i hope we all arnt falling apart.we were all so close once upon a time. it was always me,soph,raz and poynor.now we are devided.i dont like it. i feel on my own.the only person who understands me is poynor....i love him.poynor and raz are forever having a go at each other and that upsets me.on sat,i burst out crying in a library,because i had to chose between my friend of boyfriend.raz said she would make an effort,that lasted until today.she yelled at him for no reason.he works, so when he finishes work, he starts being a tad immature,and apparently,she doesnt like it.he makes a hell of an effort with her,but now, i dont think they want to be friends,and it is ripping me from the inside out.im torn in two,and i dont know what to do.im so confused...

im crying.....my tears are dreanching me...i love him soooo much........but i seem to upset every one round me.my friend raz is pissed at me,she always yells at poynor and i hate it,i dont want to lose here. i dont know whats wrong with her.and i seem to upset him all the time......but i love him.he said to me today thet he thinks it wont last,he just rang me,he realy does think that im too good for him,but im not,if anything,its the other way round.iv given soo many thing up for him,because i love him and i wanted to.i dont want to loose him.he means sooooooooo much too me.if i didnt have him,i would be non existant.i want to make things right between every one,i need to heal the rift,or it will widen,and never be able to be repaired. im so happy around him.unles i feel bad about something,the i push him out,but i dont mean to. i want him soo bad,i want my friends to be o.k with it.maby if i spent more time with them,and less time with poynor,then...........but i want to spend all my time with him......i love him......

I love him.......

heheh!!!school was fun to day,but i miss poynor!!!!!nooooooooo!!!!but i can c him tomorow!!!!and on sat my oldies are going out,so i wonder what we will be doing *wink,wink*!!! heheheheh!!! i love him!!!!

tast the blood

The flinch in your eye calls your bluff
Feel free to die when you've had enough
Useless cause is breaking your back
Your life will end when you attack

Make your move
Make your stand
Make the win
Ha, like you can

See the war
See me rule
See the mirror
You'll see a fool

To take me out you must fight like a man
You've yet to prove that you can
You've yet to prove me that you can
I see your might and it compares to something
That is if something is nothing

Time to figure
Time to sin
Your time is done
When you * begin

Live for suffer
Live for revenge
Now your life
Comes to an end

Taste the blood
Taste your fate
Swallow your pride
With your hate

Your last breathe
your last stance
The last of all
In your command

Knee in the blood with your crying pleas
Wade in your sorrow, bathe in your fear
Clear the mind from righteousness suffer
Witness the moment of your failures prosper

the devils cry-devil may cry3

Steel a soul for a second chance
But you will never become a man
My chosen torture makes me stronger
In a life that craves the hunger
A Freedom and a quest for life
Until the end * the judgment night

Stepping forth a cure for soul's demise
Reap the tears of the victim’s cries
Yearning more to hear the suffer of a
Of a demon as I put it under

Killed before a time to kill them all
Passed down the righteous law
Serve a justice that dwells in me
Lifeless corpse as far as the eye can see

The eye can see
The eye can see
The eye can see

(Clean voice lyrics)

We are falling
The light is calling
Tears inside me
Coming me down

Bless me with the
Leaf off of the tree
On it I see
The freedom reign

We are falling
The light is calling
Tears inside
Calm me down

Midnight calling
Mist of resolving
Crown me, with the
Pure green leaf

Bless me with the
Leaf off of the tree
On it I see
The freedom reign

Praise to my father
Blessed by the water
Black night, dark sky
The devil’s cry

(Shawn Mcpherson voice over clean voice lyrics)

The power's proven to end the madness
Upon I take it to end the savage
The rays of light a truth of meaning
To my father the blood is pleading

A justice rage for all to feel
With innocent cries and hatred squeals
The gore of evil seems to satisfy
When slain an maimed and pacified

My chosen torture makes me stronger
In a life that craves the hunger
A Freedom and a quest for life
Until the end the judgment night

Watch the footsteps but never follow
If you want to live tomorrow
Steel a soul for a second chance
But you will never become a man

im going out with my best mates today!iv got to get my school stuff for tomorow!and iv got to get £210 out of the bank so i can buy me a psp!!!yay!!!anywho...... i best get dressed as im sitting here with a towel wrapped around me cuz i just got out of the bath!!bye-bye

p.s, i love matty!!!!!!!!!

yaaaaaay!finaly got all of my home work done!!!took long enough!!aaaaaaand i get to see poynor tonight!!! super yay!!!

jub,jub,jub,jub.what to do......iv still got that art hmwk to finish by today,cuz if i dont,i wont be able to see poynor. :(....>^.^< hehe,kitty!! im stuck for ideas though,then again i might do it later and go play metal gear solid 3 for a bit.or devil may cry! bysey bye!!!il wright again later!

yay !!one of my palls joined up!!! [SxeLilMinx]!!!!yaaaaaaaaaay!!!!im in a bit of a hypo!!! yay new picks of me and my hot boyfriend!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!yaaaaaaaaaaaaaaay!!!!!!

yay!! he texted me!! i phoned him 3 times and he didnt pick up.i started to worry. i love him soooo much.i want him to be happy.like me.he makes me the happiest iv been within my memory!!!

I love him.

I hope it lasts a loooong time.

it will,im sure of it.

I love you, Poynor.

yeah...... i just rememberd somthing....its a poem from my fave book,the devils footsteps by E.E Richardson

one if fire,two in blood,
three in storm and four in flood,
five in anger,six in hate,
seven fear and evil eight,
nine in sorrow,ten in pain,
eleven death,twelve life again,
thirteen steps to the darkmans door,
wont be turning back no more.

man,i love that poem!!eh heh heh. seriously you people should read it. or go and play the metal gear solid series which i happen to adore!!not to mention the devil may cry series!!!!man, dante is cool!! except the second one is crap,but as i like to say,hey,there we go

hello!!wow!!!im soooo happy!!!H-A-P-P-Y!!!:D for my life is great(apart from that god forsaken game .hack//infection which i cannot complete and im going to throw it out of the window next time i play it and fail)oh well il get over it! one of my best buddies is coming back from hols soon so my mates and i will b going out soon.and im sure i can get my boy friend to come too !i love him sooooo much!!and my friends!!i love them soooo much too!!!!i still hate my perants though.stupid grown ups.still....i never knew that a man could make me sooooo happy!! and i got me a new MP3 player.ahhhhhhhh,i love my life......what to do ,what to do......oh well.i best shift my arse and go do some art homework.yaaaaay.bye-bye!