"If you were going to die soon and had only one phone call you could make, who would you call and what would you say? 


And why are you waiting?" ~Stephen Levine

"There's one sad truth in life I've found
While journeying east and west -
The only folks we really wound
Are those we love the best.
We flatter those we scarcely know,
We please the fleeting guest,
And deal full many a thoughtless blow
To those who love us best."
  ~Ella Wheeler Wilcox

"The bitterest tears shed over graves are for words left unsaid and for deeds left undone." ~Harriet Beecher Stowe

omg this is so sad...so right now my mom called me into her room and was alll

"sooooo not trying to be mean or anything but didnt nicole look like a slut"

i was stunned and started laughing

she goes "no really didnt you see the cake of makeup she was wearing ..i mean yes the dress was rather suave and nice but the face and the whole ass sticking out hahahaaa"

i was like "omg mom what is the matter with you?"

shes all "what? *shrugs* i mean it was like *cough*slut*cough cough*"

The truth is:
We only walk away
to see who will follow
We only hide
to see who will find us
We only cry
to see who will wipe away our tears and
We only let our
hearts break
or break our hearts
to see who will try to fix them

was this what you wanted to see
a gargoyle that burns in hell
but secretly yearns for heaven
secretly


When you love someone, all your saved-up wishes start coming out.

so my mom calls me in her room and goes

"so i was wondering...for only 70 bucks you can buy for yourself a wonderful new hairdo that makes you look like you've been sleeping for hours..i will call it 'the ILLUSION of sleep' by mia...would you like to purchase it?.."

i turn to my dad start laughing and hold up my fingers to show that she is high

then she starts talkin all weird,

i say to my dad who is laughing "what the hell did she just say?"

he goes "and with the purchase of 'the ILLUSION of sleep' you will also get the video 'the Illusion of actually knowing how to speak'"

i swear my parents are fucking on something
has my world gone even more crazier???

hahaha its the story Saxon told me while trying to get me to wake all the way up ...i was laughing the whole time so i guess it worked

i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
hi
Ashley~ says:
damn dude....I was totally asleep
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
when
Ashley~ says:
this whole time....especially when you said hi
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
sorry
Ashley~ says:
its okies
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
did i
Ashley~ says:
did u what?
Ashley~ says:
dude what are you talking about?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
i am talking about
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
well
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
it all starts in the middle ages
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
when sheep were more expensive hahahaha
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
and kings rode horses
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
a time of jesters and a time of kings
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
a time of merriment
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
a time of sorrow
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
but it was a mainly happiness lol
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
it was on a day such as this where we start our story
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the young prince was looking up to the sky and calls out a name familiar to some it was the name of Ashley
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
of course there was no reply for the fair maiden was trapped in the lair of the dragon
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
and only one man can save the Ashley
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
and that man is the brave sir Saxon
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
he shall kill the dragon and save the princess
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
cutting a long story short he kills the dragon and saves the princess and they live happily eva after
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
how good is that
i have come to clean the pool O_o just sent you a Nudge!
Ashley~ says:
sorry I’ve been trying to calm myself i almost fell off my chair laughing
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
how good of a point was that
Ashley~ says:
huh?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
that was my point
Ashley~ says:
what what?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
I don’t remember
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
was my story good ?
Ashley~ says:
Haha yeah ..........so how’d they live happily eva afta?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
well I am glad u asked
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
after the demise of the big dragon
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
on the way home to the castle
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
there was a rebel army that told the coach with sir Saxon and princess ash as occupants that " you cant get through here there is a witch in the woods"
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
I said " I will risk"
Ashley~ says:
but you’d risk getting the princess Ashley in danger? lol
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
-Yes...no… but I have a plan-
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
i was hoping it was a trick by my evil uncle Boris which controlled the black tower of Isith,
Ashley~ says:
was it?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
what I forgot to mention to my readers is... once inside the dark forest it looks like it is night due to the way the light is filtered out,
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so if someone was going to follow us there is no way they would follow us through the black forest
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
there are a lot of wives tales for young boys to stop them from fleeing in to the woods at night but wives tales are told for a reason
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
-CLIFFNOTED FOOTNOTE-
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the rebel army has just passed through the dark forest on their way to the battle to save the useless castle
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so I decide to set foot with you in the woods
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the horses made to much noise though
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
"what we have to do is walk north and we should end up at the black castle"
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
-there is a reason as well-
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
because the black castle is the closest safest way to our wonderful white castle, but if there is a witch I fear for our lives
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so after one day I think that we are looking good I feel like I am taking u north
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
and u say
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
“isn’t that the same tree we saw yesterday”
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
“of course not i no where we are”
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so with out telling me you put your neck lace on a branch of a tree to prove to me that we are going around in circles
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
at the end of day 2 you are right we have been walking around in circles for 2 whole days
Ashley~ says:
ok then but what necklace...the skull one or the crystal one?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
your neck lace
Ashley~ says:
yes which one?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
crystal
Ashley~ says:
continue brave sir Saxon
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
I felt lost, really lost and confused
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
like that feeling you get when you get dumped by a very large wave when out surfing
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
just lost
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
because I am the trick writer I can give footnotes and stuff so I will
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
-FOOTNOTE- (hehe)
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
what is going on see is I feel the witch has cast a spell on me making me walk a lil bit closer and closer to the witch house every day
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so after a week of walking -oh yeah if we did not have the spell us we could really see the house instead of what we saw-
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
this is all i remember of the final days we were alive
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
a brick walk way going up to a black front door, it was raining so heavy we needed cover
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so we went in
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
-SLAM-
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the door shuts with furious speed I jumped about a foot in the air. the most interesting evil thing about this witch is
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
she looks like your perfect partner
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
so there is no way you would kill your perfect partner
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
would u ?
Ashley~ says:
if i really really had to
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
and not being a witch hunter i had no knowledge of this information
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
LOOK around the room:
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
there are nooses hanging all around
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
and scratches and blood on the walls
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
by this stage you would think that we would be scared right?
Ashley~ says:
  eewww
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
but this is where another one of the witches spells come in
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
what we see now when we wake is we are back in the forest
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
there is 2 possibilities
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
one she let us go
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
2
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
we are still there but she has just made it seem like we are in the forest
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the red
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
green
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
blue
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
..........
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
wait
Ashley~ says:
what?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
do u hear that chanting?
Ashley~ says:
no
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
Really?
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
that can only mean one thing
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the black witch has let you go but not me
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
i feel a burning in my ribs working down
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
then a searing pain in my head
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
then nothing
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
you get back safely to the white castle
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
well your sense of direction is a lot better than mine
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
some how months later you hear the terrible news that you have been fearing
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
a night pulls up in his noble steed and says to u “sir Saxon died a death worse than death
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
the evil witch turned him in to a witch”
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
no wait hang on >.<
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
“turned him in to a mOOse”
Ashley~ says:
nooo
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
fine
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
they tell Ashley of how sir Saxon was dismembered then his brain pulled through his nose,
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
in this Ashley says " I will never be happy again"
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
with this she climbs to the top of the town throwing her self off
on the way down you can here "mom m m mm mm mmy" then thud then silence
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
Ashley is that you??
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
Ashley i thought i would never see u again
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
sir Saxon greets with a big smile Ashley the love of his life
Ashley and Saxon now are happy together
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
happy in death for eternity
i have come to clean the pool O_o says:
Damn that story had everything
Ashley~ says:
  it did lol

my boredness/ illness made me do it


001: Name: Ashley
002: Nickname: ashy, ash, aira, chick with green hair…
003: Country of living: United States
004: Birth date: feb. 1, 1992
005: Hair Length: almost to my ass when pulled straight but since it is kinda curly sems a lil longer than half way down my back
006: Eye color: brown to black
007: Shoe size: depends ranges from 8-10
008: School/work: work
009: You smoke: no
010: Hobby's: ……………….
011: Brothers/Sisters: 1 sis
012: Relationship: no
013: Piercing(s): yes
014: Tattoo: no
015: Favorite Country to go to: don’t have one
016: Are there people you wont reply to?: no
017: Nicest person you met this year: …I dunno….
018: Person(s) you rather not have met this year: hmmm a person
019: Who would you like to meet: everyone
020: Who do you admire most: someone
021: Most sexy person(s): hmmmm not gone say
022: Favorite Pajamas: shorts and a tee
023: Favorite Car: No idea
024: Favorite Movie(s): bugsy malone
025: Favorite Music: anything except country
026: Favorite City(s): --.--
027: Favorite Plush: ooo oooooooo ooooo ooooo teddy cat
028: Favorite Perfume: ummm…vanilla body spray
029: Favorite Magazine: don’t have one
030: Favorite sound: (s) sound of my mom singing…*sigh* and the sound of water and my grandma playing the piano, and my uncle Ben playing the piano or guitar…silence
031: Favorite TV-series: hmmm ooo csi csi csi i love that show
032: Favorite Author: :/
033: Favorite Nickname: *sigh* ooo bubbles
034: What is on your mouse pad: don’t have one
035: What all is under your bed: boxes of po...etry hahahahaha tottaly had you for a sec
036: Favorite color: black, purple, white and grey/gray
037: Favorite Song ever: *shrugs*
038: Favorite song at this moment: idk
039: Favorite food: anything spicy or Italian
040: Favorite class at school: lunch…cuz i dont have to do anything (I dont eat though)
041: Favorite drink: tea
042: Lucky number: idk
043: What do you think that is greatest about yourself: nothin
044: What deodorant do you use: dove
045: Favorite shoes: comfy ones
046: What time do you go to bed on weekdays: hmmmmmmm
047: What word(s) do you use most: the words I use most
048: Most romantic moment in your life: hehe
049: Most embarrassed moment of your life: rather not say
050: You spend your time rather inside or outside: inside
051:What do you do in the weekends: talk on the phone, try to sleep, stay up late, other things
052: What class in school do/did you dislike most: Bio
053: Your Breakfast: don’t eat breakfast
054: What do you really dislike to eat: asparagus *bleh*
055: Pets: yep
056: Laugh or dream: both
057: Serious or funny: both
058: Fast or slow: both
059: You prefer being alone or have relation: relation
060: Simple or Complicated: both
061: Cremate or Buried when dead: frozen^^
062: Sex or alcohol: …..
063: Stay up late or go to bed early: stay up late
064: Light or dark?: both
065: Speak or Silence: both
066: tall or small guys: tall
067: News paper: everyonce and a while
068: Hug or kiss: both
069: Happy or Sad: happy
070: Life or Death: life
071: Gig or Disco: hehe both
072: Left or Right: right
073: Sausages on top, or on the side: neither…don’t like sausages
074: Dark/ red/ Blonde: any
075: What would you ask god if you could ask him 1 single question: will you make them sufer?
076: you believe in reincarnation: yea
077: you believe in Aliens: yes
078: When you die, what will be your last words: and with a kiss i die
079: Does true love exist? Yeah somewhere
080: How many kids would you like to have?: 2 or more…I love having a big family
081: What is the thing you can't stand: hmmmm
082: Best feeling: love
083: Worst feeling in the world: watching someone you care about get hurt
084: What are you afraid of: my real father
085: Are you an emotional person: yes
086: You cry while watching a movie? Hahah depends on what movie
087: Your goal in life: to become a window washer
088: What was the promise you made to yourself at New Years Eve: didn't make one
090: As what animal would you like to reincarnate: a MONKEY.
091: What is the most beautiful part on the female body: eyes
092: Most original place to ask your lover to marry you: hmmm on the roof under the stars…i would love that
093: What do you think of elf town? GO ELFTOWN
094: Is there something you miss about elf town? …
095: Besides elf town, what do you do most on your PC: check mail, IM, look things up, listen to la banda musica, read...
097: Favorite Actor: …….
098: Favorite Actress: *shrugs*
099: Favorite Anime: none
100: Favorite Mangas: none
101: Blah: what the hell?
102: What super powers do you wish to have: ooooooooooo super window washing skills
103: Your gender: female
104: Straight/gay/BI: bi
105: Single: yes
106: Want to be: a window washer
107: Age you act: *shrugs* my age
108: Age you wish you were: 16
109: Your height: 5'5
110: Happy with it: no *pouts*
111: The color of your hair: multicolored
112: Happy with it: NEVER
113: Left/right/ambidextrous: right
114 Your living arrangement: living with my family
115: What's your job: ehh have a couple lil ones
116: Piercings: yes
117: Obsessions: a few ppl, doodling…writing
118: Do you speak another language: un pacito espanol
119: Have a favorite quote: lots
120: Do you have a Web Page: yea
121: Do you live in the moment: no
122: Do you consider yourself tolerant of others: yes
123: Do you have any secrets: yes
124: Do you hate yourself: sometimes
125: Do you like your handwriting: no no no no no it changes to much
126: Do you have any bad habits: yes, moving hands when talk, moving feet when sleep…chewing my finger nails...chewing on my pens…talkin to much… yeah…and more
127: What is the compliment you get most from people: hmm ooo oo oo i love your hair HAHA yeah…and being called sweetie and hun
128: If a movie were made about your life, what would it be called: monkeylumps
129: What's your biggest fear: of becoming like i used to be…don’t ask
130: Can you sing: yeah
131: Do you ever pretend to be someone else just to look cool: no
132: Are you a loner: *laughs* in the end yea
133: If you were another person, would you be friends with you: maybe not
134: Are you a daredevil: hmmm no
135: Is there anything you fear or hate about yourself: yes
136: Are you passive or aggressive: both
137: Have you got a question: ehhhhh
138: What is your greatest strength and weakness: weakness-believing people can change strength-caring for people (this can be a weakness too)
139: If you could change one thing about yourself, what would it be: something
140: There are three wells, love, beauty and creativity, which one do you choose: love
141: How do you vent: writing, punching things (mainly my punching bag^^)
142: Do you think you are emotionally strong: no
143: Is there anything you regret doing/not doing in life: hell yea
144: Do you think life has been good so far: *sigh* in some ways yes
145: What is the most important lesson you've learned from life: don’t doubt everyone for someone does end up surprising you
145: What do you like the most about your body: ….*shrugs*
146: And least: *raises an eyebrow*
147: Do you think you are good looking: no
148: Are you confident: in myself?..not really
149: What is the fictional character you're most like: eek i dunno
150: Do people know how you feel: hmmm im not sure
151: Are you perceived wrongly: i dunno
152: Smoke: no
153: Do drugs: medical
154: Read the newspaper: I did yesterday
155: Pray: no
156: Go to church: no
157: Talk to strangers who IM you: no >.<
158: Sleep with stuffed animals: awwww yes *huggles teddycat* i do
159: Take walks in the rain: yes
160: Talk to people even though you hate them: yeah
161: Drive: not yet
162: Like to drive fast: yes
163: Like your voice: no
164: Hurt yourself: yes
165: Been out of the country: no
166: Eaten something that made other people sick: I dunno
167: Burped: no shit...what kind of question is that?
168: Been unfaithful: not really
169: Been in love: im not exactly sure
170: Done drugs: ….
171: Gone skinny-dipping: *blushes*
172: Had a surgery: no
173: Ran away from home: no
174: Played strip poker: hahahahaha yeah at kates birthday
175: Gotten beaten up: no
176: Been picked on: *glares* yes everyday...my peeps can be mean *stomps foot* damnit >.< im not that short
177: Been on stage: yes
178: Been so drunk that you can't remember your name?: no
179: Slept outdoors: yes^^ all the time I love it
180: Thought about suicide: yes
181: Pulled an all-nighter: hahahaa yeah
182: If yes, what is your record: im not exactly sure one i remember was like 11 days who actually cares?
183: Gone one day without food: *shrugs* yeah
184: Talked on the phone all night: *happy sigh* yea I have
185: Slept together with the opposite sex without actually having sex?: yes
186: Slept all day: no..it is extremely hard for me to sleep during the day
187: Killed someone: negativo capitan
188: Made out with a stranger: hahaha
189: Had sex with a stranger: no
190: Thought you're going crazy: …no *crazy eyes* never NEVER I TELL YOU
191: Kissed the same sex: yea
192: Done anything sexual with the same sex: well seeing as i am bi *voice trails off*
193: Been betrayed: *pouts* yeah
194: Had a dream that came true: yeah *smiles*
195: Broken the law: many times
196: Met a famous person: yes
197: Have you ever killed an animal by accident: bugs count?
198: Stolen anything: *sigh*.
199: Been on radio/TV: no
200: Been in a mosh-pit: yes
201: Had a nervous breakdown: *laughs* yes
202: Considered religious vocation: no
203: Are you a virgin: *looks away*
204: Bungee jumped: no
205: Had a dream that kept coming back: yes --.--
206: Believe in life on other planets: yeah
207: Miracles: yes sometimes
208: Astrology: yeah
209: Magic: yeah
210: God: more than one
211: Satan: no
212: Santa: --.-- my dream of meeting Santa was squashed 
213: Ghosts: yea
214: Luck: yea
215: Love at first sight: *sigh* maybe
216: Yin and Yang: yes
217: Witches: yes
219: Believe it's possible to remain faithful forever: yes
220: Believe there's a pot of gold at the end of the rainbow: yeah…no
221: Do you wish on stars?: yes
222: Do you remember your first love?: yes
223: Still love him/her: wasn’t really love
224: Do you consider love a mistake: sometimes
225: What do you find romantic: caring for one another
226: Turn-on: ….hmmm…
227: Turn-off: grapefruits
228: Do you base your judgment on looks alone: no

Me with out you
is like
shoes without laces
a nerd without braces
and sentences without spaces
i cant live without you
i love you
-*!~:)DoPeY~N~Ba$hFuL(:~!*-

without humor life sucks
without courage lifes hard
without love lifes hopeless
without friends lifes impossible
-*!~:)DoPeY~N~Ba$hFuL(:~!*-

Through all the lies from your mouth your silence shocked us all..just speak your thoughts aloud but let them be true and not ruin the lives around you

swanky-my new word^^

its called a heart, look deep down and try to find one..

i dont need a friend, i need to mend so far away..so come sit by the fire^^ and play for a while

wait before you take that off can we have a meeting

you mean a meeting?^^

oh ewwwwww

ohh ahhhhh my mind, my mindddd ahhhhhhh

what?

ima good kid if anyone wants me im sure they can sign the papers and ill come and be a good addition to your family *cheesy smile*

ekk she called me she called me *dances* how can i be this happy over a lil gurl?..becuz i wuv her she is like one of those ppl that if she smiles her lil gurl smile she makes u instantly happy...and bubba omgah bubba he is starting to talk and he actually didnt call me bob this time *laughs* he is a goof...(yes that is why i love the name bob..and use it alot cuz bob is a great word^^ 'specially if u get called that by a lil kid) ...*sigh* they sound so grown...i havent seen them in a couple months..oh well i have to go see them soon, ive been selfish and need to see them..

ok awesomenesss news...ok for all those who know T.I (yes the rapper if u wanna stop reading now, then fuck off but otherwise continue) well my uncle david(the younger one not the older one he is like 21 and full italian [huggles him] i wuv him) well anyways he is a rapper and recently got signed to a label well T.I heard his songs so now they are gonna put a C.D out together, he is gonna move up to phoenix and work up there..itsnt it awesomeness^^ im so proud of him plus with his new baby boy he is gonna need the money..yay! for family

Random things of my day (8-21(22 for some)-06)

i

♥

they told me to say i forgive you, but im not going to...i dunno what i think right now...except stop thinking of me like a drug.

^Violent times
And _wondering eyes
       Deception
  supported by thoughts
   my time
   

WASTED