This lovely little bit was written about me about a year ago, after my worst life screw up to date. so if you know french you know how pissed she really was. enjoy.









Je suis sûr que vous pensez que je suis cassé. Cette personne délicate que vous imaginez, écrasé aux morceaux et unmended- a utilisé, n'est pas cassé. L'amertume n'est pas une option pour moi. L'espoir est. Quand je pense de toutes les choses j'ai perdu soit-disant je me suis rendu compte j'ai gagné plus que ce que m'est parti, ou que je suis parti derrière. Un ami qui trahit, un garçon qui serait parti finalement et une leçon de vie dans la conduite. J'ai ne perd pas une déchirure pour notre amitié perdue, pour votre avenir perdu que vous tournez dans la fumée et le sexe. Je suis libre de cela- je suis plein de vie, quelque chose vrai que vous ne saurez jamais. Je suis plein d'amour & je ne suis pas vous le donnant.

"Out of the corner of my eye won't be the only way you're looking at me then..."

The Beautiful Words of [Cascading water lillies]




Silence is the word
Spill forth from fruitful lips
From a hot spring of flowing petals
You cloud the mind
Like a drug
Spill forth
Into the blood stream
You make a cold heart
Feel things they never felt
Melt a frown into a smile
You teach me to love
The way love has never explored
One's mind in love
A philosophy suspend upon a higher level
Your kiss a theory
Of melodious angels
Explode into the ears
Drown the senses
And lace the blood with intoxicating fruit
This love so devine
You must indeed be an angel
Sent to teach us to love and trust
Your skin of the palest of milk
Lips of rose petals
You are the art
I longed to paint
The art I wanted
To touch
The canvas, the philosophies built upon
Empires of old
Each taught
Of the finer art that is love
Art, philosophy and literature
The language of the gods
The necter for us, love
We learnt to sew diamonds in the sky
Just to please us
You gave us everything
You gave us your love
You gave us art


      - Ella

you know how when you get on here you com eto mainstreet and down the right side they put up the second pic of random people, well i thought i'd never see the day but not only was mine up there, but so was some one i know(Rachel). that is so wierd and i bet i never see it again

so yesterday i found out that i have shingles. Right when i heard that my heart dropped buty the Nurse seemed so light hearted about it like nothing was wrong. I don't know about you but when i think shingles i think like some 1800s VD that killed a whole bunch of people, but no all it is is the reappearance of Chicken pox. whew a sigh of releif, then she says its in the Herpes Family, and again I Freak Out. yeah i have herpes(not literally) and to make it better the medicine for it is Valtrex, thats the pure breed herpes meds as seen on t.v. and again i'm like yay. 
 My Dad says that both my grandfathers had it too, unfortunately they said it was pretty painful, but they were also a lot older than me when they got it and i think that chicken pox gets worse with age. so i got to take the herpes meds for a while and stay away from any one who either has weak imune systems such as Infants, Sickly, Anyone on Kemo(which sucks cause my friends mom is on kemo and i love her to death), or with HIV/AIDS. also i gots to keep away from anyone who hasn't had Chickenpox yet, here lies the biggest burden. It just so happens that the one person that i want to spend the most time with out of anyone right now has never had chicken pox, so i got to keep away from them, and its going to suck more than any thing else , i am pretty sure we're not gonna stay away very well and i'll end up giving them Chicken pox at an older stage which will ruin their plans right now, plus our plans for this holiday break. 



i really hate Shingles