*sings* I have half a wall lol
my room is almost finished and I hope to have a door by the time I get home
*sings again* I have a prom dress *prances round like an idiot*

lol! XD http://movies.yahoo.com/movie/1809786001/trailer

this poem is so sad I was crying when I first read it

Daddy's Poem
Her hair was up in a ponytail, her favourite dress tied with a bow.
Today was Daddy's Day at school, and she couldn't wait to go.
But her mommy tried to tell her, that she probably should stay home.
Why the kids might not understand if she went to school alone.
But she was not afraid; she knew just what to say. What to tell her
Classmates of why he wasn't there today.
But still her mother worried, for her to face this day alone. And that was
Why once again, she tried to keep her daughter home.
But the little girl went to school eager to tell them all about a dad she never sees, a dad who never calls.

There were daddies along the wall in back, for every one to meet.
Children squirming impatiently, anxious in their seats.
One by one the teacher called a student from the class. To introduce their
daddy, as seconds slowly passed.
At last the teacher called her name, every child turned to stare.

Each of them was searching, a man who wasn't there.
"Where's her daddy at?" She heard a boy call out.
"She probably doesn't have one," another student dared to shout.
And from somewhere near the back, she heard a daddy say,
"Looks like another deadbeat dad, too busy to waste his day."
The words did not offend her, as she smiled up at her Mom.
And looked back at her teacher, who told her to go on.
And with hands behind her back, slowly she began to speak.
And out from the mouth of a child, came words incredibly unique.

"My Daddy couldn't be here, because he lives so far away.
But I know he wishes he could be, since this is such a special day.
And though you cannot meet him, I wanted you to know.
All about my daddy, and how much he loves me so.
He loved to tell me stories he taught me to ride my bike.
He surprised me with pink roses, and taught me to fly a kite.
We used to share fudge sundaes, and ice cream in a cone.
And though you cannot see him. I'm not standing here alone.

"Cause my daddy's always with me, even though we are apart
I know because he told me, he'll forever be in my heart."
With that her little hand reached up to lie across her chest.
Feeling her own heartbeat, beneath her favourite dress.
And from somewhere here in the crowd of dads, her mother stood in tears.
Proudly watching her daughter, who was wise beyond her years.
For she stood up for the love of a man not in her life.
Doing what was best for her, doing what was right.
And when she dropped her hand back down,
Staring straight into the crowd.
She finished with a voice so soft, but its message clear and loud.
"I love my daddy very much, he's my shining star
And if he could, he'd be here, but heaven's just too far.
You see he is a Marine and died just this past year,
When a roadside bomb hit his convoy and taught Americans to fear.
But sometimes when I close my eyes, it's like he never went away. "
And then she closed her eyes, and saw him there that day.
And to her mother’s amazement, she witnessed with surprise.
A room full of daddies and children, all starting to close their eyes.
Who knows what they saw before them, who knows what they felt inside.
Perhaps for merely a second, they saw him at her side.

"I know you're with me Daddy," to the silence she called out.
And what happened next made believers of those once filled with doubt.
Not one in that room could explain it, for each of their eyes had been closed.
But there on the desk beside her, was a fragrant long-stemmed pink rose.
And a child was blessed, if only for a moment, by the love of her shining star.
And given the gift of believing, that heaven is never too far.
They say it takes a minute to find a special person, an hour to appreciate them,
a day to love them, but then an entire life to forget them.
Take the time...to live and love!
Until eternity. God bless

*dances around excitedly* i have a place at new college durham!! woot! i just have to get 5 A-C grade GCSEs i am soo there!! *dances again*

as if it wasnt bad enough that i have a bloody headache i walked all the way home to find that mam wasnt in and i lost my keys! i had to walk back the way id came to the font school and get the keys off mam and then walk all the way back! my head hurts :(

OMG! my little cousin is soo cute!! xP you just want to pick him up and squeeze him!
my auntie finally came up from where ever she lives down south so we could see him although it did take a while to get my teddy back off him :D
i'll put up some pics as soon as dad loads them onto the computer

i have no idea what courses to take at college! >_<
im definately taking english literature and im thinking about taking history, art and design and maybe critical thinking
i dont know though *ish confused*

OMG my mam was messing around with the scissors and "pretended" to cut my hair and "accidently" cut it for real!
*mutters deathwish*
you dont touch the hair!

OMFG!! one of our neighbours billy shaw (the one with the crazy dog) has had his car SET ON FIRE at 3 in the morning!
my estate is getting worse! so far weve had
-a car engine blowing up
-billy shaws garage was on fire and then BLEW UP
-a house fire that killed two people
-someone broke into our garage
-car windows smashed
-a murder
-a rape
-ileagal immigrants
-and now this!
and the police are doing shit all! tis not good!

me swimming! for anyone who doesnt know that is unheard of for me cos i hate water!
i've no idea why i'm standing like that!

BBQ on the beach! nicole's squinting again!

ummm...i have no idea! :P

also i hope noone's expecting lots of lovely scenic pictures because i'm vain and i'll only be putting up pics of meee!

moi feeding the swans! i was feeding ducks but the swans scared them away!

saw Pirates of the Carribean on holiday! it was brilliant!! jonny depp yum! :P

i'm baaaaaaaaaaaaccckkkk!!! yeyness ^^
had a great time!
the first day on the beach i got sunburn! :( but now i have a great tan! ...well on my tummy! xP i have candy rock for everones! ....well enough for ten peoples! hugs everyone!
also we left padstow at six drove all day had tea at 9:00 drove some more and i finally went to bed at 1:30! so i am knackered!

AGHHHHHHHHHHHH! SPIDER! KILL IT! oh no where'd it go! WHERE'D IT GO!!!!!!

Imaginary - Evanescence


I linger in the doorway
Of alarm clock screaming
Monsters calling my name
Let me stay
Where the wind will whisper to me
Where the raindrops
As they’re falling tell a story


[Chorus:]
In my field of paper flowers
And candy clouds of lullaby
I lie inside myself for hours
And watch my purple sky fly over me


Don’t say I’m out of touch
With this rampant chaos- your reality
I know well what lies beyond my sleeping refuge
The nightmare I built my own world to escape


[Chorus:]


Swallowed up in the sound of my screaming
Cannot cease for the fear of silent nights
Oh how I long for the deep sleep dreaming
The goddess of imaginary light


[Chorus:]

my dad has past all his exams with flying colours!!!! he is now officially an ot (ocupational therepist)!! WHHHHHHHHHHHOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOOO!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

[YOUR...]
:x: birthday =march 30th 1991
:x: age = 15
:x: shoe size = 5
:x: hair color = brown
:x: school = Stanley School of Technology
[NUMBER...]
:x: of siblings = 1
:x: of pets = none anymore
:x: of shoes = 4
:x: of piercings = ears thats 2 isn't it?
:x: of people I would classify as true, could trust with my life type friends? = don't know...
:x: of people I consider my enemies? = i don't like a few people but they're not my enemies
:x: of scars on my body? = A few
[DO...]
:x: you have a crush on someone = hell yeah!
:x: you wish you could live somewhere else = maybe..
:x: you think about suicide = ...
:x: others find you attractive = yes
:x: you want more piercings = Yes
:x: you drink = No
:x: you do drugs = No
:x: you smoke = No
:x: you like cleaning = No way!
:x: you like roller coasters = i've only ever been on one
:x: you write in cursive or print =0.o
[FAVORITE...]
:x: food = everything!!!
:x: thing to do = Talk to friends, go out with friends, annoy friends!
:x: thing to talk about = anything
:x: sports = netball i'm not very good though
:x: drinks = coke
:x: clothes = my jeans
:x: movie = ooh i have lots
:x: word = i have no idea
:x: nickname = just emma
:x: colour = blue...i think!
:x: flower = unsure maybe a forget me not
:x: actor/ress = jonny depp
[DO YOU THINK YOU ARE...]
:x: funny = a bit
:x: friendly = Yup! ^^
:x: amusing = not sure
:x: lovable = dunno
:x: caring = Yup!
:x: sweet = Yeah
:x: dorky = totally
:x: ditzy = a bit
:x: smart = can be but then i do something really stupid
:x: understanding = Yes
:x: entertaining= Yes
[HAVE YOU EVER...]
:x: Hurt yourself?: not on purpose
:x: Burped?: wtf?
:x: Been bitchy: alot! which i apologise for
:x: Used drugs?: Nope
:x: Had sex?: No
:x: Slept outdoors?: in a tent with a thick sleeping bag!
:x: Thought about suicide?:...
:x: Gone one day without food?: almost once
:x: Killed someone?: No
:x: Kissed the same sex?: No
:x: Been betrayed?: probably
:x: Had a dream that came true?: i don't think so unless becky has been eaten by a black labrador!
:x: Met a famous person?: No
:x: Stolen anything?: nope

i was bored so i "borrowed" this! ^^

Him - Wings Of A Butterfly

Heaven Ablaze in our eyes
We're standin still in time
The Blood on our hands is the wine
We offer a Sacrifice.

C'mon and show
Let Me Love
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul
My Love
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul

This endless mercy mile
We're crawlin' side by side
With her freezing over in our eyes
gods kneel before our crime

C'mon and show


 

Let Me Love
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
don't let go
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul

C'mon and show
Let Me Love
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul
My Love
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
for your soul
Rip out The Wings of a Butterfly
Don't let Go
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul

Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
Don't let go
My love
Rip out the Wings of a Butterfly
For your soul

i know my friends like this band so i went on google found their website and they are definately a good band! ^^

TIME TO DANCE


Oh please, she's not bleeding on the ballroom floor just for the attention.
That's just ridiculous... ly on. But she sure is going to get it (the attention and the bullets) here's the setting, fashion magazines line the walls, now the walls line the bullet holes.. yea you sure let her have it.

she didn't choose this role, but she'll play it and make it sincere, so you cry.
But they believe it from the tears and the teeth right down to the blood at her feet.
Boys will be boys, hiding in estrogens and Aubergine dreams.

Have some composure, and where is your posture?
oh no no! You're pulling the trigger all wrong.
Come on this is screaming photo op.
Give me envy
Flash
Give me malice
Flash
Give me attention
Flash
Give me...a break.
When I say shotgun you say wedding. Or whatever comes to mind.



i've just joined panic! at the disco lovers they are the best!!