[Morningstar Rising]'s diary

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Written about Tuesday 2007-02-27
Written: (6481 days ago)
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ONE AS WEAK AS I



I spend my life in pain
Afraid to say my name
Like thunder roaring loud
Silence binds me down
The weight upon my chest
Crashes me to the ground
I try to rise in vain
My legs they let me down
I lay back on the ground
My eyes casted to the sky
I pray for help to come
But no one hears my silent cries
My tears they roll down free
As my life seeps out of me
The world it grows so dark
And yet a light I see
I wonder where I'm bound
If God still loves me so
If the gates of heaven will open
For one as weak as I
My life is full of regrets
Of things unsaid and done
Of yesterdays that are gone
Of tomorrows that will never come
Today is almost done
And with it is my life
Darkness fills my eyes
No more sunrises will I see
I wonder if God still loves me
If the gates of heaven will open
For one as weak as I
914300  Link to this entry 
Written about Monday 2007-02-26
Written: (6482 days ago)
900947  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2007-01-21
Written: (6518 days ago)


Elftown Wiki Poetry Dueling Arena



Yay Me my poem is in a duel at Realistic, go check it out



SISTERS



Sisters, what rivalry there is
Festering from childhood through out the years
It's funny how that came to be
To many tales to tell you see
A bond of trust there is no more
Broken by the many lies one told
A bad word here, a hushed up lie
The hurt to deep cuts like a knife


Sisters, they'll never speak again
One took and took, the other gave
It hurts like hell to learn the truth
Of hate so raw it cannot hide
Blinded are her eyes no more
She's seen the light, how sad she feels
Her love was true all through the years


Sisters, their lives have taken seperate paths
The needs, the wants, that we all have
To share true love is joy untold
When blood feuds blood the tears they flow
The price is great, so much is lost
Each and every passing day

893255  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-12-31
Written: (6539 days ago)
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Today is a sad day for me, it is the first year that I will spend without my mom, she passed away last New Year's Eve.
I can celebrate the passing of the old year into the new year, but it will never be the same for me.
I will always recall the found memories I have of mom.
Every New Year's Eve she had to have 12 grapes and we all had to have them cause it was tradition.
She use to say, 'One grape, sweet and ripe, picked from the earth, to give you life. One grape for every month of the New Year to fill you with sweetness and full of cheer.'

Her name was Josepha Sanchez, she was the light that held my family together.
Since she has been gone, the family that she so loved has drifted far apart.
For her I shead the tears that I do not normally shead for others when they pass.
She bore nine children into this world.
Married when she was only 13 (a child herself), to a man 10 years her senior.
There marriage lasted a life time, he was the love of her life.
After his death, Mom was never the same.
Though she went on with her life from day to day, she missed him more then life itself
If she could have died when dad did, Mom would have, but she out lived him by 11 years and died at the same age as he did, 71.

Mom I really miss you very much. The long conversations we use to have on the telephone.
The late night calls when you could not sleep and needed just to hear one of your childrens voice
The chinese dinners that you loved so much, even though I did not care for chinese food that much.
The spanish concerts that you use to drag us to, even though we protested that it was not our type of music, we still had a great time
Your laughter and the smile that use to light up your face and make your dark brown eyes glow with life.
The bingo nights that you so loved to go to, even though you hardly ever won.
I miss you Mom, more then I can put into words.
More then I ever thought that I would.

My heart cries for my loss and leaps with joy because I had you in my life.
I look at your picture and smile, remembering the good and the bad times we shared.
I hope to see you again one day Mom, but not to soon cause I still have a lot of living to do.

I hope that you are happy were ever you are.
I love you Mom, now and always, from here to the end of time.
Till we meet again Mom, know that you were loved,
that you are still loved and that you will live forever in my heart.
Hugs and Kisses Mom, and a pinch or two here and there. LOL

Love Always YOur Daughter
Star

889550  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-12-21
Written: (6549 days ago)

I came on yesterday and got the nicest surprise, someone gave me a wonderful Christmas present. They donated funds to Elfpack in my name. I would like to thank whom ever it was that donated funds in my name. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, from the bottom of heart. I wish you the very best in the the new coming year and hope that your Christmas is filled with lots of wonderful stuff.

Hugs and kisses, Love Shay
888760  Link to this entry 
Written about Tuesday 2006-12-19
Written: (6552 days ago)

Stolen from Debbie, who stole it from Lys, who stole it from Ki

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Shay
2. Tita
3. Shorty
4. Lovie

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. Puerto Rico
2. New York
3. New Jersey
4. Florida

C) 4 jobs you have had in your life:
1. Typist
2. Accounting Clerk
3. Assistant Buyer (Childrens Ware)
4. Nannie

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. The Fifth Element
2. Resident Evil
3. Ghost
4. Cinderella

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. Lost
2. Medium
3. CSI
4. Star Gate

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Puerto Rico
2. Disney World {Orlando Florida)
3. Finland
4. Fort Lauderdale (Florida)

G) 4 websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Elftown
2. Gaia On Line
3. Elfpack
4. The Doll Palace

H) 4 of your favourite foods:
1. Salmon
2. Peanut Butter and Jam
3. French Crepes
4. Chocolate Covered Strawberries

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Cat's (But I love them anyway)
2. Strawberries (Still eat them)
3. Pollen, Dust, Dander
4. Flowers

J) 4 of your siblings names (if you have any):
1. Iris
2. Carlos
3. Jose
4. Rosa Maria

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1. England
2. Hawaii
3. Australia
4. Alaska

L) 4 of your pets:
1. Cat (Spooky)
2. Dog (Sky)
3. Love Bird (Bubbles)
4. Hamster (Butter)

M) 4 things you want for Christmas this year:
1. My Own PC
2. My Own Apartment
3. My own Cell
4. Loads Of Games

863647  Link to this entry 
Written about Sunday 2006-10-15
Written: (6616 days ago)


My Brothers Bed

[A Halloween Story]


850629  Link to this entry 
Written about Saturday 2006-09-09
Written: (6653 days ago)
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IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW...
I want to know 20 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my list, so let me know with whom I am friends! copy and paste to the reply and send it to me!


1.Your Full Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Movie:

5. Favorite Song:

6. Favorite Band/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of elftown?

2. Whats your philosophy on life?

3. Would you have my back in a fight?

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

5. What is your favorite memory of us?

6. Would you give me a kidney?

7. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:

8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

9. Can we get together and make a cake?

10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?

11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

12. Do you think I'm a good person?

13. Would you drive across country with me?

14. Where is your favorite place in the world?

15. If you could change anything about me, would you?

16. What do you wear to sleep?

17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

18. Whats your favorite cartoon?

19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

20. Would you be a fellow ninja with me?

21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?




808602  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-06-15
Written: (6738 days ago)
Next in thread: 808626

THE DARKNESS


I feel the world crumbling around me
Like quicksand under my feet
I slowly start to sink
My heart feels empty and hollow
My mind won't let me think
The darkness it surrounds me
Kissing me warmly on my cheek


My tears no longer fall
The well in me has dried
My lips no longer smile
My eyes no longer see
The words are locked inside me
Buried deep within my soul
Surrounded by the darkness
That threatens to swallow me whole


I stumble towards the light
Dragging myself with all my might
The darkness at my heels
Whispering secrets of delight
Begging me to run no more
To lay down by its side


I feel the world crumbling around me
Shaking me right to the core
Aided by this dark deep darkness
That consumes the air I breathe
Leaving me helpless, breathless, hopeless
Struggling to stay alive
As the days they past me by


Though I try not to remember
My dark past flashes over me
Filling me with such deep sorrow
That consumes my waking dreams
With heavy heart and aching soul
I reach out to the darkness
Embracing it forever more


Morningstar Rising
         
798331  Link to this entry 
Written about Thursday 2006-05-25
Written: (6758 days ago)

Sad that I don't write here much, and when I do its about something sad. 

Two of my cats passed away and I am heart-broken, I had them since they were babys. They were beautiful and loved me unconditionaly. I am happy that they were a part of my life for so long. One was 15 and the other would have been 10. They were like night and day, so different from one another, with their own moods and passions. I will miss them with all my heart and soul.

I know ppl wonder how can one get so attached to a pet, especially a cat. But it happens just like one gets attached to a baby, or a boyfriend, or girlfriend. We all love in our own ways, and so do our pets. They don't judge us, or yell at us. or call us names. All they want to do is show you that they love you and hope that you love them back just as much.

To my babies, cause they were my babies, I pray that they are at peace and in a better place. I hope that they are running free, chasing birds and butterflies, but not hurting them. I hope that one day I will see them again when my time comes to depart this world that I have grown to love so much. Until then my babies, I wish you love.

780085  Link to this entry 
Written about Wednesday 2006-04-19
Written: (6795 days ago)
Next in thread: 787763

This diary is not empty any more, but it is still sad. I am sad. I am upset. I am crying. I don't know what I did to piss off my friends. I guess maybe I should just stay away from here for a while. 

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