sigh, why are guys so complicated????!!!!

i keep hearing that joey is cheating on me...ok, ok. i dont keep hearing, but i heard it today. I confronted him about it, and he said it wasn't true, and i guess i should believe him, but its frustrating. i just want a guy that will love me for me, and that will be there for me, and that i can be there for them. someone my age. someone to have fun with, and be able to trust. i had thought i had found this in joey, but im not sure to tell you the truth anymore.......

sigh.....i dunno. AND THEN i got detension today! for tardies that were excused!! goodness life kinda, no REALLY REALLY REALLY sucks right now....

im at the end of the rope, and im about to make the fall......................

sigh, i cant WAIT for christmas!!! im so excited. im gettin XXX rated!!!! lol, just playin'.

N-E-whoo.....ya, Joey and I are working things out, and i think we're back to our better part of the relationship. i really like him, but he can just be so immature...lol oh well, life goes on. hes still a sweetie, or at least to me.;)

i wish it would snow. We're having a christmas party tonight at work, and im excited, Beth, Laticia, & My mom are all coming too!!! im so excited!!! and i been singin christmas tunes all mornin'lol. *blush* even though i cant sing very well. Beth can verify for that one. so can Jess....hehe

School is going ok...i have one F, but the rest are B's and A's. but all is well in love and War. but in my case Work, school and home. hehe. me so horney.....hehe

ttyl Love YALL!!!

          The Blue Eyed Angel
~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
 ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~
    ~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

I walk blind folded through the night as it rains. Her calm simered voice slowly repeating her words in a soft wisper that keeps me walking in a straight path. The words slowly echo through my mind. I drop to my knees with pain and fear in my eyes and I wonder what i did to deserve this blue eyed creature that i hold so close to me.......

As i fear that some one as beautiful as her would find someone down the road more loving, kind, and inteligent. As im headed down an over the once green, yellow, and orange leaves, i look down and find the leves are not these colors any longer....they are red as the fear in my eyes once were....

I feel that i'm the one to look up to her with the pain in her eyes ever so closely..draws the retreated curage that i now call my sole....

She lifts me to my feet oce more. Those soft words still echo through my mind as he slowly sends another transparent set of words through my mind. She leaves me hanging there with these words" Ilove you and I will never leave you. Your...." Still i search for her . I am straing to find the rest of the sentence as she swalks away.

The pieces of me are still scadered out. While i try to collect them, she watches me from her complex window. I get on my feet, walk towards her as i see her glance at me every once and a while. I make it to the first door. I call the clerk. I slowly approach him with fear in my eyes as he asks me what i need.

I slowly describe her to him. Her march stone eye color, her one of a kind smile that would win a emmy at the MSS contest (most sexy smile contest), her beautiful light complection, her heart that men would die to be treated.

"Her heart is set on one man" he told me. Try if you wish. I felt my heart drop as i started to walk to her room. I knock on the door three times. She knows i'm there. I feal the pain rise back to my eyes. My head drops. I start to walk away. She opens the door and calls myname with a sweer charm to her voice. 

I walk over to her. She tells me once agian, " I Love you and I will never leave you. Your a big part of me." I feel my heart crumble. Not of anger, not of pain, but of joy that this girl is ment for me. 

A tear drop runs down my face. She wipes it away, then presses her lips to mine. I push her away and ask her, "What is your name, and how do you know me?" She tells me she is an angel. She once again presses her lips to mine. I dont push away, but i accept it. This time she tells me.... 

          ...............................My name is Cassandra.......................

~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~~

This story was writin by my honey Bunch Joey Kittle!!!!!


love always and forever,

Angeltears17~~~a.k.a.~Cassie, your baby girl

when i take a look into your deep eyes
i find secret untold
i see the hurt and pain
the hurt that can never be healed
the pain beyond imagination
i am longing to provide help and comfort to your burdened soul
my heart wants to bring light
into your world full of darkness
to bring joy and happiness
into your world filled with darkness and despair
seeing and almost feeling your hopelessness
my heart sinks
it's too overwhelming
what a burden for you to bear
yet you bottle it up inside beneath your smile
you hide it in your eyes
and in your eyes the truth lies
your life, feelings and secrets has been unveiled
it has been flashed before MY eyes
No point hiding
I have already seen inside
YOUR DEEP EYES


...........just a little poem....your eyes really are the window to your soul.....

You're fading away...

By: Dri Cook

I never thought
it could happen,
finally you're
fading away...
little by little you vanish
from my memory,
I can tell you're
going out of sight,
so many days
wrapped in tears,
you really never got
to understand the
unchanging truth that home
is a place where we find
direction,
you deserted before we won,
'Love me in full',
I asked...
but you never
looked back,
you left without a word,
not even a glance...
now I smile
leaving the fears behind,
there are days my face still
trembles with tears,
but I'm getting ready
to love again...
a fond desire
to start over...
you're fading away,
losing your strenght
in my heart,
you're not a bright spot anymore,
now you're just
a shadow,
a dim shape of
a strange type of love

i have this friend. i really like her. so far, shes been there when i needed her. she's never critized me like most people do. very little do you ever meet a friend like this. mabey once or twice in a life time.... Never has she put me down, or used me to her advantage, but she's happy for me in whatever decisions that i make... she doesnt say "dump your troubles on the lord", or crap like that, she gives the best advise that she can. She's a true friend....

just know im here for you too. if you need anything, my shoulder is here for you to cry on, and my ears are here to listen. if you need anything, just call me, and ill be there.

                   thanxz....you know who you are.

                             ; )

Last night was so fucking awsome!!! I had a lot of fun at work. It was really slow, and we were all just listening to music, and dancing and stuff. AND I LEARNED TO MOON WALK!!! lol. im really hungry though. havent eatin anything yet. i guess i could say that i was bulemic(sp). I wont eat in front of people. i feel like a pig. I mean i know im not fat, but i dont wanna get any bigger than i already am. Then I eat when i get home. So, i dont really eat much. I torched Joey today! lol. We were infront of the ag building today, and i gave him blue balls. i kept kissing him. lol. its funny. LAUGH!!! hehehe. But, ya. I was kinda feeling down yesterday after lunch, but then i felt a LOT better. i had so much fun last night. I hope today is just as fun.