Kind of blue today, lost someone who I thought was a really good friend of mine. Made me cry cause I really did not expect it. I thought that even though people change, when you are true friends you can work through anything. Guess I was wrong, even friendships that blossom like spring flowers, eventually die. If I had a child, I would have loved my child to be like this friend. This friend held nothing back, told it like it was, gave their opinion even if you did not agree with it. This friend I will miss more then they will ever know. I wish them well from my heart and hope that they have a wonderful life. I want this friend to know that I will never forget them, even if they no longer wish to be my friend. I don't know if they will ever read this, but I had to write down how I felt, its the only way I know how to express myself.

Sad and Confussed Star

Today is a sad day for me, it is the first year that I will spend without my mom, she passed away last New Year's Eve.
I can celebrate the passing of the old year into the new year, but it will never be the same for me.
I will always recall the found memories I have of mom.
Every New Year's Eve she had to have 12 grapes and we all had to have them cause it was tradition.
She use to say, 'One grape, sweet and ripe, picked from the earth, to give you life. One grape for every month of the New Year to fill you with sweetness and full of cheer.'

Her name was Josepha Sanchez, she was the light that held my family together.
Since she has been gone, the family that she so loved has drifted far apart.
For her I shead the tears that I do not normally shead for others when they pass.
She bore nine children into this world.
Married when she was only 13 (a child herself), to a man 10 years her senior.
There marriage lasted a life time, he was the love of her life.
After his death, Mom was never the same.
Though she went on with her life from day to day, she missed him more then life itself
If she could have died when dad did, Mom would have, but she out lived him by 11 years and died at the same age as he did, 71.

Mom I really miss you very much. The long conversations we use to have on the telephone.
The late night calls when you could not sleep and needed just to hear one of your childrens voice
The chinese dinners that you loved so much, even though I did not care for chinese food that much.
The spanish concerts that you use to drag us to, even though we protested that it was not our type of music, we still had a great time
Your laughter and the smile that use to light up your face and make your dark brown eyes glow with life.
The bingo nights that you so loved to go to, even though you hardly ever won.
I miss you Mom, more then I can put into words.
More then I ever thought that I would.

My heart cries for my loss and leaps with joy because I had you in my life.
I look at your picture and smile, remembering the good and the bad times we shared.
I hope to see you again one day Mom, but not to soon cause I still have a lot of living to do.

I hope that you are happy were ever you are.
I love you Mom, now and always, from here to the end of time.
Till we meet again Mom, know that you were loved,
that you are still loved and that you will live forever in my heart.
Hugs and Kisses Mom, and a pinch or two here and there. LOL

Love Always YOur Daughter
Star

I came on yesterday and got the nicest surprise, someone gave me a wonderful Christmas present. They donated funds to Elfpack in my name. I would like to thank whom ever it was that donated funds in my name. THANK YOU, THANK YOU, THANK YOU, from the bottom of heart. I wish you the very best in the the new coming year and hope that your Christmas is filled with lots of wonderful stuff.

Stolen from Debbie, who stole it from Lys, who stole it from Ki

A) 4 Names people call you:
1. Shay
2. Tita
3. Shorty
4. Lovie

B) 4 places you have lived:
1. Puerto Rico
2. New York
3. New Jersey
4. Florida

C) 4 jobs you have had in your life:
1. Typist
2. Accounting Clerk
3. Assistant Buyer (Childrens Ware)
4. Nannie

D) 4 movies you could watch over and over:
1. The Fifth Element
2. Resident Evil
3. Ghost
4. Cinderella

E) 4 TV shows you love to watch:
1. Lost
2. Medium
3. CSI
4. Star Gate

F) 4 Places you have been on vacation:
1. Puerto Rico
2. Disney World {Orlando Florida)
3. Finland
4. Fort Lauderdale (Florida)

G) 4 websites you visit daily (or semi-weekly):
1. Elftown
2. Gaia On Line
3. Elfpack
4. The Doll Palace

H) 4 of your favourite foods:
1. Salmon
2. Peanut Butter and Jam
3. French Crepes
4. Chocolate Covered Strawberries

I) 4 things you are allergic to:
1. Cat's (But I love them anyway)
2. Strawberries (Still eat them)
3. Pollen, Dust, Dander
4. Flowers

J) 4 of your siblings names (if you have any):
1. Iris
2. Carlos
3. Jose
4. Rosa Maria

K) 4 places you would love to travel to:
1. England
2. Hawaii
3. Australia
4. Alaska

L) 4 of your pets:
1. Cat (Spooky)
2. Dog (Sky)
3. Love Bird (Bubbles)
4. Hamster (Butter)

M) 4 things you want for Christmas this year:
1. My Own PC
2. My Own Apartment
3. My own Cell
4. Loads Of Games

IF YOU'RE ON MY FRIENDS LIST, I WANNA KNOW...
I want to know 20 things about you. I don't care if we've never talked, never liked each other, or if we already know everything about each other. I really don't. You are obviously on my list, so let me know with whom I am friends! copy and paste to the reply and send it to me!


1.Your Full Name:

2. Age:

3. Single or Taken:

4. Favorite Movie:

5. Favorite Song:

6. Favorite Band/Artist:

7. Dirty or Clean:

8. Tattoos and/or Piercings:

HERE COMES THE FUN ... ... ...

1. Do we know each other outside of elftown?

2. Whats your philosophy on life?

3. Would you have my back in a fight?

4. Would you keep a secret from me if you thought it was in my best interest?

5. What is your favorite memory of us?

6. Would you give me a kidney?

7. Tell me one odd/intresting fact about you:

8. Would you take care of me when I'm sick?

9. Can we get together and make a cake?

10. Have you heard any rumors of me lately?

11. Do you/have you talk(ed) crap about me?

12. Do you think I'm a good person?

13. Would you drive across country with me?

14. Where is your favorite place in the world?

15. If you could change anything about me, would you?

16. What do you wear to sleep?

17. Would you come over for no reason just to hang out?

18. Whats your favorite cartoon?

19. If I only had one day to live, what would we do together?

20. Would you be a fellow ninja with me?

21. Will you post this so I can fill it out for you?

Sad that I don't write here much, and when I do its about something sad. 

Two of my cats passed away and I am heart-broken, I had them since they were babys. They were beautiful and loved me unconditionaly. I am happy that they were a part of my life for so long. One was 15 and the other would have been 10. They were like night and day, so different from one another, with their own moods and passions. I will miss them with all my heart and soul.

I know ppl wonder how can one get so attached to a pet, especially a cat. But it happens just like one gets attached to a baby, or a boyfriend, or girlfriend. We all love in our own ways, and so do our pets. They don't judge us, or yell at us. or call us names. All they want to do is show you that they love you and hope that you love them back just as much.

To my babies, cause they were my babies, I pray that they are at peace and in a better place. I hope that they are running free, chasing birds and butterflies, but not hurting them. I hope that one day I will see them again when my time comes to depart this world that I have grown to love so much. Until then my babies, I wish you love.

This diary is not empty any more, but it is still sad. I am sad. I am upset. I am crying. I don't know what I did to piss off my friends. I guess maybe I should just stay away from here for a while.