About time I put this down in my diary, I think...
Its a dream that I had quite a few months ago. I remember that there was a plot to it, but I don't recall any of it, other than one scene, but hopefully it will remain etched in my memory forever.

I remember that I was on a train of sorts, and between two cars were an empty bed where another car could have been, but wasn't. I was standing there, outside while the train was moving, watching the scenery fly past. It looked wonderful, but nothing breathtaking, like mountains or such, though I saw some in the distance. Instead, there was mainly a light forest. But what really dominated the dream was the figure to my left. It wore some sort of white robe that was flapping everywhere in the wind. I never got to see its face because of the robe, but I remember several things about it. One, it was all fluffy when I hugged it ^.^ And secondly, I felt feelings coming from it, so strong that I could feel them myself. All I can really call it is complete love and acceptance. All I can really call the being was God. If you understand those two sentences, then you'll understand why I'll never forget that dream. Standing somewhere beautiful, and standing next to God...

Funny quotes, by those other than me: (to be added)

- 'hejaaa! I STOLE THIS, dudes!! deal. ^^' ~SilverFire

- 'quote git from forums: "huge tag was made for giving huge hugs ;)" *mutters* bitch.' ~ SilverFire

- '*This page has been stolen by [windowframe]* *couldn't handle seeing 'lol' at the top of the page anymore*' ~ SilverFire

- ':-P it just felt right to steal it *wonders if that'll hold in court*' ~ SilverFire

*sigh* So, I've learned that yet again my life is in need of reformation...
Kind of like a further effort in banishing the 15-syndrome, as I did about last February (2004).
I have to become humble >.> Tis gonna be very hard, when I heard what I had to do. I have to stop wanting to be liked, stop wanting to be loved, stop wanting to be praised, stop wanting to be seen or encouraged. Stop wanting to have anything good from the world bestowed upon me. Very difficult. I don't want to be recognized but a little, but even that little must go. I want to be loved very much, a very large part of me. But that must go too.
This will be very difficult for me, but I am determined to succeed. It detracts from who I am, it boosts my pride, my vanity. I must get rid of this, whatever the cost...
But it will hurt :(

~Caleb

PS. After the first day of me trying this, I conclude that while it is difficult to maintain such discipline, it is not as painful or sad as I thought. It appears I underestimated myself :P

Mood: Very annoyed with family
Music: None playing

Urgh... I can't stand any of my family, anymore... They're so weird. Yes, I know your sarcastic reply in your head (And you're not?). No, I am not weird. I am normal, if a bit eccentric. At least I refine myself so it is controlled, displayed at only the moments it is best.
My parents are so picky. So particular. So stupid. But even worse, so fake. And clueless, as well.
My siblings are so loud its embarrasing. They are not refined. They are wild, and even more clueless.
My entire family knows how to push my buttons. Lack of repsect, lack of self-control, and lack of common sense.
Bah! Useless complaining, they just ruin my day...

And yes, I know how self-centered that makes me sound. It makes me sound like a jerk. But I'm not, and you'll have to trust me on that point. I am just very very annoyed.

On another note, I have decided to further my growth in my faith by doing something about the groups of people who have exhibited 15-syndrome that have always bothered me around Elftown. I wish all the people I message to understand that I mean no offense in my messages. However, I do admit that it is an intrusion into your life. I do not apologize, either. Tolerance can go either way. By this I mean that I can tolerate your being different, and become complacent, or you can tolerate my religion, which does in fact call me to intrude on other people's lives to spread my wonderful faith.
If my views offend you, by all means say so, and I will end conversation with you. On another side note, I will not message anyone more than once with my attempts to spread my 'light'.

Mood: Very good right now.
Music: General stuff (y'know, the FF works)

*Gasp* I've been nameplated!

This made by a person who claims not to be very good :P
Plenty of talent here...

Time: 1:34 AM (why are these things always late at night? :P)
Music: Just finished a finale, some pretty upbeat stuff :)

Time for another entry. This time I think I'm gonna complain :P

Something that really annoys me, and my friend SilverFire made a very good point of this in her bio too, is when people call something x-mas. That takes the entire point out of it. If you don't have the guts to say Christmas, you definately aren't Christian. And frankly, if you aren't Christian, it isn't your holiday ;) So leave off on it. You have nothing to say about it. If you aren't Christian, you are celebrating Christmas out of the idea of either 1) Yay I like getting stuff (selfishness), or 2) I like giving people things (generosity). Hate to break it to you, but Christmas isn't about either. Sure, generosity is great, but its actually about Jesus. And I'm sure that atheists don't sit down and think "Oh, what a marvelous day it was, 2000 years ago," before they have at their presents. They miss the entire thing... I find it insulting whenever I see "x-mas", cause I start thinking, "Oh WAIT! You just took out what it's all about!!?" What do you have left? Presents. Christmas should seriously be a "Christians only" day :P

Mood: Content & relaxed
Music: None, about to go to bed...

Whew... Been a while since I've been here with some real entries... I'm glad to say most everything is looking up. I've renovated my house (ET house :D), and its much prettier now. Much thanks to the Elftown Graphics! Wonderful idea, Calico! I must admit, I didn't like it at first, but once entries got started, the entire thing just took off, and I'm amazed at the quantity & quality both. My Utopia account is looking pretty good. Finally using all my resources. I used to have excess money, stealth, and mana, but now my mages are exhausted, money is gone (gave some newbie in my kingdom 1 million gold, upon request @.@), stealth is nothing... Food holding out alright, should improve... I'm worried somewhat about money, but it should be alright... Started a similar game, called Aegis. Has a little potential, but it just left beta-testing phase, so it has quite a few problems still... My school work is getting close to finished... Just need to watch movies (^__^). Heh, My pokèmon game is going alright, too...
As for now, I'm gonna go to bed! G'night!

~Caleb

My secret wiki's wiki headquarter:
Templar's excessivly bored page (For excessively bored people)

~Caleb

Mood: A bit anxious, but satisfied
Music: Wandering Flame (slow, peaceful music)
My apologies for all who I have ended my relations with. We simply don't talk enough, or interact enough to be called friends... If you want, we could start again...
~Caleb

Mood: Generally Happy
Music: Slow FF 8-ish stuff, currently. Like it a bunch.

Hello. I'm doing quite well now. Not sad at all... In fact, I'm feeling very nice. Comfy, a bit hot, but oh well. I can live with that :)
I think I'd be perfect right now if I could be writing poetry... I wish I had a topic to write about... I'm an inspirational-author only type of writer... Without inspiration, I'm useless :P
My brother got his FF 8 OST. I've restrained from burning it so he can burn me a copy for me for my birthday, lol. But there's nothing stopping me from getting a few songs onto my playlist now, is there? The music, naturally, is very good. Unfortunately, I am worrying about later. In a few months, I wonder if I will even hear it when it comes on, because I've heard it just as much as my other pieces... That kind of thing happens, and I just stop appreciating the great music. Oh well, I can deal with that, too, I guess.
I finished my final book for summer reading, just gotta write the report, then I can start on the movies. Could take a while, for that report. I'm feeling rather lazy these days, I'm afraid :P

Feeling very relieved that a small report is the biggest of my concerns,
~Caleb

My Utopia stuff, for anyone who's interested (Mainly for my own tracking...):
Pshh... I ended my Utopian account. No time

A Simple Man's Wish
My poetry place, gotta add more later... Along with my Seraphim poem...

Note to self:
Great quote- 1 Corinthions 12:3b-7

*sigh*
It depresses me to see all the goths, homosexuals, and supporters of homosexuals around ET... Kinda ruins it for me, knowing that half the people I may see could be a bad influence of some sort, or someone I shouldn't be chatting with... But I'm glad to be who I am, in my religion... Its safe there... Wiccans and homosexuals tend to stay away from religion, and its now a safe-haven...

~Caleb

Augh... Having a great day, until my sister got started with her 'April Fool's-ing ' .... She has the worst ideas... I didn't pull any today, cause I think its mean... But she has the worst ideas...

"Oh, Caleb! I had a great April fool's idea for you! I was gonna switch your Final Fantasy playlist with my Sailor Moon one!"

As if thats funny... Or even playful... Its hard to get all those 350+ files together... And she would've destroyed it...

Or, how about this one:
"Oh yeah! Then, I was thinking about unplugging the PS2."

She doesn't even know how. She just thinks its funny to annoy me. Probably because I'm too gentle to stop her... She amuses herself with ways to ruin my things... And what do you know? Just yesterday, she was asking me to help her with math... As if I were something she could get help from, then treat like a piece of junk...

"****"

Whatever... I wouldn't say that... Just feel like cursing...

Stupid sister...
~Caleb

And, my playlist stretches now to a whopping 13:39 total.
It contains all the tracks from FF VII, FF IX, and FF X.
If you would like any tracks from those games, just ask. I could either e-mail them to you, or give them to you by AIM.
If you want a few but don't know whats good, or have never heard of the games but are interested, just tell me, give me an idea of your preference/mood, and I could pick out a few good ones ^_^

Okay, maybe more like 30 good ones, but, you know! ^_^

~Later! Caleb

Oooh... I was accepted as a Templar of the Monastary of Light! That place looks awesome! click the link!