take time
I hope to see the loving sign someday, and someone who will love me dear
That will face and kiss away my tears and fears.

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Written about Saturday 2007-03-03
Written: (6280 days ago)
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It's my birthday hurray. Not really much to say.

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Written about Friday 2007-03-02
Written: (6281 days ago)

hmm so much to ponder about but we tend to worry too much.

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Written about Thursday 2007-03-01
Written: (6282 days ago)

When the smoke disappears you find out exactly how much you are left with. Then you have a choice to either just lay there and willow in self pity or you can get back up.

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Written about Friday 2007-02-23
Written: (6288 days ago)

Why is it when you try to have voice in anything it always seems wrong? I try to do right but I always end up making my brother yell or get angry. I hear people say I need to speak out more but it's hard to do when you are trying to understand why things should be done in an exact order and the person you are trying to communicate with only bites your tongue with harsh phrases or tell you to just not worry about it. I feel like I'm trapped in this box and I get frustrated because my voice means nothing and it only triggers anger in my brother. Sometimes even in my own father. So where does that leave me? Where do I belong? Why can't I speak without someone wanting to spit fire back at me? Egg shells is what I live to walk on. I know I can be complicated but I want to at least understand the reasons. I guess I should not even try because I'm so imperfect and only cause my brother to feel like he has to defend himself.

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Written about Wednesday 2007-02-21
Written: (6290 days ago)

How do you deal with cold hard facts without braking down?

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