Life SUX really bad.....im jealous.....im mad.....im depressed....and i wanna rip someone to shreads....i seriously wish that i could get over my ex but i cant....i want what me and him had back sooo bad......it is driving me insane.....i cant even date now.....all i can do i compare ppl to him....and i wanna be there for him cuz he is going through a ruff and tuff time but he wont let me.....im losing one of my best frends....and i am trying awfully hard to be happee but nothing is working....my grades are falling....im starting to lose everything...and i cant find a way out of this mess.....i want it all to stop so bad......Old habits are creeping their way inside me tempting me.....i dont want to succumb......but it gets harder every time....im starting to lose touch with reality again....things just dont seem real anymore....this all just seems to be the vivid imagination of someone.....i feel fragile....its hard to eat .....even harder to stay awake.... i love to dream.....nothing goes wrong in that world......all is well as i sleep.....then no one can hurt me....in that world i rule.....but in reality i do not equal anything.....i wish i could live in my dreams....they are pure and innocant as i once was....but now i am wasting away....before long i feel that all that will reamin is dust and after that blows away i will only be a memory....a sweet memory....nothing more.....